i will continue on with this diary. and even if one person sees it, maybe it will change that person, and then a chain reaction will begin. probably not. but it's the only thing i can do. i used to think that people who thought what i think now were insane. but then one day i opened my eyes. i guess you have to fine your own way to open your eyes. mine was finding someone who pushed to think differently. and i found bill hicks through him. bill hicks is the prophet that no one talks about. bill hicks picked out the world's faults and if he could only see what the fuck is happening now. sex sells everything. 15 year olds are posing without shirts and calling it artistic. people are shoving drinks down their throats and drugs up their noses. drugs that keep them thinking the same thing. drugs that keep them quiet and following the herd. i however, am tired of blindly accepting the lies i'm fed. we are people. we are powerful. why follow what a little man in a suit says. we are bred to follow orders. it's insanity. we are smart. we made computers, we wasted our time making cell phones smaller and smaller. we can do so much. the sick thing is, the only reason we push ourselves with technology is to make money. lately i've been feeling like, why can't everything be free. why should i pay for an education? well because does our governement really want a whole country of smart, deep, people. no. they don't. like bill hicks said, "turn off your internal dialogue." which took me forever, but i've almost finally done it. --samy.