So once again i have decided to fill u in on my life to anyone out there who reads this. I feel physically and emotionally drained right now, for reasons only few know about . Well christmas is only in 4 day snad i am not really prepared for it. To me it just dosnt seem like a joyous time of the year. I feel its just another over-advertised holiday that corperate america can make money off of, butr i love it none thre less. So i'm off to do something else.

Well ive been meaning to update for about a week now but i've never really got around to it. But i have to say from last weekend to today it has been uterly amazing. My friends are a big part of my life, along with music. To them i owe all of my great weekends and without them i would be not who i am today. Last weekend was the best hanging out at saras house and just chilling like we didnt have a care in the world. I love that carefree feeling just as if nothing in the world can bring you down. Like your floating on clouds. Hopefully that feeling will stay around for a while. So once again i am off, only to leave you with some words of wisdom. Laugh ofter, Love much, Live as though every day were your last.

Ok so im back i havent really been wanting to write that much lately. So a lot of stuff has happened since my last entry but i just dont want to explain it right now. So last night me and beth went tot he football game and met up with some people, which was pretty cool. Thankfully the rain held out so we didnt get drenched in it. Sara got hurt cause she fell and smacked her head on the ground so we took care of her. Shes feeling better today so im glad of that. So that all i have to say for the moment, maybe ill start to update more then once every 2 months.

Ok so here we go last nigh twas fucking amazing cause beth and merideth came over. So we hung out, played a game of life, listened to music and made a cake. While the cake was cooking we layed out in the middle of the rode and looked at cloud shapes. Pretty fun. Its gonna be a deffanate that they come over again. So school starts tomorrow and im not ready for any aspect of it. I've got like a zillion butterflies in my stomache for some odd reason or another. But i guess as the day may go on it will get better. I think that the only reason im like this is im going into school blind sited , not knowing where im supposed to go, reason being the school didnt want to send home schedules. But i guess ill see my friends tomorrow. So later

Well guys im leaving for canada in the morning. Wont be back for a week. Soo i'll leave you at that i still have a shitload of packing to do. So i'll catcha all later.

Well i had a last minuet offer to babysit today and since i needed some money i decided to baby-sit i had to take the kids to this pool. I ended up sitting aroung for 3 hours reading. So after i was done i ended up with $25 and sunburn. So that was my day, how exciting.

Well i've been in sort of a dazed mood the last 2 days.I can put on a smile for everyone to see im happy, but deep down its tearing me up. I'm constintantly shaking, my hands are cold. Like someone has taken a chunk of my heart ripped it out, nad tore it in half. Well im going now, if you dont hear from me in a few days im still hybernating.

Ok so i really loved the anonymous comment that some fucker left for me. As i see it that person has no life, and goes around correcting other peoples grammer. So thats all i am willing to say at this moment, because at this point in time i am pretty pissed right now.

ok so hears a new one for ya. my life has no meaning what so ever. im striving towards a goal that everyone thinks im never gonna get to. or if i do end up where i want to be i'm gonna be put down for not being able to do better. so its full swing into summer and ive done nothing remotly exciting. all i've been reciently hearing about is geoff and bryan bitch back and forth at each other which in any case is nothing new at all. so thats all for this update, maybe if ur lucky ill update again this month.

Ok so saturday was merideths party. I hada great time, i expected more people to be there, but oh well. Everyone had a great time just hanging out and watching movies. I felt kinda bad for geoff casue his mom sort of forgot to pick him up and didnt end up leaving until 2 in the morning. Me and sara coudn't fall asleep till 4 in the morning. But it was all good. It turned out i didnt have to take whitney home casue she decided to leave early. Who knows what her problem was, didnt spoil my time though.

Well last night was merideths party, it was so much fun. Im really tired so im gonna tell you all about it in anouther entry, i think im gonna go to sleep.

Ok well today was intresting.drivers ed was very intresting/gross like it always is. I sort of grossed out geoff and kyle with something i told them. Yay. I win for the day. So anyway, theres only 7 more days left of school. I can't wait till merideths party. It will be so much fun. It would be even more fun if whitney wasnt there to hang all over me. But oh well, maybe she will stay away from me the entire time. Although i highly dought theat will happen.

Well this weekend was a total waste. There was only one good aspect of it. Me and steph want to the movies, but not really. We just got dinner and walked around peoples plaza. IT was a fun night. Besides that i didnt do shit this weekend, just sat around on my ass. So my parents are fighting again. Thats a shocker, and its like my mom gives me and my dad the silent treatment all day. Then she just goes off after dinner leavign me to clean up the whole kitchen. And in return i would at least like a measly thanks, but thats just asking to much of her. But you can't expect that from my mom.

I feel like i've lost a good friend of mine. ITs liek hes to busy to talk to me , or preoccupied with other things to give a shit about how i'm doing, or even wanting to know how my day was. But oh well i guees i cant have it all.

I swear im such a procrastinator. I have a project due thursday and i just started it today. Well i guess thats better then saving it till the night before, dont ya think. Well after this thing is done i can start on the second part of my science thing. My bitch of a teacher decided to give us the sheet telling us when it has to be presented. I made the mistake of telling my mom about the extra credit i can get, so now she expects me to do it in 1 fucking day. Well i also have a project due the 17th and thats only half done. After all of this shit is done i will be so happy. But here comes the best part, on top of these projects i have homework, upon homework, upon homework, so this just blows the big one. Only 21 more days left of school, thank god!

Last night me and my mom went to friendly's. I have to admit we actually got along. So when we got there we had to wait a few minuets and she just turns to me and says, " if that was my kid i would haev to smack him". That i started laughing at her. So when we were finished eating i said to my mom our servers voice is really annoying, so she starts laughing at me and said, its not annoying, its bubbly.

Well today i thought i was gonna have a really shitty day. It turns out that i had a pretty good day. I dought myself into thinking things arnt gonna go they way i want them. When in reality they go just fine. What really bugs me is when ever im watching the news randon people just wave on the camera. ITs like oh look at me , i dont give a shit whats going on in the world. I just want to wave at the camera. I mean how would that person feel if they were talking to someone and you came up and just waved. I know that sort of dosnt make sense, but i know wat im talking about so, whatever.

Today i was really out of it. I was really disoriented. Like the day was just passing by. Going by and not even stopping, for me to catch up. Does that sound weird to anyone else but me? Everyone noticed how i was acting. Geoff asked if i was sick, i wasn't at the time, but i sort of feel like it now. Kye said i was acting bitchy, but i really dont give a fuck what he says at the moment. I've just been listenign to music to try and make me feel better, its working a little bit. So i think im going to go to sleep again maybe i'll feel better when i wake up.

Today me and steph went to the movies. It was ok. We just decided to head over to Applebee's. Then after we paid we went out to wait for her brother. While waiting we saw this women pick up a rock and jusat walk away with it. So we decided to be stupid and take a rock with us to. So now i have a rock sitting up in my room, that we named bradely. I swear i can be so weird at times.

GOd I hate my mom so much. She dosnt appericiate anything i do. If i do something fro her, its not done the way she wants it done. I mean does it really matter how its done as long as it gets done? When she does this its makes me feel as thought nothing is ever gonna be good enough for her, including me