i am young. i am in love with my best friend. i am hopeless because of this. i am part insomniac part pathological liar. i am restless these days. i am nervous these days. i am trying to forget the past. i am trying to forget the future. i am in school. i am studying biology. i am studying world history. i am scared of thunderstorms. i am 6'4." i am 190 lbs. i am dark complexed with dark hair with blue eyes. i am intolerant of people different then me. i am a wreck. i'd like to think that if i try hard enough then some thing good will happen. but some times it all just crashes down around me and i become nervous again. i wish i could talk to the people around me but they have no idea of what or who i really am. somedays it feels so difficult to breathe.