Ok, sitDiary is a million and 1 times better than xanga. Today was ok - for once. Except the morning because, idk .. I was crying & it wasn't good. :( then I picked out my clubs & went to gym, which was so funnyyy. :) lauren got in a fight w/ this fat girl that steals shit. 8) purrty hilarious. then the rest of the day draggggged. until french - which was funnyyy. "Your gunna buy a fetus?" 8) then I got home & ate some dinner & I still have to work-out even though I think I pulled a hamstring. =X whateverrr

Well today was the first day back to school. You have no idea how out of place I felt. It was soo weird. The seniors arent there & these KiDS are there in they're place. I dont like them there & I want them to go away. Other than that, it was nice to see everyone again. I can tell this year is gunna be fucking hard for me. Very hard. Oh well, I guess I need to be challenged & I cant let myself get caught in myself so much. I need to focus on school, no matter how hard thats gunna be. =X & as we all know, the kid that I liked in 7th grade to 9th grade. =P well he's back in my life. I dont know .. its WAY to soon after bryan to think about these things, because Im still struggling with the fact that me & bry are over. =( but its a nice feeling .. one that I need to help me get through my break-up..

Well school tomorrow :) & I sorta am dreading it because, well the seniors last year rocked. ;) & taking they're place are gay seniors & the new freshman.. well they are the worst class ever. =X all whores & assholes. except geoff. & I want to go too. because I miss it alot. I miss having something to do everyday. :P except drama, wont miss that.. l0ve equalsxliEs: green day can kiss ass bc its all they DO Betty The Hobbit: Marissa, you're retarded lmao Betty The Hobbit: Greenday sucks ass... l0ve equalsxliEs: i try :) Betty The Hobbit: Wow. Betty The Hobbit: :P Betty The Hobbit: I like Betty The Hobbit: how they make pomes Betty The Hobbit: and sing it ^ wow .. :)

Just so people know. Bryan & me broke up. =( I guess I was retarded or something to think things would work with him at college. I`m a stupid romance sap. What can I do? I miss him .. alot. I guess all I can do is move on, even though I dont want to. Anyways.. I went to sami`s house on thursday! =) & had fun there. We decided to sleep in the tent =P & at like 9;30 we snuck out to meet tom. WHO SNEAKS OUT AT 9;30??? we do. 8) so we meet him & sit on top of this litttttle hill & I of course sit on the tip of it & roll backwards down it. =) oh yeah & if you're wondering A MAiLB0X = A PERS0N = A TREE! then i called mark on my cell & someone answered & theyre like MIKES PIZZARIA & im like wrong number =X & i hung up. so i tell sami & tom & they're like you idiot it was probably mark. so i called back & all mark could say was "you are so fucking retarded" =)

Not updating .. just ranting. bc I gotta let this out before I start crying bc thats where Im headed. I dont know what to do. Im sitting here, waiting to see if bryan will call. He said we'd hang out again this saturday so I thought "I'll just call him tonight" so I see him at work so then I decide to call him & he isnt picking up his phone. Maybe he isnt just because he doesnt wanna be with me tonight or he doesnt wanna be with me period. This hurts alot & its SO hard for me to have a good thing & not feel threatened by other girls. Im not gunna say WHO, but I love her & Im not made at her, Im just afraid. & I dont know what to do. I need to talk to someone but I have to talk to someone who wont dismiss my problems & will listen and help. ahh I hate myself..

Yehp, call the news. 8) sami is coming home tomorrow. & I NEEDDD to stay over at her house as SOON as possible. :) i cant wait! maybe I can thursday? thatd be awesome bc by then I`ll have my wonderful new cell phone. ♥ Anyways, today was borrriing. I tried to load the sims 2 into my computer & of course it didnt work bc my computer is a piece of shit. So then I mowed the lawn & was so smelly & sweaty it was disgusting. =X ^ see borrriing!

Alrighty, I dont remember ANYTHiNG after saturday so I'll start there.. I woke up & went into work around 9 and decided to wear jeans. :) because Im oh-so-badass. 8) I got yelled at for it but what are ya gunna do?! So ashley worked & it was fun filled. I was just obnoxious the entire day! & then my mom came and picked me up at 4;30 & we went home. I called bryan to see what time he was gunna come get me. He didnt answer .. so I decided Id call in an hour or so & when I did.. he didnt pick up. I got a little worried, but my mom being S0 FUCKiNG W0NDERFUL, decides to give me a "talk" about how I should expect bryan to break up with me & find someone else at college. I cried alot & finally he called [while I was crying - but I dont think he noticed] so he said he'd come at 6. When I hung up the phone JESSSSA called. :) & I told her about my mom & she made me feel oddles better because jessa has that power. 0=) I had to get off the phone with her when bryan came to get me in this BIG AS FUCK TRUCK! =0 so we decided to go to blockbuster to get jeepers creepers but they didnt have it so we got the texas chainsaw massacre. =X we went to his dads house & watched it in his basement. that looked like it got stuck in the 70`s :) & we watched the movie, which I must say was DISGUSTING!! & then we watched other movies & stuff. ♥ It was simply fun. then at 10 his grandma kicked us out. 8) and he drove me home & I sorta smacked him & made his gums bleed. 0=) so he left & I went to bed. the next morning I was just lazzzzzy & went to work around 4? & it was the DAY FROM HELLL! seriously, I was suposed to work with jess so I thought it would be really fun, but she decides to call off. & I dont feel like typing it all but in short, shaun did something that EVERY CASHIER IN THAT STORE DOES! but he got caught & roberta was bitchy all fucking night & kyle is a dickface. end of story. Today, I ate & read all day. then my mom called & said she'd take me to get a pizza tonight, so Im like YEAH! so she gets here & we drive to wal-mart, where we look at phones but I didnt like them so I was whining & because Im oh-so-spoiled! my mom said we could go to the call to get my phone early. so I was happy but I had to give up the pizza. but I hardly cared. :) so we got in the car & I suggested maybe music & vid. express had them? so we drove there & THEY DID! so I picked my phone & ashleyyy got it all set up & everything & then my mom went to pay for it &&&&&&& the credit card didnt work. >:o so NO CELLY TONIGHT! theyre holding it for us until my mom gets paid on thursday. :( & so we went to super duper to get a pizza & jess was there & I made her walk around with me & we saw bryan. NOW I KNOW HE DOESNT LIKE TO TALK WHEN HES WORKING BUT I GOT A BADDDDD VIBE. & jess said him, kyle, & mike were staring at girls? who knows.. jess might not be reliable & kyle has a girlfriend to. idont know but guys DEF. suck... alot.

Yeah, ok. New diary. That only you two can read, just you two. Fuck everyone else. =) Yesterday was FUNNNN! I got up & got ready for work, & I didnt have to wear a jacket because.. I just didnt. =) so they put me on register 4 (yes!) so all I did was help ashley [gibbons] & run around the store, helping matt. I love ashley! Shes so funny. & does the besst mad tv impersonations. ;] & well, I was having fun. & bryan worked that day but he did deliveries so he didnt talk to me or anythingg. so after he left, kaeling asks me why we didnt talk? I wanted to yell, ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS? HES WORKING AND SO AM I! AND ITS NOT YOUR BUISNESS! I DONT GO ASKING YOU STUPID ASS QUESTIONS ABOUT DUSTIN, DO I? omfg. i wanted to punch that girl out. =) but i didnt of course. so work was over with & I went home. Got ice cream for my dogg. ♥ then at aroun 7? i got bored and bryan called & I was complaining to him about how bored I was & we decided to go out. My dad wanted to know EXACTLY where we were going but my mom was like, "go wherever, ill tell your dad you went to a car show or something" I was like GO LYING MOM! =) so we left & drove around until we just went to his house & watched tv. I like him ALOT. but hes been getting to me lately. with his whole.. "Im right & your wrong" thing. He freaking still chews & I dont like it & he knows it. So I was like mad about it & hes like "oh well, im gunna do it" & im like ok maybe ill just start SMOKING again. & hes like "well you wouldnt be going out with me, thats for sure" LITTLE HYPOCRITICAL YA THINK? He can chew but GOHD IF I SMOKED THATD BE IT!.. then i was upset because if a little thing like smoking would make him break up with me.. he must not care about me THAT much. ya know? ughh, just getting to me a little bit. so then I kinda cried & he saw me and I told him that the kaelin thing today was the thing that was bothering me & i think he could tell i was lying. so we got outta the car & he starts LAUGHING at me? saying Im "funny" im like ok? gohd.. hes harder to read then a GiRL!!! oh well.. =/