Not updating .. just ranting. bc I gotta let this out before I start crying bc thats where Im headed. I dont know what to do. Im sitting here, waiting to see if bryan will call. He said we'd hang out again this saturday so I thought "I'll just call him tonight" so I see him at work so then I decide to call him & he isnt picking up his phone. Maybe he isnt just because he doesnt wanna be with me tonight or he doesnt wanna be with me period. This hurts alot & its SO hard for me to have a good thing & not feel threatened by other girls. Im not gunna say WHO, but I love her & Im not made at her, Im just afraid. & I dont know what to do. I need to talk to someone but I have to talk to someone who wont dismiss my problems & will listen and help. ahh I hate myself..