Well... I dont know what to do. What to write. What to say. Lifes good I guess. Asked that girl out. She said no, but she had a good reason. Thats good I guess. I have to help my other friend become "normal" again. Temper problems she has. I dont know. Im not in a good mood anymore. My moms a jerk. Says im a tramp. What ever, Im not a tramp. I dont phone sex. Heeh, well maybe I do. But hey. SHh, dont tell anyone. Jakes talking to me again. Listeing to Girl Anachrism by Dredsen Dolls. Good song. My throat hurts. Im not trying to rant. But, heyy. I like teddy bears. I want one for Valentines Day. I want a vinilla colered bear, holdin a read box that says "chalklets" In kid writing, holding Dandilions. That would be so cute. I have to go soon. No matter how bad I dont want to. Leaving for my moms Wednesday. I dont want to go. Have limited time on the computer and I cant use the cam. That doesnt bug me much...What bugs me is that I have to be there with 10 people (including my sister, brother and I.) And 5 of them ar younger than I am. AND!! And, my Grandmother. Dear God, my grandmother..shes overprotective, and anxious. I dont know how to describe her. Im leaving...Bye Love you... Do you wish to see me die tonight??