It's been so long since i've used this thing. a lot of things have changed in my life. my brother was killed in a car accident back in september. He was drinking and driving he took a turn at 80mph in his jeep. It flipped and rolled about 6 times before hitting a tee cutting the jeep in half.He survived the crash, but he was in a coma for three weeks. Our family decided to take him off life support. He had broken his neck and did something to the tissue in his spine. He was 25. everythng just keeps getting worse. dan is getting shipped off to iraq next week. he was my brother's best friend, the only guy i could really talk to and be honest with, and now hes gonna be gone. me and amber are doing okay. i'd probably be with my brother if it wasn't for her. amber wants to spend christmas with my mom this year. it's hard enough that my brothers gone but my mom just makes everyting a lot worse. shes always crying and she wants me to go to this group thing with her to grieve for my brother. i love my mom, but i can't do that. she keeps asking me to move back in but theres no way three people can live in a studio apartment together. i feel so shitty for doing this to her but i can't... i have to take care of things. there isnt anything else worth updating. i need to find a second job. my bills keep fucking me in the ass.