Last night i went to the mall with amber. It was cool. Saw some people. Good and bad. It wasnt horrible. I felt bad. Cuz amber kept asking what time it was. like she was in a hurry to leave. i wasnt.. i miss her. i knew i would. i know i will.. But i'll see her agian. goodbyes are inevitable. you'll have your first and last. with every person. But who knows when. Who cares tho. Yea. Why is that whenever i see her. and have to face her beauty. i always wonder why she cares. why shes there. next to me. smiling. glad to be with me. Why im with her smiling to. why we met. all this questions that have no answers. I guess all that matters is that we are together. We did meet. She does care.. I have nothing to do today.. im just sitting her bored.. thinking about alot of things.. I've lost all hope for everything. But it feels good.. I know that one day i am going to die. everything i worked for. and created. will become trash. Everything i love will reject me and/or die. But. I find freedom in that. I'm here now. mite as well make best of it. why are we here. it doesnt matter. Becuase we're here. what if we did know why. what would that change. what would be the point of living. Im happy and fine and great. i'm just here, and im glad. I'm in no rush to grow up. or go anywhere. i just wanna take my time. make good. Think about what really matters. what really gets me anywhere in life.. Anyway... I hope i see amber soon....