Larry got his lisence today and I am so proud of him. This was his second try and he was so happy. He and I went to St. Helen to go get gas to put in our car. Yes OUR me and my brother have to share until one of us has enough money to get our own. I don't mind though, I mean I don't get my lisence until April 27, anyhow. Besides I am sure we can work something out. My eyes have been hurting me lately and I think I should probably go to the eye doctors to get my eyes checked. See I have had no problems with my eyes until now so I only have to have a check up every 2 years. I hope I don't need glasses put if it would get rid of this pain I wouldn't really care.

So last saturday I went to a detriot tigers game. I had a blast espically since my man Pudge Rodriguez played the whole game. It wasn't one of his best games but still he is one hell of a player and not to mention he is one hell of a looker. Anyways I ran into one of my firends before I left and I can't get that smile out of my head. You never know maybe he has changed his mind about me. I can only hope for the best, Im out cya later.

I came across a saying today that made a lot of sense to me. Expecting the world to treat you fairly because you are a good person, is like expecting the bull not to charge because you're a vegatarian. Something to remember when you feel like everthing is against you.

Lets see tomorrow I will be hanging out with my bestest friend in the hole world which is pretty sweet. We are going to the beach then maybe a movie later its been like 3 weeks since we have been able to do anything together, I am having best friend withdrawls. (yes It Happends) Yesterday Nicole stop by, she is so friggen awesome. She came to show me her new car. Its pretty old but the only part that matters is that runs and it is hers. :) Yah! well big brother is almost on so i gotta run.

I'm so excited my mom agreed that next year she and I are going to go get tattoo's together. Now the hard part is its the waiting thats going to hurt. I'm not woried about the "pain" of tattoos, because it will all be worth it in the end when I will have a beautiful tattoo. I had the best morning today. Have you ever woke up in the morning and istantly be up? Your not in a fog as you try to get ready for work? Well I was like that this morning and it was wonderfull. I was in a good mood for work this morning and it was perfect not to hectic but not to slow. It's a great day. I think I am going to go lay out in the sun and catch a tan.

How come you have to put your two cents in but it's only a penny for you thoughts? Where'd the other penny go?

Well since I haven't been here for a while a long while I have 2 entries in here 7-12-06 Well I noticed today that live backwards is evil which I think is awesome. I kind of like spelling words backwards and see if anything makes sense out of it, but hey thats just me. I had my first pedicure today and oh my god it was the best feeling in the world! They give you a foot rub then they have this little scratchy thing and it feels so good. Plus the one nail dude was really sweet and nice and not to mention gorgeous. He didn't speak very good english but that doesn't matter. I won't hold it against him. Now if I wasn't already in love with Kyle XY (which I have already been told is a little weird) then he would be mine. mUHAhaha *evil laugh* The world and all the gorgeous men are mine! 7-9-06 Well I had one of my weird moments when I started thinking(yes I actually think)about life and my fears and how one of my biggest fears is failure. Failrue itself is a question. What is failure and who determines what failure is? Well if life is to live then it would seem that just being alive is enough right? But how do you truly live? There is a difference between just sitting somewhere and letting yourself waste away,and living. I think to live is to do the best you can in everything you do, and that may mean that you aren't perfect at everything whether its school, work, or even just dealing with everyday decisions. Living is looking out for those around you and helping people whenever you can. There isn't a better feeling on the earth then knowing that you made a difference in someone's life. And when you get that feeling that natural high then you know you're truely living and that you can't possibly be a failure.

I went to my grandma's furnel today and it was really nice. I started thinking about how when i die what would people say about me and what kind of person people thought I was. And I hope I would be like her everything about her was amazing. She was so nice and gracious. So long Grams love you

One Last chance fo Alcohol. Happy St. Patricks Day

You can always make something easy hard. But its hard to make something hard easier without cheating it of its honesty.

Everyone is normal in their own special way.

A lot to look forward to. But so much to look back on.

How does an awesome day turn in to a nightmare? And why can't everthing be less complicatied? Everything gets mixed up and turn upside down untill you don't know which way your supposed go. You think so hard you dont even know what you started thinking about. You try to make sense of things and end up more confused then when you started. You dont have control of anything and just try to stay real. Which is getting harder all the time. It is hard to keep who you basically are and become a better person at the same time.

Yesterday was brooke's birthday party. I had a really good time. I wasn't surprised that I had fun, I knew I would its just that I fit in a lot easier then I thought I would. I kind of made me wonder about some of the people I hang around. Once two unwelcome guests left we were just talking and it felt so good to know that your not alone. I think I am going to have a birthday party, and invite some of them plus my other friends. I dont care if people get mad cause I can have my own friends.

For once it actually feels good to be busy, instead of sitting around all day wondering what the hell I should do. It feels good to actually have a life and spend time with friends. Last night was W.C I went it was okay the DJ was kinda of lame, but what can you expect. I have been to ALL the dances and there was only 1 really awesomw DJ that knew what he was doing. Plus I guess I wasn't into it. Yesterday was also pumpkin's birthday. She had an awesome day so that made me happy. Then this morning we had Q bowl which was really fun. We won 2 out of 3 of our matches which was really cool. Good for my team anyway. My bros team one and so did our varsity team whcich is awesome. In a little bit I will be going to my second home to eat some bday cake.

Why can't i stop thinking about you? It seems to me that ever since i met you that there hasn't been a moment to my self. I keep thinking of you and its starting to get on my nerves. No matter what i try to do you always come to my mind, Every song i listen to every show i watch somehow comes back to you. Whether i'm hanging with my girlies or just chiling at home. I am afraid that this feeling will never go away. Four years and you just keep haunting me. At the same time if you went away i fear i would become hollow and empty inside. You've always been a phone call away and it scares me if you just to disapear or never talk to me again. Why cant i just forget about you? Why did I ever have to meet you and fall in love?

I am so excited to finally be going somewhere for spring break. I am going to Arizona with my bestest friend ever. (lozer) Its going to be so much fun. I have to pay for my plane ticket but I was really surprised when my mom told me that she would pay for that which made me really happy. Yea its kinda weird she wont pay for drivers Ed. or help pay for my car but she'll pay for my air tickett makes perfect sense. not. Now the hardest part will being able to wait untill the end of March I might lose my cool but it will all be worth it. Im so excited I could scream. Actually I think I will. Anyway Arizona get ready fo two of the funniest blondes ever!!!

Somedays I Just Hate Everything.

Now usuallly I'am excited that we dont have school but today sucks. First of all it screws up exams which is okay cause I dont have to take them today but it still sucks. Second of all it means that I have to spend most of the cleaning up the house and my room. I have my part of the room clean and I have all my laundry done and its only 11:11 which is pretty good. All i have to is straighten up the living room and do the dishes but I am going to wait untill lunch to finish that. I guess its not that bad. Than later I have to eat dinner with my grandparents so that will be interesting. Have a good and dont come back soon.

Todays my dads birthday. I am so happy that he gets to do whatever he wants today. He has been stressed out a lot these days cause of the whole grandma thing. He is going to just chill at the property and fix up his tractor. I promised I would make him dinner but I haven't decided what to make him. I told him I'd make anything he wanted but he didn't answer me. Its between Spanish Rice and Mostacholi. I'm leaning towards Spanish Rice cause he likes it a lot and hasn't had it since Thanksgiving. I went to my cousins girlfriends baby shower today. She seems happy and I hope everything goes okay with them, and that they will always find happiness in whatever happends to them in life.