i think ive got this.. now i gotta get better.. bleh... soh in about a week i can finally talk to dale and possibly go see him.. im sort of bummed with my mom.. i dont care if my dad leaves.. i hate him anyhow.. i just dont want us to leave.. this house is my home.. when i left before .. i missed it a lot.. im excited that dale will have 30 of his 90 days done.. it doesnt even feel like hes been gone.. i sort of push it out of my mind.. in hopes its not really happening... i dont know.. its what i get for being a depression whore.. bleh -- im gonna get back to the bills for the month.. got 1000 in the bank.. time to make it count..