im shaking im trembling im crying in my arms disgusted disturbed are my thoughts visions of me with worms eating my flesh of blood dripping it keeps dripping from my wrist off of my arms i scratch i sleep it all away alone all the time suicide repeats in mind everyday my eyes they droop can barely even move im not alive but my hearts still beating episodes where i feel like someone else hidden away - no one knows i felt everything is black i cant take my own head i need i would be better off dead didnt want to exist - wanted to disappear but someone i still am standing here it was evil it was dark i was out of my head from all the things ive always thought with the tears ive never said no more, i opened my eyes and the tears washed away sorrowful years God answered prayers and i know ill be okay