Life is hard........ everyone wants to be loved and accepted for who they are, but in reality not everyone is. it is the challenges you face that makes you strong, but how you choose to deal with them makes you the person you are. i choose to hide my feelings more times than others. my thinking is it will soon go away and sometimes it does but most of the time it doesnt. and then i feel three times as bad as i originally did. i wish i could just be free with my feelings, be open about how i really feel. as you can tell i have been facing a couple of challenges this week. one hurtle went great but next one not so good... i kind of expected it to happen but hoping it would not. life does go on and hopfully i can over come these feelings of rejection. you always think you are prepared for possible outcomes to certain situations but you NEVER are. i do have my rock to lean on, who is also going through the same thing but in a little different way, which is all i need to get me through. double standards really suck BAD!!!! i have never asked anyone to agree with my choices or opinions and i never will. i just ask that you look at me as Stephanie nothing else. the Stephanie i was last week is the same as the Stephanie i am today. nothing different. people want you to be open and honest with them but when you are, it is always a gamble. sometimes you win sometimes you lose..