Whatssssssssssss upppppppppp? Well I have been a busy bee. On Thursday night, me, Stephanie,and Emilee went over to Rachel & Ricky's house for dinner. We got there at 7 and talked for a lil bit and then we ate supper! We brought the rolls and Rachel cooked spaghetti and made salad..MMM. It was yummy..I got very full, although it didnt measure up to Julie's...but it was still great! We talked a lil more after we ate and then me & Rachel exchanged late Christmas presents. She got me some awesome stuff!!! It was all scrapbook stuff..I was sooo ecstatic! She got me a scrapbook, the cutting board with the cutter & shape cutter things, lots of background paper, and lots of little square papers. It was soo cool! Not only that, but she also got me $20 worth of Regal Cinemas movie passes and then a butterfly antennae decoration for my cellphone that is very cute! I loved them all!!!! She is a great gal, I miss not seeing her so much. Emilee ended up falling in love with her too. So Friday rolls around and I worked 9-5. After me & Stef both home from work we changed clothes & then drove out to Lenoir City ("Nore City" as Emilee calls it) to visit my mom & Butch. I was wanting to see where she was staying and she had asked us earlier in the week to come visit sometime soon. So,we did. It was a cute lil place. We ended up staying there maybe 2 hours. Saturday we got up & ate breakfast and drove around looking for rental houses. After that I had to get ready for work and I closed Saturday night. Yesterday was Sunday. We got up and went to City View Baptist for church. Robby was of course there and was happy to see us. After church, we visited his house for a lil while and then went to Bob's house so that I could give him his late Christmas present. He fed Emilee chocolate just like he does all the other kids that go to his house lol. Im sure she liked him. His girlfriend Gloria was there...she was really nice. After leaving there we went to Fazolis to eat and then went to Chickamauga because the house my Granny grew up in was having an open house and I wanted to see how it looked. It is such a cool house all on its own anyays..so big & pretty....but the people who had been living there dressed it up ALOT. THey had left soem of the old t hings about it there like the hardwood floor throughout some of the house...but they painted, added flooring to bathrooms & kitchen, and had alot of cool modern furniture in there...It was like a dream house..but they were askign WAAAYYY tooo much for it. Crazy insane. We went home and watched "The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants" which I have been wanting to see forever..it was so lame though..it had good points..but they just didnt make it good enough. OH WELL. ANyways, thats pretty much been my weekend..its been a fun one

hey. Well the weekend is over. It was a busy one..but good. Friday I worked 8-4 and Rachel came by work to see me so that was nice. After work I picked up Emilee from her papaws and then went home to nap until Steffy got home so we could get ready for Em's slumber party. Stef got home and we headed to Blockbuster to pick out the movies. STef & I picked out a few scary ones for us to watch since it was Friday the 13th and Em picked out one for her friends. Then we went to Little Caesars to get the pizza & Crazy bread and then on the way home we picked up our first guest: Becca. She was so excited. We went back home and shortly after the other 2 girls Tori & April arrived. The 4 girls ate pizza and then went back to Em's room to play their lil hearts out. They had a good time. THey did a fashion show, had a dance competition, watched movies, played chicken limbo, twister and who knows what else. Stef & I tried to watch our movies although we had quite a few interruptions lol. The girls were really good except for the youngest April..she was prob the worst behaved child I have ever been around and Stef & I both had to get on to her SEVERAL TIMES. They ended up staying up past midnight. The next day they woke up pretty early but I didnt get up until about 9:30 or so. THey ate cereal and then went outside to play basketball and go to the park & play. RObby came to pick up Becca and then we waited for the other 2 to leave..it was about 12:30. Me, Stef & Emilee went to get lunch and then wasted time thrift shopping b/c we have never done that together and I LOOOVE thrift stores. Then it was tiem for Emilee's basketball game. SHe played Becca's team. So me, Stephanie, Kristen, Kathy, Robby, Gaye, and Steve all sat together..it was soo fun. I cheered when EMilee's team scored and I cheered when Becca made her basket..I was like "whoever wins is who Im for" hahah. It was a fun game though. Emilee's team *the bulldogs* ended up winning by 1 point! IT was a vey close game. After the game me, Stef and Em went to the mall to get my nails filled in. I got them painted a hotpink color and they look really cute. Emilee got hers painted..it was so cute. We walked around and bought some stuff and then dropped Emilee off at TOdds. STephanie and I went to eat at Cracker Barrell and then went home to watch a movie and go to bed. I worked Sunday all day and then went home to eat quesadillas that Steph made for me and then watche dour show and then went to bed. Yesterday was Monday, I was off but go tup early and went with Sara out to that "once upon a child" store in West Knoxville and then to eat and then to pick up Jaelyn from her first day at daycare. Then I went home & napped and got up to meet Paula at her work to take her to get her books for school and both campus' ended up being closed I guess for MLK day. SO we ate and I dropped her off and met Stef & Em at Chuck E Cheese for the end of the bday party they were at and then we went to Cracker Barrell to meet Sara, Jaelyn, Mom & Butch. IT was their first night of havin coca cola cake *my fave stuff that comes out only for a certain time a year*. It was yummmmy. Thats about all for this weekend. I got in tonight and work. I am off Wed & THursday and THursday night we are going to dinner at Rachel & Rickys and also to exchange Christmas b/c we still havnt yet. BYE FOR NOW.

Well. I cant sleep tonight. I worked today from 1 pm- 9:30 pm. It was a long day and Im very sore and my body is tired but yet I cant sleep. Which sucks b/c I have to get up in 5.5 hours and get ready to go back to work and work 8-4. I have alot on my mind. Its been awhile since I have been like that again. I have been thinking alot about Granny today and also worried about my mom...and its just been a worrysome stressful day. I wish that things could be better. THere is so much good & happy in the world...but at the same time there is so much hurt & sadness. Urgghh. Well on the brightside, tomorrow is Friday & Payday and IM off Saturday. Tomorrow is Emilee's lil slumber party too. Oh, yesterday I was working and I saw a familiar blonde headed lady walking through our maze of bra racks. It was Tracia! I havnt seen her since LAST January or talked to her since April probably. So we got to talk & catch up for a few minutes and that was nice. We agreed to have a dinner & movie date soon. That will be nice..she's a wonderful person to be around. Well I guess Ill go for now...just needed to rant since I couldnt sleep..I'll write later t his weekend. Until next time.... FREE YOUR MIND AND THE REST WILL FOLLOW.

hello. Today is Tuesday. The last 2 days have been pretty good. Sunday was mostly a cleaning day. But we did end up going to Blockbuster and renting 2 free movies with our coupons. Emilee got some Tom & Jerry movies and then me & Stef got "The 40 Year Old Virgin". I dont recommend it. Besides being filthy (well obviously from the movie title..so i expected it to be some...but not so much LANGUAGE and dirty talk) anyways, besides that...it wasnt even that funny...and it was too long and boring in alot of parts. Yesterday was Monday. Stephanie didnt feel well so she stayed out of work. We dropped Emilee off at school and then went to pick up Jaelyn so I could keep her for mom while Sara was at school. We ended up keepin her until about 5 or so b/c Sara had to go to the Health Dept after school for school. Sara, Domanick, and Jae left and it was just me & Stef b/c Em went to Todd's. So we decided to have a "PIG OUT" dinner. Something we have never done together. It was crazy! We went to Spicy's first and got us 30 hotwings b/c Mondays are 30 cent wing night, we took them to go and we got a large order of Onion Rings from Steak & Shake and me a choclate milkshake, then at home I cooked me a corndog, Stef cooked some pizza rolls and we got out the ketchup & ranch dressing and set it all out on the coffee table to make our buffet and just PIGGED OUT. It was fun haha. I thought forreal my stomach would be super sick last night, but it wasnt! Stef & I also went to Target last night to return a shirt that I had bought and to return 2 toy dolls that Emilee got for Christmas b/c she is SO not a doll girl and we ended up exchaning them for this cool thing you put around her bed thats got the Disney Princess on it and it makes her bed look like a sleigh bed with a canopy sort of..and we just had to pop it out and slide it over the bed, it was easy as pie and its soooooo cute! Oh yea...Emilee has never a slumber party before so me & Stef decided to plan her a small one. She is having one this weekend. Her 2 friends Tori & April are coming, and my cousin Becca, and she invited a lil girl from school..not sure yet if she is coming. Eithe rway it will be fun. She is an only child and dont play much with other kids unless its summertime with the kids in the neighborhood. She kept telling me to make sure I invited Bethany too b/c she loves playing with Bethany and I told her I would, but theres no point b/c I already know the outcome to taht. oh well. I was supposed to be off today but they had a callin and I need the hours so Im going to go. Its going to suck though b/c I have to work downstairs and I HATE downstairs. Dont care for anything about it. OH well. Well Im gonna go for now...talk later!!

WAZZZZUUUUPPPPPP??????? Well, This week has been pretty good. I was off a couple of days. I went out to lunch with Stephanie W. at Mr. Gattis one day b/c I havnt seen her since before Christmas. Today is Saturday. Me, Stef, and Emilee went to the mall today. Stef & I got the cartlidge in our ears pierced. I got my left ear and she got her right ear. I had always heard it hurt really bad...I couldnt tell a difference at all. I am excited! THen we went to Bel Air to eat lunch and then hopped on over to Emilee's game. Emilee did good and they won! Go Bulldogs! Then we went to Walmart and Emilee spent some of her own money. She got a sled, Annie the movie, and some fake fingernails. Oh yeaaa big news! My stepmom Mary is back in town. She has been gone for almost a year now and since then has made her life go downhill...she just got out of jail and her current boyfriend is still in jail. ANyways, she is living & working in Knoxville again. I hope that her life is going to be a lil different now...b/c even though she didnt do right to my Dad after he died, I still care about her. Well....The L Word season 3 starts tomorrow and IM way excited about that. And also I may start keeping Jaelyn and get paid for it as well as still work a couple of nights a week at JCP...we will see. ANyways...I reckon thats all for now!!! Be back soon!

Well its 2006 now. New Years Eve I was off and so we decided to go out and do something. So me, Stephanie, and Emilee went to Gattiland and ate some pizza and then went to Laser Quest on Kingston Pike. I havnt played laser tag in YEARS. Stephanie & Emilee had never played. They both did better than me. Then after that we went to Walmart and got some stuff and then went home to watch the ball drop. We put on our Happy New Year hats and made our own confetti. We used lots of colored construction paper and it turned out pretty good. We made a good mess. Then we went to bed. I worked New Years Day. I hope this year will be good and I have a feeling it will be. Although it started off a little sad b/c my mom went to the hospital again. She has been there several times for the same reason. She is depressed again. She is overwhelmed with stress....some of it the same stuff she has been carryign for years, some of it b/c her mom just died recently, some b/c she has more parental responsibilities thn she thought she would have with her grandchild, and then of course some of the family is stressing her out b/c of judgemental decisions they have made that are heartless and hurt other people in ways the cannot imagine. Its funny how Christians are quick to point out the wrongs of others but yet they choose to judge, condemn, and have their hearts filled with hatred when all Jesus wants us to do is love one another. Its scary how people hide behind the bible to cover up their own predjudices....and sad too. Oh well...all I can do is love people with all my heart no matter what they choose to do or say or live....because thats exactly what Jesus wants us to do. Anyways, after I got off of work yesterday I went and visited my mom in the hospital. She seemed to be in OK spirits and I was glad of that. We had a really good talk and she made me feel good. SHe is such a good person, more people should have the heart of her. I was off of work today and so was Stephanie and Em was out of schohol still so we slept in and then went grocery shopping. I got my nails done again yay! They look soo pretty. I havnt had them done in 2 years. I got a french manicure acrylics. Anyways, Thats pretty much been the extent of it. I thinkw e are going to rent a movie tonight. Well, talk to you later..hope everyone has a GREAT 2006.

Hey. Well, yesterday was Sara's 18th birthday! Aww, my baby sister is an adult now!!! Well I have been out of work for 4 days now and have been sick everyday. 2 of them I had to call in and 2 I was off. Tonight I go back. Im feeling a lil better, although still dizzy and weak feeling. Not much has been going on. I have been doing alot of laying around taking medicine. I have been worthless although I did manage to get a lil laundry done and do the dishes some. I am actually off New Years Eve. WOOHOO. Me, Emilee, and Stephanie are bound to get into something although Im unsure of what. Probably either dinner & a movie, or bowling, or laser tag and then watch the ball drop at home and celebrate with confetti.I guess we'll see. Welp, thats all I have for now. Talk with yuns later.

hello. well Christmas is over and although it was a good one, Im glad. Work has been horrible b/c of the Christmas season. But still yet, I had a great CHristmas. Christmas Eve I didnt do anything. I worked from 9-6:30 and then went home and hung out there until Emilee got home and then we played with her new guitar and boombox that she got from her Daddy's b/c she had been with Todd for 3 days. Then she set out soem milk & cookies for Santa and she went to bed. I got to play Santa Claus for hte 1st time so that was fun. We set out all of Emilee's presents and then went to bed ourselves. Christmas morning Em didnt wake up til 9:30!!! haha. So she opened all of her presents and her favorites seem to be the inline skates that I got her, her fake teeth that her mom got her, and the moonshoes that "santa" brought. She got TONSSS of stuff. She had a really great Christmas all the way around. Jimmy & Shawn came over at about 1:00 and gave us our presents & we gave them theirs and gave them Aaron & Sherry's to take with them. They visited for awhile. Shawn was soooo cute. He loved the "wiggles" shirt I got him, he kept sayign "I got Wiggles shirt" over & over so I finally put it on him lol. At 3 me, Stef & Em went over to Stef's mom & dads. Traci, Jimmy, James, Cindy & Julian were there also. We ate a good CHristmas dinner and hten did gifts. I got so many presentsover htere that it was crazzzy! I am blessed. Traci got me some of t hose fuzzy socks I wanted and a $15 giftcard to Walmart. Stefs mom & Dad got me ltos of stuff. I had one big bag full of shampoo, conditioner, deodorant, toothpaste, eyeliner, lotion, Avon stuff, bath sponge, brush, qtips, socks and all kinds of other lil things. Then she remembered that I wanted an old rotary phone so she found me one at an antique store and bought it for me!! HOw sweet!!!!! Its plain black but still so cool and so sweet that she did that for me. They also got me a shirt. Stef got tons & so did Emilee. We packed all of our stuff up and headed home to get ready for our own Christmas party that we planned so I could see my family for CHristmas. All the food was already done except for like the corn & green beans. Mom, Sara, Jaelyn, Kathy, Kristen, and Becca all came over to share Christmas with me, Stephanie, and EMilee. That was nice. I was so glad to be able to get to see atleast most of my family if not all. We ate turkey, dressing, potatoes *that sara made*, broccoli casserole, potato salad, greenbeans, corn, cranberry jello, and chocolate cake. Then we did presents. We all got tons of stuff and it was nice. Then we all just hung around the living room sitting there talking & playing with Jaelyn. Well then something exciting happened!! Jaelyn took her first 2 steps !!! YAY! I was so happy that it happened on CHristmas eve at my house. We all clapped and told her yay and she was grinning sooo big. Well thats how my Christmas was...oh yea from Stephanie I got: Aeropostale hoodie, Victoria Secrets Angel Divine lotion & perfume set, Old Navy PJ pants, fuzzy socks, fuzzy soft pink bath robe, Melissa Ethridge greatest hits CD, and a half karat diamond ring on 10kt white gold that is beautiful! I am sick now. I have an ear infection and cant hear anything hardly. Ive had to call in to work for 2 days now and it has sucked! Hopefully I will get well soon since I am taking antibiotics. BYE BYE.

hey! Well last week I worked 6 hellish days straight including the whole weekend and yesterday was finally my day off! But I spent the whole day finishing up Christmas shopping! Emilee stayed with me yesterday and was my shopping buddy. We left at 10:30 yesterday morning and shopped til we dropped until 5:30! 7 hours of shopping and whats sad is I was only buying for mom, the rest of Stephanie's, and Stef's dad. I've had everyone else done for awhile. We started out at Target, then Hobby Lobby, then we ate lunch at Arby's, then headed to the Dollar General, Kohls, and then finally the mall. We got home and Stephanie was already home from work. SO we got ready for Marci & Tara to come over. Tara & her lil friend Mandy I think got there at 7 and then Marci got there shortly after. We ate sloppy, joes, mini tater tots, and drank cherry coke. MMM- my favorite meal! THen present time. I gave Tara hers and then Marci hers. Marci got Emilee a cute green purse that I will fight her over hahahaha and a cute wallet that says "Chicks Rule" and a lil notepad from Old Navy. Emilee loved them. Then she got Stephanie a healing lotion set or something and she got me some SOOO CUTE aqua colored corduroy pants from Old Navy that come with a cute lil plaid belt to match. (some pants I saw there and wanted might I add) She got me some green & white striped boy cut panties with a lil sequined Christmas tree in the top left corner, the Switchfoot CD that I've wanted forever, lipgloss, and a lil photoalbum that you can journal in also! I loved all my gifts, they were awesome! Tara & her friend left and then Marci visited with us until about 11:30 or so. THen BEDTIME. Also, on Monday night Stephanie W. came over to our house and we did presents with her. SHe got Stef a $10 gift certificate to Spiceys and a shirt and she got me the same thing but also some peanut butter cups and some candy canes. I was like "heck yea" about the spiceys though...mmmm! Then we all watched the movie "House of Wax" b/c Stef got it for Christmas from Lisa and none of us had seen it. Man it was sooo freakin gory!!! But really good too! It had my stomach rolling. Welp Im off today (yay) and plan to do nothing at all except wrap gifts and work more on the scrapbook we are making for STef's mom for Christmas. I guess I'll talk with yall later!!!!!!!!

Well, I guess it really is the best time of the year...unless you work retail. HAHAHA. I have been working my tail end off and my body is suffering the consequences severely. POOR KEWWI. Well besides work I have been having fun. The last time I wrote was Tuesday and I went over to Paulas house at 5:30. Steph & Emilee met me there about 6. Then Alan came home later too. I gave Paula her Christmas presents and her & Pam made dinner for us. It was really good. It was chicken baked in Italian dressing and macaroni & cheese & baked beans. mmm. Then she stole Stephanie away from me and they came back in there with a cup of applesauce with gummy bears in it with a candle stuck in it and they sang happy birthday to me and I blew the candle out and ate the applesauce & bears. It was so cute because when we lived at ETSU I started eating that and got Paula eating it too and our whole semester we ate that lol...awww good times. I loved it. Sometimes the simplest things are the sweetest. We visited for awhile and then we had to go to Emilee's basketball practice at 8. This week I dont even know what all Ive done. ALot im sure..but mostly work. I think it was Friday I work 1 pm- midnight. INSANE!!! Today I am 4-midnight. Last night was lots of fun. I worked 9-6 and then after work Emilee had said she drew "iceskating at Market Square" out of the 25 days of Christmas jar. So we bundled ourselves up and went to Market Square. I have never been there and always wanted to go and it was SOOO CUTE. I loved it there. All the Christmas lights lit up and the cute lil stores and the iceskating rink. Well it was PACKED out and a pretty small rink plus sooo cold outside so we ended up not skating there. But we did go in some of the stores and I bought something from "Bliss" and then we left and went to the Ice Chalet. There werent many people when we got there at 8:30 but by the time we got on the ice it was PACKED...of coruse its a lil bigger than Market Square one. Emilee had a blast! She was scared at first to get on the ice and then she got out there and went with it. She didnt want to leave. We were there for an hour & a half and between work & iceskating my feet were hurting like a mother. Then we went to Sonic and got drinks & slushies and then went to Stephs mom & dads to get Em's Christmas outfit for her church Christmas singing today. Thats about all for now....Marci is coming over Tuesday ngiht to do gifts & maybe Paula to get Allison's and maybe Tara. Marci is for sure though. Then Christmas night mom is coming over along with Butch, Sara, and Jaelyn. Who knows about Jimmy. I guess we'll see. I invited the Davis' too but they will probably be too busy to come. Welp gonna go now bye!

Well hey. I deleted my last entry only because I dont want to look back and remember those feelings of anger. I do very much feel the same way about what I said...but I am in a much more calm mood bout it right now. My life is so up & down. Mostly I am so happy right now...but it seems like I cant stay up for people trying to bring me down. But...I will get past it I know. I just have to keep smiling. In the words of Clay Walker: "I'm gonna live ,laugh, and love just for today I'm gonna take all the trouble tomorrow might bring and put it away Gonna drink every drop of happiness and cover it up..I'm gonna live, gonna laugh,gonna love" Anyways! I'm soooo sick of working right now. I am burnt out on Christmas shoppers, messes, and long crappy hours. I cant wait to go back to normal hours if I get to stay on. I was going to start school in January..looks more like fall now. I AM GOING BACK THOUGH. FOR SURE. I just need to get all my ducks in a row right now...and thats not very easy considering all the things that have went down the past couple of months..but I will survive. I am off today. Tonight me, Stephanie, and Emilee are going over to Paula, Alan, and Allisons house to eat supper. Paula is making chicken for us I think. Im excited. I love my friends....they have all been so wonderful, accepting, and supportive of me. They are great!!!! Today is my lil cousin Kristen's 16th birthday. AWW. I called her a lil bit ago and talked to her. I cant believe December is already halfway over!!! GEEE WHIZ! Me & Stephanie came up with this idea to do for Emilee thats been workign out pretty well. Its called "The 25 days of Christmas" and we have a snowman jar filled with little folded up slips of paper that have "activities" on them. There are 25 of them and Emilee gets to draw one out of the jar every morning and we have to do that activity together that night. She LOVES it. The first thing she does in the morning before school is go straight to the jar. We have done things like "go get donuts, drive to see Christmas lights, play boardgames, eat out Emilees pick, Eat out Stephanies pick...etc". One of them is go iceskating too which si someting we havnt done yet. Oh and last night was make Christmas ornaments together, so we did that and Em hung them onthe tree. I got my birthday present from my friend Emily. She got me a pink John Deer hat and a bag of reese cups. That was so sweet. Well..gonna go for now..BYE!

Hey. Well today is December 6th. Which means it has been exactly 2 months since my Granny passed away and EXACTLY 2 years since my Dad passed away. Crazy and sad. I miss them both tremendously and I will until I see them both again. WEll yesterday was my 24th birthday. It was the best bday I ever had! Stephanie made sure to make it super special for me. I worked ALL day Sunday from, 8-5 and then Steffy picked me up and told me we were going to go look at Christmas lights in Pigeon Forge...well really she had surprises hidden up her sleeve! She drove us to the same hotel we stayed at for her birthday. Well she had already made reservations and NOT ONLY THAT but she had driven up there already earlier that day and gotten the room and fixed it up for me!!!!! So we got to the room and I walked in and she already had my presents on the bed and birthday COOKIE cake & our funny glasses to blow out candles in on the table! AWW! I was soo happy my eyes started to water. First we went swimming in the indoor heated pool and hottub and then we took shower and then I blew out my candles, ate some cookie, and opened my presents. She got me "The Skeleton Key" DVD and a bag of peanut butter cups and a bag of twizzler SOURZ and some pink pajamas and a really sweet card! It was greeeeeeeeeeat. Then we went to Gatlinburg and rode the sky lift and walked around. It was just perfect. Then we swam again and then ate Hardees and then went to sleep. Then Monday (my bday) we woke up, checked out of the hotel, and went to the Tanger Five Oaks outlets and got great deals on Christmas presents. Then we went to Gattiland in Pigeon Forge and ate and then went to get Emilee from her papaws. It was an AWESOME bday. THe only bad thing is I had a bad upset stomach during some of it...that I think I got from Emilee and now Stephanie has. She has been throwing up all day boohoo poor her. LAst night we wrapped Christmas presents so that was fun. Oh yea thanks to everyone who thought of me on my birthday either by email, ecard,text message, phonecall or visitation. (Stef, Mom, Sara, Leslie, BJ & Steve, Emily, Stephanie, Jenni, Paula, Julie, Kristen, and Kathy.)Me & Emilee just now got back from going to get Munchkins from Dunkin Donuts. Well gonna go now, marci is comin over in a few!!!!

"Some Hearts" By: Carrie Underwood I've never been the kind that you'd call lucky Always stumbling' around in circles But I must have stumbled into something Look at me Am I really alone with you I wake up feeling like my life's worth living Can't recall when I last felt that way Guess it must be all this love you're giving Never knew never knew it could be like this But I guess Some hearts They just get all the right breaks Some hearts have the stars on their side Some hearts, They just have it so easy Some hearts just get lucky sometimes Some hearts just get lucky sometimes Now who'd have thought someone like you could love me You're the last thing my heart expected Who'd have thought I'd ever find somebody Someone who someone who makes me feel like this Well I guess Some hearts They just get all the right breaks Some hearts have the stars on their side Some hearts, They just have it so easy Some hearts just get lucky sometimes Some hearts just get lucky sometimes Even hearts like mine Get lucky, lucky sometimes Some hearts They just have it so easy Some just get lucky some times They just get all the right breaks Some hearts have the stars on their side, yes Some hearts, They just have it so easy Some hearts just get lucky sometimes Some hearts just get lucky, lucky sometimes I'm not the kind of girl that you'd call lucky I'm not the kind of girl that you'd call lucky

HEY! I hope everyone had a good Thanksgiving. We got up and went to Stef's mom & dads house. Stefs sister Traci, her husband Jimmy, son James, and granddaughter Julian were all there along with me, Em ,Stef and their parents. We had about everything there is good to eat. Stef brought the broccoli casserole and I brought the cranberry salad jello stuff. We were there about 2 and a half hours eating, talkin about Christmas and watchng "clambake" (YES! my movie!) hahaha. THen we went back home and chilled for about an hour and then took Emilee to meet Todd and hten Stef & I went to Kmart to look around b/c htey were open and then went to Fountain Lanes so Stef could go potty and she ran into a lady she knew and they talked awhile and then we headed to James' house. James, Stacey, Anna, Ben, Logan, Dina, and Jess were there. Debriana showed up later which was a nice surprise for me b/c I havnt seen her in FOREVER and I really do miss that girl. We hung out there and then ate and then watched a lil bit of "Christmas with the Cranks" and then left. We were going to put up the tree but we were exhausted!!! So we made a fire and laid in front of it with blankets and watched "Spanglish"..man that movie was a waste of time!!! The ending sucked!! The next morning was the "BIG" shopping day. Stef got up at 4:30 and met her sister at the mall at 5. I slept in until 6:30 and had to be at work at 8. I worked 8-4 and it was the most hellish day ever. HOLIDAY SHOPPING FREAKS were out & about raving & going mad! lol. That night I went home and took a HOT BATH and soaked for like 45 minutes! I talked to Julie on the phone. Saturday morning me, Emilee, and Stephanie got up and met Sara & Jaelyn at JCP to get Jae's pics made. She loooked Soooooo cute in the dress I got her and she did great for her first pictures. They are going to be SOOO cute!!! After that we too Jaelyn & Emilee to sit on Santas lap and get their picture made together with him. It was precious. Emilee's first time being brave and sitting on his lap!!! YAY!! So then, Sara & Jae came over to the house and visited awhile and then they left and Todd came to get Emilee and me & Stephanie met Kathy, Kristen, and Kris's new boyfriend at the mall. Kris & her boy went their seperate ways and me, Stef, and Kathy went in a few stores and then the movie started at 7:05. We saw "Prime"...it was ok. Not awful, but not wonderful and the ending was LAME TOO. But it was still cool hangin out with my aunt Kathy!!! We went to a few more stores after the movie and then we all left. Yesterday was Sunday, I worked ALL day. 12-7. I am off today but I work tomorrow. I think I work all weekend b/c I am off next Mon, Tues, and Wed. Monday b/c its my 24th birthday!!! Tuesday b/c its the 2 year anniversary of my Dad's death, and Wednesday b/c I have to take my aunt Peggy to the hospital to get her back thingy done. Welp, thats about all for now I guess. I am in such the holiday spirit this year! Im so glad. I cant wait for Christmas!! Talk to yall later!!!! MUAH.

Whats up? well rough times have for sure come rollin my way and although sometimes I feel like Im ready to crumble...I seem to be stronger than I give myself credit for. I got an email this morning that brought me to tears. Not that I was in disagreement with it...but not that I completely agreed either. I've been so emotional lately anyways. But on the positive side of things: I had lunch this afternoon with my stepsister Dina. That was cool, I havnt seen her since August I think and we had a good lil talk and she uplifted me! Although the sad side of that is my stepmother is still in jail. SOOO strange. But oh well. Life is full of ups & downs and twists & turns I suppose. Another happy note is I recently have gotten in contact again with some of my old BESTEST friends through myspace. Jenni Murray (Mefford) and Heather Mischlich (Covington) and I also found Jennifer McDaniel! Thats awesome. Monday night Stef, Em, and I went to Spiceys to eat...30 cent wing night mmmmmm!! Yetserday I worked and then went to Emilee's basketball practice. Today I had lunch with Dina and am fixing to go hang out with my Aunt Kathy, and cousins Kristen & Becca. Then I gotta hit Walmart! BUSY DAY. Stef & I are going to ATTEMPT to make Grannys wonderful cranberry jello that she made that I was in love with. Tomorrow is Thanksgiving..I have a lot to be Thankful for...well thats all for now I guesss!!! BYE!

HEY. Man what a week. I will survive is on the radio...and I think that is about what I need to hear right now. GAAAH. My life is such a freakin rollercoaster right now. Its like for every good thing that comes along there is bad to go with it. I have had quite a few struggles & trials in this past month and then this week there were a few more piled on top of that. Sometimes its hard to admit the truth...but I am always the one to tell the truth....if I know I've done somethign wrong I will admit it...but in this case, I was lied about and people are of course believing what this other person said and I have lost a few more people in my life because of it. THAT SUCKS, especially since its not even the truth. Not that the truth is the sweetest thing either, but its alot better than what has been said. ALOT. So whatever. Anyways....other than those few things nipping at me...my life is pretty good...Im happy. For the first time in a LONG time. I wish I could change alot of things, but also there are alot of things that I would NOT change. WELP, I worked ALLLLL week from Tuesday-Sunday straight. There were some long days in tehre too. Im SURE glad its over. But I needed the hours. SO yea. I am finally off today. We had our candle party Tuesday night..it went pretty well. It was me, Stephanie, mom, Sara, Jaelyn, Lisa, Traci, Stephanie, Marci, and Samantha. And of course the chick who did it. WEll thanksigiving is coming up....I am going to Stephanie's mom & dad's house for sure and then maybe to my stepbrother JAmes' house. We shall see. I have gotten most of my Christmas shopping done....yippy!! I'm taking Jaelyn to get her CHristmas pictures made on Saturday in the dress I got for her. I guess thats all I have to write for now. Talk soon.

Hey!! Well the weekend is over. Friday I worked 7-3...man that sucked b/c I wasnt in lingerie, I had to be on the floor all day and straighten young men's clothes...that sucked bad. The only good thing is that Emily was working and since I was near her quad I got to talk to her a lil. After work I picked Emilee up from her papaws and then came home and popped in "Scooby Doo 2" for Em to watch so that I could nap b/c I was TIIIIRED. Then Stef got home and brought Little Ceasar's ~ YUMMM. STef's mom & dad and nephew James all came over to pick up Em to go see "Chicken Little" at around 6. SO they left and me & Stef just stayed home relaxing and watching movies. Em came home and was soo tired so she went to bed at 9:30. Saturday morning STef took me to work at 10 and I worked til 5. It was a good day..very busy. I ran into my old friend/sunday school teacher Jennifer Reichter. I havnt seen her since my Dad's funeral. We've talked some on the phone & through email but thats it. She gave me a hug but it was in a hurry so left. I ran into Ashlee while I was on my lunch break. STef, Stef's mom & Dad, and James came by my work to see me & shop. That was cute. Emilee had went to Todds. After work I was SOOORE so I took a HOT BATH and then me & Stef went to West Town to get Christmas present ideas for each other & other people. I found out that JC Penneys VIP night was the next night *tonight* so I put some stuff on hold. Then Stef & I left and went home and watched the Halloween DVD we made with Jimmy and then we went to sleep b/c we were sooooo tired. Today Stef & I slept in til 12!! YEAH! Then we got up and scrapbooked until like 5:00. Then Emilee came home and we went back to JCP to get my presnts I put on hold.I also bought Jaelyn the CUTEST lil Christmas dress...it was originally $32 and I got it for $7. YEA! It's sooooo precious. Well thats all! TALK TO YOU LATER.

Hey. Ok its Thursday- I was off yesterday and Im off today. But I gotta be at JC Penneys at 7 am tomorrow...how CRAZY is that. The store dont even open til freakin 10 but its a walkthrough day so ill be doin some major straightning for 3 hours. YIPPY. Then I work Saturday tooo boohoo..but atleast I have the evening off and Sunday off. Next week starts my HARDCORE hours lol...well not too much but they are atleast doubling my hours now. GOOD. I need it..especially around Christmas time. Speaking of Stef & I went Christmas shopping for Em last night while she was with Todd. It was fun. She'll have a good Christmas..Stef was so worried about that. Well this week has definitely been a STRESSFUL, SAD week...not what I expected...but I guess we cant expect everything to always go our way. Tomorrow they are having a "get together" at Julies in honor of Granny. I SO wish that I was able to go...but I know Granny knows I love her & miss her and I know she totally would have understood. So I dont really knwo what I will be gettng into this weekend...Im sure something. Keeping busy is always good when you are sad. Its like fighting off its destruction. I am off Sunday and do want to go to church. Oh yea, Monday was Emilee's first basketball practice. It was @ 7 at the elementary school...well Becca's was at 8. So after Em's was over we sat with Kathy for about 25-30 min through some of Becca's practice. Becca is really great, I was impressed. Cant wait to watch their games. Welp...gonna go for now....got laundry to do woohoo. BYE!

This song is an oldie but a goody: "Hold on" I know this pain Why do you lock yourself up in these chains? No one Can change your life except for you Don't ever let anyone step all over you Just open your heart and your mind Is it really fair to feel this way inside? Some day somebody's gonna make you want to Turn around and say goodbye Until then baby are you going to let them Hold you down and make you cry Don't you know? Don't you know things can change Things'll go your way If you hold on for one more day Can you hold on for one more day Things'll go your way Hold on for one more day You could sustain Or are you comfortable with the pain? You've got no one to blame for your unhappiness You got yourself into your own mess Lettin' your worries pass you by Don't you think it's worth your time To change your mind? Don't you know things can change Things'll go your way If you hold on for one more day, Yeah If you hold on If you hold on Mmm... If you hold on baby Won't you tell me now Hold on for one more day 'Cause It's gonna go your way Don't you know things can change Things'll go your way If you hold on for one more day, Yeah Can't you change it this time Make up your mind Hold on Hold on baby hold on... Turn around, Just turn around baby Hold on for one more day, Cause It's gonna go your way... p.s. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ROBBY & TREVOR!!!

hey there. Well this weekend has been pretty cool I guess. Here's the scoop: I was off ALL WEEKEND. I worked Wednesday & Thursday and then Friday I was off so I bummed around most of the day and then at 3:30 I picked up Emilee from her papaws and me & her hit the mall so I could pay my JC Penneys bill and then to Hallmark to get some sympathy cards for Brenda & Brandon since their mother/grandmother died. While I was going back into Penneys I was downstairs in the womens department looking around and I saw an old familiar face...one that I thought I'd never see again. It was miss Wanda Parker. SO I yelled her name and she came over & hugged me and we had a nice little chat. So much "bad stuff" went down at the end of my job at CBF and it was such a horrible time in my life anyways with my Dad getting sick and passing away, that I didnt think Id ever get over it..but just like always..give me a year and I'll forgive people and come back to my senses. WEll its been almost exactly 2 years since I have seen her and we talked like it was old times...that was nice. We exchanged numbers and stuff so maybe we will get together. Whats VERY odd is the fact that we met at JC Penneys...which is where I first met her anyways (just at the other store) haha b/c I worked with her in lingerie there. CRAZY. Anyways, after that I took Em home & got her ready for Brenda's mother's funeral. Stephanie got home from work and I already ha me & Em ready to go so she changed clothes and we left for Sweetwater. We got to the funeral home & chatted with Julie & her family as they were on their way out. In that conversation I planned to get up and go clean Julies the next morning. Then we went in & stood in line and I hugged Brenda, Bill, Brandon, and Amy. I felt so sad for Brenda...I know personally how hard it is to lose a father and she had a tough time dealing with that almost 3 years ago and now losing her mother,which has to be a little worse...I hate it for her! Especially with her being an only child. Then we talked to mom & "Butch" for a lil bit and then left. We ate at the "A&W" in Sweetwater..we were so freakin ecstatic to find one there...thats mine & Stef's FAVORITE! After eating we had planned to go bowling so we drove about 15 miles to Athens to bowl at Classic Lanes. It was a cute TINY bowling alley with only like 15 lanes. Well I knew that Stephanie was a pro-bowler b/c she has bowled all of her life with her dad and was in leagues and everything...but I didnt expect her to strike almost every time. Out of 10 frames, she got 9 strikes in a row and then the 10th one she bowled a stike & a spare...I was like "this is no competition, its not even fun" lol...but she was AWESOME. Everyone at teh bowling alley was watching her and rooting for her and then afterwards asking where she was from and stuff. It was SO cute! Stef was so embarrassed lol...but I'm sure she loved it at the same time haha. WE bowled 3 games and my butt was creamed everytime b/c I was VERY rusty...not that Im good anyways..jsut maybe average..but I SUCKED taht night. So, Saturday I got up at 8 and headed over to Julies at 8:30 and cleaned her house for her since they were having the Widby cookout over there. My intentions was to clean for free thsi time since it had only been a month since her mother (my Granny) passed away but she is too sweet and she woldnt let me leave without paying me *and ALSO getting a bonus...some Candy Apple body wash thatI spotted and loved*..aww..shes soooo sweet! It was sooo good to get to see her. WE chatted a teensy bit, nto as much as I would have liked to but I was pressed for time. But it was still nice. I went back to her house and found that STephanie had rearranged the living room to how I said I thought it looked good...man it looks awesome now..Im happy about it. It looks so much more spacious. Then we got raedy & left for the flea market in Sevierville. We walked around there for a bit. I bought one thing and Stef bought a couple of little things and Emilee bought a fan haha. She's so funny. Then we left straight from there to pick up James (who lives in Seymour anyways) and then headed to Jimmy's house to finish up his Halloween movie. We were there from about 4:45 to about 8:30 or 9. The kids had a blast. I was tuckered out bythat time, but still had fun. Yesterday was Sunday...we ended up NOT going to church boohoo...but Sara did bring over Jaelyn to visit. Then me, Stef, James, Emilee, Sara & Jae went to Mr. Gattis in Halls to eat. MMMM. There I ran into another face from the past. One of my best friends from highschool: Heather Covington. She's married now and I forget what she said her last name was...but she looked good..exactly the same!! She has 4 children. She was pregnant with one ofthem when we were juniors in HS and I remember her being pregnant with another one..but shes had a little girl since then and got remarrried to her daddy and he had a son so together they have 4 kids. Heather has not chagned a bit!!! She said she lives really close to Britney who was another of both our best friends in school. Thats cool. She also lives only abotu 10 minutes from me!!!! coool. So we also exchanged #s and vowed to get together. After Gattis, my crew went to Fountain City Park. Jamnes & Emilee played their hearts out for almost 3 hours while STef, Sara, and me played with Jaelyn..she LOVED swinging. IT was her first time at the park. Paula also joined us with her babygirl Allison. SO it was one big friendly SUnday park party lol. THe weather was BEAUTIFUL. Totally felt like September..NOT November. After that we went to Target and took James home and then came back home. It was a very eventful and busy weekend. I am off today. WellIm gonna go now...this is long enough haha. BYEEEE.