The last 3 days have gone so slow. i was stuck in bed for 2 days and am finally able to walk around. i walked down the hall with my nurse. ive only had stiched for 5 days, so i have tbe careful not to rip them open. so my nurse, octavia, stays with me and helps me. she says ill be leaving in 2 or 3 days, i dont want to go. Theres a knock on my door. "hello chrissy, how are you feeling today?" i sit there and stair, too ashamed to say anything at all. "ok....well i have come to tell you that tomarrow at 11 am you will be escorted by ambulance to westwood lodge hospital. your family have been gathering things, your mother is here with them. shell be in, i assume you wush to be alone to talk, so goodbye. i will come tomarrow before your transfere" she walks out and sends my mother, zoey, in my room. she runs over, holds me, and starts to cry. "Im sorry, im sorry, im so very sorry." She just holds me for a long while, both of us crying like babies. i hate putting her through this. She leaves my thngs for me and we talk, not about anything important. just how i am and about my transfer to w.w. she kisses my forhead and has to leave for work, i say my goodbye and i fall into sleep. Its wendesday, time to go to westwood. doctor jones comes to speak to me, to tell me how w.w. works. "you will have your own room, you are checked on every 15 minutes to make sure your safe. the bathrooms are locked, you have to ask to be emitted, you cant be in there for more than 5 minutes with out being checked on. breakfast, lunch, and dinner is served in the caffeteria, but you can only got if you make a certain level and get a food ticket. food is brought up to the floor for people who can not go to cafe. when you have a good day, go to all your groups and be safe, you get points, after a certain amoutn of points you make level and get priliges like pool, outside, cafe, radio, and later bed time. You generally have about 5 or 6 groups a day. morning is goal group, you make goals for the day, then therapy, then art group, sometimes we go to the studio if you have priliges, the quite time, where you sit in your room or the door way and just read or wehatever for 3o minutes while the shift changes, then cross over group where you find out whos on the floor and who the nurses are, then news group, you have to watch news for 30 minutes, then end goals. you tell how you think you did acheiving you goal and how you felt all day. then its meds and bed. any questions? youve been very quiet." "when do i get to leave?" "we dont know, its up to you. as soon as we think you are ready to leave. it could be a week, could be a year" she looks down at her watch and i start to tear up, i hid it very well though. "ready to go?" "as ready as ever i guess" they put me on a strecher and into the ambulence. after an hours ride, i arive and the dredded westwood lodge hospital, room number 9 in the girls hall, building B, floor 2.