You ever just have a night where you are super tired but you cant seem to fall asleep?... Something is bugging me enough to where I cant freaking sleep! Im now on a mission to find out what it is... hmm.... xoxox Caitlin*

O man what can I say about this saturday....Only to much. Its was so fucking awesome...well most of it. lol My good friend Stephanie (Lil Cracker) came over around 11am to make our english project due monday. So ya. Well she got here & we were sitting for a bit & then suddenly the 3 fucking stooges show up ( Rob, Jon & Jimmy) Rob & Jon go to there seperate chairs & Jimmy just callapsed on my floor. So ya I went up stairs to get him a comforter, because he wanted one. So ya, Jimmy just then completely passed out. It was funny as hell. We hung out from about 11 or so to like 1. It was good fun. I liked it...except I really could do without hearing about Rob's ex Kelly. However I have made a decision that Lil Cracker & I are gana go meet this chick, becuz she actiually sound chill, so ya, plus I know it would fucking kill Rob if this chick & i became friends.lol. Its sad & sick but he is such a putz. & he whines so much about her that I being the person that I am just have to go meet this so called extrodenary Kelly girl. Ok well I must go. xoxox Caitlin*

Oh man today was just an awesome day!! Little Cracker & Car-O-mel I love you! You make english so much fun... well you & of course we cant leave out the DR. PEPPER damn that shits freaking crazy!!

You always knew looking back on the tears would make you laugh....but i'm sure you never knew looking back on the laughs would make you cry....

Disneyland with Cody, Rob & Jon.... ... enough said...

Last night Lern & I went to this guys Davids house with the masses... Then today Rob & Jon came over & chilled for a few hours then Cody came over too for a while. We ordered Pizza..which i didnt eat. xoxox Caitlin*

CJ called... Lern Came over for an hour or so... Pizza... Then went to Brandon's... then to Lern's... Now it's bed time! xoxox Caitlin*

Only on friday the 13th could what happend tonight happen. Ok well we all decided to go have a bonfire all the way down at some beach in freaking Dana Point. And since no one wanted to walk all the way down all the freaking steps to the beach they went over a fence with razor wire all around it. Well Sharissa fell and slit her upper inner arm & wrist & so Pip called an ambulance & Lern rode with her to the hospitol & then Pip & I followed in Sharissa's car. Ally & Micky in Lerns car & then Jessica nad & some guy Jarred in his car. The rest of the guys like 6 or so of them decided that Sharissa just wasnt worth getting out of the water & stopping their little bonfire. We left the hospitol after seeing sharissa (she looked so much better!) And her parents got there. We piled uss all into Lerns car, well except that Jarred kid. It was Lern & Pip in the front & Micky Ally & I in the back seats & Jessica & Nad in the trunk lol. Nad & Jess got dropped off first then me & I guess the rest all went to Lerns for a little bit. Well I have to go pack. see ya! Big Kiss Muah! Caitlin

Today i realized that I have been cheating someone out of happiness. He as far as I know this time has stayed true to me tell our break, but I unfortuatly have not. I have let him fall "in love" as he says with me & made him think I felt the same...but I dont. I feel dirty for this because Im cheating him out of being happy because I am unhappy...which is seriously sick. AlI know is that I need to set it right...and fast. xoxox Caitlin*

Its amazing the things you remember & the things you forget. People only remember the things that make a difference to them, but its funny how one day your with your friends & you remember something that seems great to you about the day & they pick out something totally different. Like I choose to remember that I met so & so & my friend seems to remember manly my running into a pole. Plus We try to forget the memories that hurt but no matter what we do we will always remeber them somewhat, but not only that but while we are trying to forget the bad we remeber them more & the good even less. I was going through some of my old diaries today. There were things on certain days that were such wonderful memories that I seemed to have forgotten because my dog died or my boyfriend & I fought or something bad had happend. Like one was where I went to disneyland with Jessie & we had a great time but all I could remember was that my boyfriend cancelled our date for that night to go get coffee with his friends. Or when the guy I was dating tried to break up with me online i forgot all about the fact that my best friend in the whole world came over with out my even asking her to at 11pm on a school night just because she knew I needed her. She just knew. I hope to never forget that even though one day my heart may be breaking I should more so remeber the freinds who were there for me when I needed them to be. Even though we get distant I know who my best friend is. She was the one who was there the night my heart broke & she was there the next morning to get me for school & make sure I was ok in some sense. I dont ever want to forget that...ever. I hope all my friends know that I am always here for them too!!! xoxox Caitlin *

Well this morning I had to go see my doctor where I have to get poked at for a bit to see if I have anything else wrong with me. Then I went to work ,but my boss thought it would be better if I just stayed home sick today & got some rest. But my bosses son Alex wanted Yoda...our gray kitten so we let them follow us to the vet to pick him up. Awww Yoda Im ganna miss him!! I even cried! So ok Im at home now. My mom made me a chocolate shake..it was good. I have been just lazying about the house for a while. Its rather boring. Well Im ganna go take a nap. Supposidly thats what people with mono do most of their day so yeah ok. xoxox Caitlin *

I got my results in from the doctor & i found out that I have Mono. Who the Fuck gets mono at the end of summer!??? Damnitt its all CJ's fault I swear I got it from him!! He had strep just before he left for the AFA last month & strep leads into mono if not cheacked. so I suposidly had strep after him or at the same time & i didnt go to the doctor for it so i got Mono... Damnitt! Ahgh! xoxox Caitlin

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I went to the doctor today they scratched my throat with a fucking swob thing to check for strep then I had to get my blood taking ( 2 bloody vials full!!) to check for Mono. I will get the results on friday. not only that but I also found that thesej bloody headachs of mine that have been difficult to bare are migrains so Im taking amoxisillan for my throat & extrs strength exedrin migraine. Oh oh plus I broke my fingure yesturday becuz I accidentally shut my bedroom door on it. So basically I am just Falling apart. Well I got to go my phone is ringing. Its rachel in Tampa! xoxox Caitlin*

Today I went to Lerns & hung out with her & Sharisa. It was pretty cool. I had fun. Now Im went home & ready to fall asleep. hahaha. good night! xoxox Caitlin*

Today I went to waterpolo & then work & then Rob called me & asked me to come to the beach to hang out with him...I told him I wouldnt be off until like 3 30 & probubly wouldnt get there until like 5 but I said Lauren & I would try to go. So lauren & sharisa came & got me around 4 30 & we left for huntington beach when we finally got a hold of the asshole he said he was just leaving lol so lern told him to right his name in the sand under the peir & we would come find it lol. It was so funny...then she hung up on him it was grand. Then this guy on the freeway had this huge ass mfing truck that had a lisence plate saying LES C M on it so Sharisa flashed him & he started following us lol it was funny we sawq him agian when we were walking down main street & we hid in a shop. We went for a walk on the beach found a huge ass hole in the sound & we all laid in it, We looked for robs name under the peir..it wasnt there..go figure. Then we went to BJ's for din din sharisa paid for like everything like all day.. she is so great i heart her lol. Anyways we went to sharisa's for a sec to get some stuff. I found Lerns lost cd's in her car..she was so happy... Ok well I g2g I have to pee!

Today Laurel Jessie & I went to Disneyland but when we got there my dad found out it was a block day so he couldnt get us in. So we stayed at downtown disney for a while drinking smoothies mmm...smoothies... Lol then we had fun with make up '& what not at Sephora. People in there kept telling us nice things about ourselves so Laurel &Jessie & I have decided that when we feel bad that is were we will go. haha... anyways then we went to see Borne Supremecy it was ok. Then Jessie & I went back to my house & prank called all these people... "Hello My name is Beula...hello??" It was so great!!!

I went to waterpolo practice this morning & then I went to my class to pick up my folder then I went to lunch with Lisa & mom to IN N Out mmmm... so good. Then we came home I changed we went to my work i got my uniform then we went to the brea mall for pants & i got new Rainbows. Then I came home. The End.

ROP then Lauren's house with Laurel & watched Eurotrip & 50 first dates.

I went to ROP today the I came home & took a nap. It was nice. Then I went and saw the Note Book with Lauren and a mass of other kids. It was cool. It was my second time seeing it. I like it. Its cute. It always makes me tear up. lol. Well now I must go to sleep.