ok so im really happy again senior trip and spring break and planned and done posting picture of nose for no apperant reason since noone reads this.. its just for me and my children who read this in about 20 years new nose bling weekend partyyy best freinds work lovin

ahhhh i am so happy today ok so im done with drinking and done smoking weed i am putting it off for a while bc this past month iv abused them both im eating again i got my noise peirced TWICE! two rings beside each other (pics soon) and im happy and did i mention i am happppyyyyy oh and a man bough me starbucks today bc i "looked good" life kicks ass

she cries her self to sleep im moving out of the states

so they say frozen spoons heal these red marks that are found across my neck and around my body he was good to me son he was damn good.

frat party with midgit and a stripper if it wasnt for my alcohol poising due to everclear shots maybe id remember the midgit was dressed as an umpa lumpa marley fest smoked a blunt for 12 hours stright and ate cookie hight for approx. 15 hours ran a red light on way home MOTISYAHOU WAS ORGASIM rocky votolato was amazing, met him, talked to him, sang to me alex khater is by far the hottest man comming this summer me and him are sex fuck life is good (knock on wood)

i am very much like a robot i can easily switch my moods. if i want to feel happy then i will. when im tired of feeling alone then i can instantly change. there have been alot of major changes in my life latley and iv had the suport i needed without letting anyone know what happend. i shot him in the leg was my explination. the day that my wires inside me catch on fire is the day i feel something real. until then just stick a charger in me don't you ever pretend that we are more than friends? despite the metal and wires i still have human desires pull yourself together, but my reasoning's caving in

your alot like santa clause.. When its new we belive but year after year without ever seeing him, rumors of exsistance seem too real. How does one know if one does not see? Seing isn't beliveing. Beliveing is seeing but i do BELIEVE and still DONT see.

Im alot worst then you think. do you care? the phone stays quiet

im done with this all because you simply cannot write when you have nothing going for you. i am dead inside with nothing to share this diary ends here gooodbye

i hate feeling like this. i hate having to be sitting here contemplating what i could do to fix this all. worst thing is.. i did nothing wrong and theres no reason for an end. im more mature then you think and theres somethings i cant do anything about when im put into certain situations. yes we do live in two diffrent worlds but we were just about to put them both together. think

hi im a crack head the end.

love is love a tree is a tree an orange is orange life with you is life at its best and its been the best year and a month ..reet..

goood times keep rollin 1st stop... 4th of july nest stop ROAD TRIP UP NORTHHHHHHH hor away from bay area.. stoped at cool flag place flAG I BOUGH addison.. bday boy our way home in stockton.. car got a flat tire OC FAIRR HUNTER WON ME SOOOO MANY TOYS.. HE LOVES ME beach with jesssiiicaaa we like hunigton more then newport.. oh the surfers nike shirt i bought at main street hunigton. from the coooolest store called.. the closet and thats all for now my summer is splendid

R.I.P JIMMY KEARNS you will never be forgotten. miss you

this weekend three good looking girls are hitting the road to go up north. yess up north! and what??? this time we will make it! scoooore permission was granted and now where free to be. god this is going to be so great i love you life sorry diary, iv been really bussy. i need to update more.

shits. things always go diffrently then the expected with me. my life honestly is so unpredictable and thats why i have never been more in love. warped tour was fun but far from what i had in mind. early before the fun began me and allgy waiting me allegy and katie figured why we get along so well and it sismple... we dont bug over small shit like... "you never calllll meee" i "ii feel left out" " u like her more then me" you know imature fuck heads. thats all stupid lame shit. drop it girls peace out i love you summer, and next weekend in la is going to be crazy

Summer is kicking lots of ass. iv been really busy, which is always good. Nadine had a grad party all day yesterday. soo much fun. started drinking at 4. we all had shotguns out in the front. had lunchinner and kicked it off with some dancing. It was a lebaneese family grad party, so of coarse those are the best. The parties are what make me proud to be lebaneese. we know how we do. heres the grad girl. we all started having shotguns out in the front i went too far and cut myself on one some parents dancing. mother up in front smilin belly dancer came but on the dl, we were better.

wooooow ok wow wow wow wow wow!!! i knew my summer was going to kick majot ass but now.. o man i can't handle this baby! first off let me say i am soooo lucky to have the freinds that i have. all the guys are so funny and were just more like a big fat family. we give each other so much shit, and thats what brings us togather. ok sooo CHAD IS COMMING N A WEEEK! 29 to the 2!!!!!! toooo excited for that... did i mention he is MY BEST FREIND and the love of my life??? yeah i have DAN VERRET HAS ARRIVED TO THE U.S dan is part of our group. dan moved away last year to italy. his mom got a great job oppertunity and sadly he was gone before we could accept it. dan said.. "i looooooveee ittalllyy but i couldnt enjoy it becasue i wasnt with you" that right there is so touching.. he didnt want to enjoy italy without us. so now hes staying with hunter for a year away from his mother. so there we were .. driving.. me allegra kt hunter nad ryan. WE BLARED QUEEN SOOO LOUD AND SANG SOO HARD! it was the best, we danced and laughed, adorable. got to the airport with our sign we made for dan this is dan on the back we all ran up being him and jumped on him. he looked really happy. thats ryan dan and hunter italy boy in the middle thhheennnnn dans luggage and skateboard were a no show, so we waited in line with him stillll waiting i like ryan in the back hunter is sexy. we finally decided to eat kfc.. well the boys did. On the way home from the airport we talked alot about memories and the trips we have planned this year. we knew that everyone in the car would stay in contact throught the years. it was a nice night. we ended up eating popcicles over at hunters watching futura.. some underwater simpson's looking cartooon. oh and kt looooves rod stewart

i can't stop thinking about him or try and concentrate on a subject infront of me. You have my undivided attention and i felt as if its always been that way. When i have something to say and cant its becasue i think its not that big of a deal to fight over bc i hate more then anything fighting over you and i know sometimes i just think crazy and ill regret it later. With you, you just dont talk to me. you simply block translation and it kills me even more. You told me yesterday was in the past and to just move on... then why are you not there for me when i need you the most. i told you this and you didnt say a word. did i do something wrong? if so let me know, so i can learn and never repeat it again. I hate more then anything upsetting you. When you come next weekend i need to see you. DO you have any idea how much i love you?? my fathers voice over the phone would normally scare me, i couldnt even concentrate on anything he was saying.. i have no clue what i did wrong. I was thinking too hard on you. "rita, stay where you are, DONT COME HOME!" my dad didnt want me home, he hated me more then anything. I didnt try asking what was going on. i was stuck. "ccchhhhaaaddd answer meeeeeee" i cried last night more then i thought my eyes could consist. It was never eending. I tried to drink,drink,and drink... that lasted a few and then there i was excluding myself from the rest. it times like this where i realize i would give everything around me for you. i have never in my life felt so strong about someone. i love you soo much. where are you now? my stomach keeps turning and i feel so nauseos. i love you chad i love you chad i love you chad i love you chad i love you chad i love you chad i love you chad i love you chad i love you chad i love you chad i love you chad i love you chad i love you chad i love you chad i love you chad i love you chad i love you chad i love you chad i love you chad i love you chad i am so sorry if i upset you, those wernt my intensions

i dont understand whats gotten into me latley. im having suchh an awesome summer but im NOT in the best mood. today the most important person in the world to me told me he was comming down to socal with two freinds. i should be excited.. corrected? it just made me so depressed, i was overthinking it from the wrong point of veiw. I wanted to explain but you didnt want to hear it. It botherd me bc again, it was so easy for you to go for warped tour but if it was to just see me it was more of a mission you even admited once you have never really tried hard enough i just want to know why. if you love me the way you say you do.. wouldnt it be easier? then again i shouldnt be thinking like this you will be down somehwere around here from the 29 to the 2. hope it happens. the reson to why your coming isnt the issue and doesnt bother me anympore i just want to see you. ill just keep lame comments like this to myself like i always do and they never got me introuble so really, when is it ok to speak yuour mind? to just come out and say what it is? i never get it right. n e v e r