OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My brother josh is engaged. omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg. i am going to have a sister in law. omg omg omg omg omg omg omg.

Ok so yesterday my mom said something to me and I didn't really think much of it but now that i do think about i am kinda worried. She asked me that when she leaves after her party she is having would i want to go with her . I said yes but then i asked where are we going and she said away we are leaving like MOVING OUT leaving. So ya we will have to see how that goes. I went to the eye doctor friday and i am going to be getting my new glasses by the end of this week begining of next. They are really cute they are purple and they are rectangular kinda. Oh ya my aunt and cousins are coming up from texas for thanksgiving. It is going to be cool. she hasn't seen me since before i cut my hair. well that is it i updated. Oh and Chrissy sorry about the whole making u want bread sticks.

So ya first I am supposed to get new glasses is that going to happen? NO NO IT'S NOT! My dad bought a new car and they put in wood floors and then they bought a new wood stove so my glasses is so out of the question. And i do need them fyi mine have a huge chip in them. but hey who cares. Second me and my friend (ex-friend) kyle since the seventh grade told each other that even if we weren't friends we would go to the prom together. NO NOT THAT ISN'T HAPPENING EITHER! Ya for me right. Nothing is going right this year. I am making everyone mad all the time (practically every other week). I don't know I hope i don't make anyone angry for saying that. Oh well i don't know what else to say, I am just so stressed right now I just want to cry. I really hate everything. Oh ya guys are jerks!!!

Ok so we are leaving at like 7 in the morning heading for Jackman. I have to miss out on the first spirit assembly of the year wat is that about? arg!! OMG People are such assholes someone stole my dog. what the fuck that is so mean. I am so angry and upset i don't know wat to do it is 9:20 pm we have been looking for her since 3 and we can't find her anywhere. Arg!!!!!!! And my parents are like well maybe she will be back when we get back. OMG if i was incharge i would call the trip off. oh well i am so angry right now i don't know wat to say.

Today I think is the worst day I have ever had. Were to start? Well let me think. Josh has the nerve to come home at 3:30 in the morning and turn on all the lights the tv and the computer. Omg i could have killed him. Then at about 5 oclock I got sick. (everyone says it's going around the school). Anyways so i get up and walk around and then I was getting ready for school and i thought no one was in the bathroom and I was wrong I ran into the door so hard I almost broke my nose I had a bloody nose for like a half hour. Then I am getting a little snack thing before I leave and I hit my head on the fan above the oven.Fun times.(not) Then I get to school and Kathy made a snotty comment to me and I told Chrissy and she just told me to let it slid and to brush it off. Then i snapped at Carrie I will be lucky if she talks to me ever again. And this is all before classes start. Then I got to notice I had a huge ass zit on my upper lip. I ditched Kyle today and didn't stay after with him after I said I would he is going to mad at me. I had no idea what we were doing in math class. Yesterday I got a 71 on my damn aquatic biology test which sucks because I only missed the vocab.stuff. Oh ya and I almost forgot last night I had a panic attack and my dad got hurt trying to get home for me.(aka it is my fault he got hurt). well i have home work that i'm not going to be able to do fun times. me

Ok friday I got my new very own computer and it is in my room and i am typing on it as of now. LOL! I got grounded today for going over to my neighbors house to go tell my little brother that he had to come home. arg what a drag.Oh well i got a new computer.OMG my mom called me lazy and fat. (to my friends u know what i look like and that just isn't true either part of that). Well I can't wait to go back to school and see the girls i miss u alot. well i got to go it is really late. me

So school started last thursday. I guess i like my classes and i have fourth block with Kathy Kayla and Chrissy yeah for me. Poor teacher. haha lol anyways we got comfermation in the mail that the computers are one there way. wahoo. Ow my head hurts. I don't want to go to school tomorrow it is the third day and i already have to do 3 quizes tomorrow. arg. oh well. I got to go and do stuff bye.

So school starts tomorrow I was all excited about it but now i am nervous. I don't want to be a junior that means next year i am going to graduate. arg i hate growing up. anyways my birthday as of tomorrow was one week ago. I got alot of scrapbooking stuff (i love scrapbooking). I got the cutest little piggy bank from Chrissy and Kathy love ya girls. They got me some body spray ( sweet pea), a double hanging picture frame, an aroma(sp) theropy candle(love it) and I think they are the ones who gave me this cute stationary. I can't remember i am stupid. Kayla gave me the funniest card that she made omg so funny love her to death. she gave me a book mark with a pin I love it. It is sweet. Carrie got me A puppy poster that said "BIG FLIRT" on it it is so cute. she also got me some puppy school supplies those are going to come in real handy considering school is tomorrow. OMG CANDY SHOP IS ON THE RADIO stupid i hate this song. My mom tricked me she wouldn't let me buy any shoes for school and on my birthday she bought me two pairs of really expensive shoes. omg they are so awesome and they are narrows so i won't walk out of them and they are good for my feet. yeah for me. OMG I AM GETTING MY OWN COMPUTER AND PRINTER IT IS REALLY AWESOME IT IS A DELL!!!!!! I can't wait it is going to be here in about a week. I am so happy I am home alone today. ya for me I got to sleep in my moms bed lol it is comfy. She got up to get Justin to school and I climbed in and she didn't care lol ya for me. anyways I have to go clean josh messed up the whole house. so fun times. WELL GIRLS I UPDATED I HOPE U ARE HAPPY NOW LOL LOVE YA LOTS AND SEE YA TOMORROW. ( at the usual corner)

Well girls (kayla, chrissy , kathy) u have been telling me to update and well here it is. I can't get on aol it won't let me just thought i would tell you. So it is four days till my 17th birthday. ya for me. We go back to school in like a week and a half. arg :( So this summer i went on a trip to jackman maine it was so much fun i saw my first moose in canada.(we visited there one of the days we were gone.) It is so beautiful up there. We were right next to the lake we had a cabin to ourselves. well anywaysI got ot see my cousin Hope today she is getting bigger then ever she will be a year old in december. she is now almost walking ya for her. she crawls backwards though lol. she can say dada and mama and just yell in general. lol she is so cute. well i don't know what else to say. I miss you girls alot and i can't wait to see you on my birthday. love ya lots. me

If anyone (guys) have ever wondered wat a girl means when she says this or wat is going on in her head this will give u a little insight. [1.] When a GIRL is quiet.. Millions of things are running through her mind. [2.] When a GIRL is not arguing.. She is thinking deeply. [3.] When a GIRL looks at you with eyes full of questions.. She is wondering how long you will be around. [4.] When a GIRL answers "I'm fine" after a few seconds.. She is not fine at all. [5.] When a GIRL stares at you.. She is wondering why you are lying. [6.] When a GIRL lays on your chest.. She is wishing for you to be hers forever. [7.] When a GIRL says "I love you".. She means it. [8.] When a GIRL says that she can't live without you.. She has made up her mind that you are her future. [9.] When a GIRL says "I miss you".. No one in this world can miss you more than that

If I reach for ur hand, will u hold it? If I hold our my arms, will u hug me? If I go for ur lips, will u kiss me? If I capture ur heart, will u love me? y is it that no one likes me when im bein' myself and i hate it, but when im not bein' myself and everyone likes me i hate it? "Take chances. Tell the truth. Date someone totally wrong for you. Say no. Spend all your cash. Fall in love. Get to know someone random. Be random. Say I love you. Sing out loud. Laugh at a stupid joke. Cry. Get revenge. Apologize. Tell someone how much they mean to you. Tell a jerk what you feel. Laugh until your stomach hurts. Live life. And most important, have no regrets." I believe in you. I'll give up everything just to find you. I have to be with you to live to breatheEvery person is miserable at times...and sometimes it seems too much...and i can really relate to that...but that doesn't mean i'll commit suicide. HELL NO...just wait and see how life turns out. Cuz you're giving out on hope...and there, hope gives out on you I believe in you. I'll give up everything just to find you. I have to be with you to live to breathe If I reach for ur hand, will u hold it? If I hold our my arms, will u hug me? If I go for ur lips, will u kiss me? If I capture ur heart, will u love me? You think things are going well But deep down everythings falling apart Dear my self, you've fucked up again let yourself go, and this is the end you had your last chance you spent it too soon look back on the past that sunny afternoon the nightmare that started with pain and deceit the evening that ended in blame and defeat if only you'd have listened you might be alive but you take stupid chances its over, the end

This is some stuff i got out a friends journal i thought that was really nice and kind of romantic. oh well here it is. Body: 1 . Tell her she is beautiful, not hot. 2 . Hold her hand at any moment even if it just for a second. 3 . Kiss her on the forehead. 4 . Leave her voice messages to wake up to. 5 . Always tell her how beautiful she is, no matter what she's wearing. 6 . When she is upset hold her tight and tell her how much she means to you. 7 . Recognize the small things . . . THEY USUALLY MEAN THE MOST! 8 . Call her baby 9 . Sing to her no matter how horrible your voice is. 10 . Pick her over all the other girls you hang out with. 11 . Write her notes. {she loves them} 12 . Introduce her to family and friends as your girlfriend. 13 . Play with her hair. 14 . Pick her up, tickle her and play-wrestle with her. 15 . Sit in the park and just talk to her. 16 . Tell her funny jokes, tell her stupid jokes, just tell her jokes. 17 . Throw pebbles at her window in the middle of the night just because you missed her. 18 . Let her fall asleep in your arms. 19 . Carve your names into a tree. 20 . If she's mad at you, apologize because SHE is always right. 21 . CUDDLE 22 . Bring her flowers just because. 23 . Treat her the same around your friends as you do when you're alone. 24 . Look her in the eyes and smile. 25 . Let her take as many pictures of you as she wants. 26 . Slow dance with her, even if there isn't any music playing. 27 . Kiss her in the rain. 28 . If your in love with her . . . tell her 29. Give her hugs from behind 30. When standing, wrap your arms around her. Here are a few reasons why guys like girls: 1. They will always smell good even if its just shampoo 2. The way their heads always find the right spot on our shoulder 3. How cute they look when they sleep 4. The ease in which they fit into our arms 5. The way they kiss you and all of a sudden everything is right in the world 6. How cute they are when they eat 7. The way they take hours to get dressed but in the end it makes it all worth while 8. Because they are always warm even when its minus 30 outside 9. The way they look good no matter what they wear 10. The way they fish for compliments even though you both know that you think she's the most beautiful thing on this earth 11. How cute they are when they argue 12. The way her hand always finds yours 13. The way they smile 14. The way you feel when you see their name on the call ID after you just had a big fight 15. The way she says "lets not fight anymore" even though you know that an hour later.... 16. The way they kiss when you do something nice for them 17. The way they kiss you when you say "I love you" 18. Actually ... just the way they kiss you... 19. The way they fall into your arms when they cry 20. Then the way they apologize for crying over something that silly 21. The way they hit you and expect it to hurt 22. Then the way they apologize when it does hurt. (even though we don't admit it)! 23. The way they say "I miss you" 24. The way you miss them 25. The way their tears make you want to change the world so that it doesn't hurt her anymore..... Yet regardless if you love them, hate them, wish they would die or know that you would die without them ... it matters not. Because once in your life, whatever they were to the world they become everything to you. When you look them in the eyes, traveling to the depths of their souls and you say a million things without trace of a sound, you know that your own life is inevitable consumed within the rhythmic beatings of her very heart. We love them for a million reasons, No paper would do it justice. It is a thing not of the mind but of the heart. A feeling. Only felt.

Ok so I went Paintballing Monday with Kathy Chrissy Kayla and Tasha and alot of other kids. OMG!!!! It was so fun except Chrissy gave me a humungous bruze on my knee.(chrissy's b-day party). After paintballing we went back to their house and got cleaned up and then Kelley and Mike took us girls out to Pizza Hut and then to the mall. We had so much fun we all acted like idiots. Then we saw Janessa I don't think she was very happy to see me at the mall with Chrissy and all of them. Me and Chrissy had our arms linked and we were just being silly and "skying" on the floor and laughing our A$$es off and then Janessa waved to me and then she saw Chrissy and she looked pissed. So we went to Walmart after the mall (cause we are american), and got some stuff. Then we went home ( chrissy's house) and we had a little bon fire, me and the girls burned pictures of the "hippo" and her follower,(kelly and kristy).Fun!!!!!!! Then we went inside and Chrissy made smores and we ate those while on the computer and watching Ghost Ship ( i had never seen it). Then me and Chrissy went into the kitchen and came back with a huge thing of ice cream yummmmm!!!!(cookies and cream). Then we more I watched Scream while everyone else was falling asleep. Odd movie. Then Tuesday Kelley and Kathy took Lindsay(baby) to the doctor so me and Chrissy and Kayla played disney monopoly and watched Half Past Dead.odd movie. Chrissy kept singing when ever we owed her money strange child. So Kathy and Kelley came home and we went to Hannafords(sp) and we got some lunch. We ate outside and then me and Kathy washed Kelley's car since she had been driving us around. Me and Kathy ended up spraying each other with the hose. Fun!!!! and refreshing. And then unfortunitally I had to come home. When I got home I talked to Eric for a little bit on the computer and then me and my mom went to the store. We rented The Notebook, OMG!!! that movie made me cry so hard it was so romantic. Well now it is today(wednsday). and I have to clean so I will write more later. Oh ya ten bucks says the girls are going to read this tonight. luv ya girls. ps. yesterday was kyles b-day happy birthday kyle!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! From ME

ok so yesterday me and my mom went out shopping and we went to the movies. We saw Man of the House. it was funny. and then that night i went to my high school and went to the Sons of Pitches concert w/ my friend gabbie. It was so fun. we sat in my driveway for and hour and a half just talking and making fun of this guy that called her on her cell phone. Well I have homework to go and do. not fun. byes---ME

So i get to get my hair cut on monday at 430 ya for me. I'm cuting off 18 inches, and i'm donating it to locks of love. i feel very good about this. ya for me hahaha.

So Friday my friends Kathy and Kayla came over and they spent the night. we stayed up til 4 on the computer and we laid down so my dad would think we were sleeping when he went to work at 430 and we ended up falling asleep. dummies. oh well we woke up the next day and went and saw the Phantom of the Opera it was really good. i want to see it again it was fantastic. so romantic. arg i can't wait for this week end we are supposed to stay at kathy's dad house and we are supposed to see boogyman and hide and seek. gtg bro is being an ass and wants the computer.

ok so i told the guy i like (no names) that i liked him because my friend dared me too so i did. and he said he values my friendship and doesn't want to ruin it because of my little crush. and then he has the nerve to start talking about his girlfriend. he just doesn't get it u don't do that. oh well I think i'm finally over him now i think that is what it took to make me realize that he isn't the one for me. oh well tuff cookies.

ya so this weekend my friends kathy and kayla are coming to my house. yay for me but i'm pissed cause chrissy was supposed to come but she doesn't like my mom or my house so she doesn't want to. i mean how mean is that. if she didn't like it she wouldn't have come over two weeks ago. i just think that is rude. and i had to hear about it from her sister i mean that makes it even worse. oh well i'm not going to let that stop us from us having a good weekend.

I had finals today( u.s history and spanish) I did really bad on the us history one but spanish i think was ok. nothing to talk about

yayayayyayayay we got our class rings on friday i'm so happy. mine is perido ( light green) with my school and my graduation year on the sides. it looks really nice it has the sunburst effect in the stone. yayaya. so anyways, thursday we had our chorus concert. i guess it went well. it was funny we were singing the halilujah(sp) chorus anyways we weren't done and some guy yelled out halilujah. i almost peed my pants laughing. it was really funny. ya so i invited like all of my friends to go to the concert and only chrissy came. i luv u chrissy it was really sweet of u to actually come. my aunt and cousin and them are over here we had a little gift exchange i got a shirt with a scarf and a latch hook kit. it is really cool i can make a pillow with it. i am so excited my aunt had a baby a couple weeks ago and i get to go see her tomorrow. and christmas is next week. yayayayaya. so i got in touch with a friend of mine that i hadn't talked with since we were in sixth grade together, for those who don't know me i'm in 10th now so it has been a good 4 years. well i'm tired of this so i'm going to go. i can't wait to see the baby!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh ya tell know one my bro has diet pills in his room to hid them from his girlfriend still don't tell anyone i have been taking them. byes---- me remember tell noone