Life is Random...ask questionsOcean or Lake?Lake for swimming, Ocean for boatingPizza or Chinese?pizzaMansion or Penthouse?mansionHave you been on a Jet Ski?noAre you afraid of clowns?noHow many brothers/sisters do you have?1Favorite band/group?tupacBaseball or football?footballFavorite brand of makeup?i dont knowWaffles or pancakes?neitherDo you have an IPod?no i think they are pointless jus stick to the cd walkmanBike or scooter?bikeEver go in a hot air balloon?noHow will you celebrate turning 21?drinking with my buddies and buying beer for them since they wont b 21 yet lolWhat brand computer do you have?emachinesHow many times have you been to DisneyWorld?neverFavorite city?i dont knowIce cream or frozen yogurt?ice creamDo you think you are fat?no and neither are my friendsEver throw up in a public place?yesDo you have a pool?noEver drive a car?yesHow many times a month do you go to the movies?like never Last movie you saw?i dont knowWho is your hero?friends and familyHow old are your parents?36 and 38What deceased person would you like to meet?tupacDo you chew ice?yesHave you been to California?noLast book you read?i cant rememberFavorite teacher?ms mackenzie was pretty coolDo you like to go fishing?yes if i go on the right day with the right pplHow many of those do you regret?how many fishing do i regret?? i dont get itWhat is you average in school?like c- or a D+Favorite professional team?Boston Celtics and Greenbay PackersDo you like mohawks?dependsHow many pairs of shoes do you own?like a fewDo you floss?yesDo you have braces?noDo you bite your nails?noWhat is your last thought before falling asleep?whoever is on my mindDo you fall in love easily?noEver have a crush and they never knew?prob.Do you babysit?if i get asked too (i miss lyndsey:(Ever been shot at?yesDo you work out/exercise?yesDo you have 6 pack abs?ha noDo you consider yourself nice?ha noWhat movie character would you like to be?hm..wel i already am supermanDo you go to camp for the summer?noEver been bit by a snake?not that i remember but probablyHave you been on a boat?duhName of friend you have known the longest?MorganDo you like jumping on a trampoline?yesEver break a bone?noName of favorite Aunt/Uncle?um..dont have oneWhat is your ultimate job?hm..well me and chrissy are gonna set up a tattoo/piercing place lolDo you want to walk on the moon?noCan you name the seven dwarfs?um..sleepy,dopey,hippy,lippy,nippy. no i guess not lolFavorite TV show?veronica marsApples or oranges?applesFavorite model of car?MustangFavorite flower?um..i dont have oneFavorite color?baby blueBesides family, ever have someone of the opp sex in your bedroom?yesEver climb out your bedroom window?yesDo you live in an apartment or house?houseHow many times in the last month have you had the hiccups?noneEver laugh so hard milk came out your nose?yesHow many cousins do you have?37 that i can think of but wayyyy more than that Do you believe in ghosts?yes sometimesIf you were a bird, what would you be?eagle or a hawkEver get stitches?noIf you could, would you want to know what your future was going to be?not really but depends on the situationHow many kids do you want to have?noneIf you could change your name, what would it be?HaileyDogs or cats?catsWho do you tell your problems to?whoever listens...mostly chrissy and kathyWho can your tell your secrets to and know they wont tell?chrissy kathyDo you believe in love at first sight?not reallyDo you go to church?noWould you marry outside your religon?i dont have a damn religionVolleyball or tennis?volleyballHow many people were at your last party?2 b/c im a loser lol. no but yeah it was jus the 3 of us for christmasEver ride in a limo?yesEver drink champagne?yesFavorite dinner?pizza hut or dairy queen is good for meCREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

Name:Kayla ClarkBirthdate:10/13/88Birthplace:portlandCurrent Location:standishEye Color:hazelHair Color:brownHeight:5'1''Weight:132Piercings:1Tatoos:0Boyfriend/Girlfriend:noOverused Phraze:dammitFAVORITESFood:cheeseburgerCandy:gobstoppersNumber:3Color:baby blueAnimal:white tigerDrink:mountain dewAlcohol Drink:damn jack danielsBagel:noneLetter:RBody Part on Opposite sex:eyesThis or ThatPepsi or Coke:cokeMcDonalds or BurgerKing:mcdonaldsStrawberry or Watermelon:neitherHot tea or Ice tea:ice teaChocolate or VanillavanillaHot Chocolate or Coffee:hot chocolateKiss or Hug:hugDog or Cat:catRap or Punk:rapSummer or Winter:summerScary Movies or Funny Movies:scary moviesLove or Money:bothYOUR...Bedtime:anytime i wantMost Missed Memory:my grandfatherBest phyiscal feature:nothing First Thought Waking Up:not nowGoal for this year:get my license and jobBest Friends:kathy and chrissyWeakness:trusting someone when i know i shouldntFears:needles and being aloneHeritage:i dont knowLongest relationship:7 yearsHAVE YOU...Ever Drank:yesEver Smoked:yesPot:yesEver been Drunk:not reallyEver been beaten up:yesEver beaten someone up:yesEver Shoplifted:yesEver Skinny Dipped:noEver Kissed Opposite sex:yesBeen Dumped Lately:noIN A GUY/GIRLFavorite Eye Color:blueFavorite Hair Color:blonde or darkShort or Long:shortHeight:5'2''-5'7''Style:hip hoppishLooks or Personality:bothHot or CutecuteDrugs and Alcohol:neitherMuscular or Really Skinny:muscularRANDOMSNumber of Regrets in the Past:too manyWhat country do you want to Visit:africaHow do you want to Die:suddenly no pain or struggleBeen to the Mall Lately:yesDo you like Thunderstorms:love themGet along with your Parents:for the most part yesHealth Freak:no Do you think your Attractive:noBelieve in Yourself:sometimes i can be cockyWant to go to College:yes but will never make itDo you Smoke:noDo you Drink:noShower Daily:yesBeen in Love:yesDo you Sing:yesWant to get Married:not reallyDo you want Children:noHave your future kids names planned out:yeah even though i dont want anyAge you wanna lose your Virginity:i dont know 18 i guessHate anyone:yesCREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

[Marital Status]married[Shoe size]8[Parents still together]yes[Siblings]younger brother[Pets]1 cat,5 fish,2 ferrets,3 guinea pigsFAVORITES[Color]baby blue[Number]3[Animal] white tiger[Drinks] mountain dew and vanilla shakes[Soda] mountain dew[Book] holes[Flower] sunflowerDO YOU[Color your hair?] yes[Twirl your hair?] yes[Have tattoos?] no[Have Piercings?] yes[Cheat on tests/homework?] yes[Drink/Smoke?] no and no[Like roller coasters?] no[Wish you could live somewhere else?] yes[Want more piercings?] yes [Like cleaning?] sometimes[Write in cursive or print?] print[Own a web cam?] no[Know how to drive?] yes[Own a cell phone?] no[Ever get off the damn computer?] yes im barely on anymore dammitHAVE U EVER [Been in a fist fight?] yes[Considered a life of crime?] huh?? probably[Considered being a hooker?] yes[Lied to someone?] of course[Been in love?] i am[Made out with JUST a friend?] hm..probably[Been in lust?] no[Used someone] no[Been used?] yes[Been cheated on?] probably[Kicked someone in the nuts?] yes[Stolen anything?] yes[Held a gun] yesCURRENTS [Current clothing] clothes[Current mood] tired and i have a weird feeling[Current taste] nothing[What you currently smell like] adidas perfume[Current hair] up[Current thing I ought to be doing] i dont know[Current cd in stereo] sisqo[Last book you read] hm..[Last movie you saw] Sleepy Hollow[Last thing you ate] cheeseburger last night[Last person you talked to on the phone] Grandmother[Do drugs?] no[Believe there is life on other planets?] maybeRemember your first love?] yes[Still love him/her?] no[Read the newspaper?] no[Have any gay or lesbian friends?] yes[Believe in miracles?] yes[Do well in school?] sometimes[Wear hats] yes[Hate yourself?] sometimes[Have an obsession?] i dont knwo[Collect anything?] yes[Have a best friend?] hm..i hope so[Close friends?] i hope so[Like your handwriting?] not really[Care about looks] noLOVE LIFE[First crush] um..Justin[First kiss] Justin[Do you believe in love at first sight?] not really[Do you believe in "the one?"] no[Are you a tease?] no[Too shy to make the first move?] noARE U A[Daydreamer] yes [Bitch/Asshole] yes[sarcastic] yes[Angel] no[Devil] yes[Shy] yes sometimes[Talkative] yes sometimesCREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

First Name: Kayla Are you named after anyone? A soap opera character Do you wish on stars? no When did you last cry? Sunday Do you like your handwriting? Not really but everyone else does What is your favorite lunch meat? ham What is your birth date? October 13 What is your most embarrassing CD? I don’t get embarrassed easily If you were someone else, would YOU be friends with you? no Are you a daredevil? sometimes Have you ever told a secret you swore not to tell? Only when its going to help that person Do looks matter? sometimes How do you release anger? Punch and throw things Where is your second home? Anywhere but here lol Do you trust others easily? depends What was your favorite toy as a child? My stuffed rat(which I still have 14 years later) Do you have a journal? yes Do you use sarcasm a lot? yes Favorite movie(s)? horror and basketball movies What are your nicknames: Kay and Kaylatina Would you bungee jump? yes Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? yes Do you think that you are strong? It depends Shoe Size? 8 1/2 What are your favorite colors? Baby blue Who do you miss most? My grandfather What color pants are you wearing? blue What are you listening to right now? The Simpsons Last thing you ate? chips If you were a crayon, what color would you be? blue What is the weather like right now? Cold and dark Last person you talked to on the phone: Mom last Friday (nobody ever calls me lol) The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Eyes How are You Today? Im alright I guess for the moment anyways Where Would You Max Out A Credit Card? Olympia Sports, Pac Sun, and Lids Favorite Drink? Moutain dew Favorite Sport? Basketball Hair Color? Brown Eye Color? Hazel Do you wear contacts? No Favorite Food? Im not sure if I have one but I am craving pizza hut b/c we were talking bout it this morning Last Movie You Watched at the Theatre? The pacifier Favorite Day Of The Year? I don’t know Scary Movies Or Happy Endings? Scary movies Summer Or Winter? Summer Hugs OR Kisses? Both What Is Your Favorite Dessert? Don’t know?? Any piercings: lip Living Arrangements? Mom dad brother What Book(s) Are You Reading? None What is on Your Mouse Pad? Its plain red What Did You Watch Last night on TV? 7th Heaven Ever Been in a Car Accident: Yes Ever Fail Your Driver's Test: Not yet!! Favorite Smells? Vanilla Rolling Stones or Beatles? The Rolling Stones What is the furthest you have been from home? Mass. Best Trip: Never been on one

I feel you in the morning When at first I awake Your thought is with me With each decision I make You'd been around forever Since the first breath I took Now I have to go on alone But for love, I need not look Cause by what you bestowed In our short time together Will last in my heart Forever and ever Although you've left And now walk above I'm never alone I'm wrapped in your love Enjoy now your long waited reward Feel peace that your love continues on What was taught to me, will be taught to mine Cause you live on in me even after you've gone i love you and miss you very much. but i always feel like your still here which i believe you are. Rest in Peace. 8/10/05

conversation between a squirrel and girl "im not sticking the lollipop up my butt!" "c'mon its for a good cause!!" "no!" "this lollipop is going to be shoved up your butt by the weekend. you selfish son of the bitch!!!" a quote! "You could tell me a lie, and i'll believe you as long as it's what you really want...you can hold nothing back..." Am I loud and clear, or am I breaking up?Am I still your charm, or am I just bad luck?Are we getting closer, or are we just getting more lost? I'll show you mine if you show me yours first Let's compare scars, I'll tell you whose is worse Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words We live on front porches and swing life away, We get by just fine here on minimum wage If love is a labor I'll slave till the end, I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand love ya guys peace out!! kay my face is burning dam sunburns..lol

So Chrissy is this wat you wanted?? lol. anyways. im sorry bout how home life is going. just wanted you to know that there is always a friend and a bed here if you ever feel like you need it. I wish I could change things for you but i cant. But i am always here for you and i love you thats wat i can do for you. And that same thing goes for kathy jess and natalie. and other ppl but they are not reading this so y should i list them. lol. anyways. So. um..ahh...idk. the cat walks funny. sorry i was just watching her walking. and started laughing lol. im kno im so mean. anyways i have to go clean the guinea pig's cage. even though i dont really want too. And my head is fucking killing me so bad im dizzy. grrrrrrrr...gotta go the guinea pigs and have to help alan w/ homework. see ya guys tomorrow. love ya foeva and fo always you guys rock da boat~kay

here ya go im updating. i dunno wat to update about. hm...well how are you?? Charlie is doing awesome. I hope ted gets betters. So kathy how did ned taste?? um..The evil monkey is sending me threatening messages. Everyone that is reading this probably thinks i need to go to the white room which actually i do. lol. but oh well. its not white its blue. um..so school is in like 4 days. well unless its delayed which i hope it is. green lost terribly yesterday. they suck so bad. i dont get y they put alan on that team. and he just sneazed really loud and it scared me. well thats all i can think of. Chrissy im thinking bout that Sentra. that would b so awesome to have. And kathy good taste in cars. well ttyl. peace out

So Into You-Fabolous I can’t really explain it I’m so into you now I wanna be more than a friend to you now When they ask, I mention my babygirl in the interviews now And I don’t bring the problems from the 90s and the 2 thou Theres no reason to have a friend or two now Cuz the kids ready to tell you how he feel and a few vows Maybe I speak in general now But girl, imma do whatever just to keep a grin on u now Where I roll, they wear bikinis in the winter too now What you think about tan lines on the skin of you now? Why wouldn’t I wanna spend a few thou On fifth ave, shopping sprees and them dinners to chow I aint concerned with other men with you now As long as when I slide up in you, you growl And any dude with you, he better be a kin to you now And I aint jealous, it’s the principle now I’m so into you (chorus) I really like what you’ve done to me I can’t really explain it I’m so into you I really like what you’ve done to me I can’t really explain it I’m so into you Come on ma It’s more than a flashing I woulda traded it all in orderly fashion My villa in Florida we crashing Just off the shore so you can hear when the water be splashing The Drop top 3 in the quota we dashing Flawless diamonds in the water we flashing The money we oughta be stashing I make sure ever quarter be cashed in I can’t really explain it My friends be thinking I’m slipping These girls be thinking I’m tripping What kinda weed u be smoking What typa drinks u be sipping Sweet thing just to think of you dipping Would have me with the blue so hard You would think I was cripping Now you relaxing in the Benz Credit cards are no limits So u don’t worry about maxing when u spends But since u been asking about the friends How’d u like it if both our names had Jackson on the ends (chorus-repeats) I don’t wanna trip, but the truth is Girl the way you cook a stake Remind me of the strips to Ruth chris U love my smile, no matter how chipped my tooth is With you it aint because my whips is ruthless So sit on chrome, dip the deuces And you aint flattered by Canary’s and VS dip tay seuces All the ballers look dumb when they press you Five and sixes, you don’t let them kinda #’s impress you Even though I was so unsuccessful Being a player was becoming too stressful But ever since, this superwoman has come to my rescue My winter’s been wonderful, my summer’s been special That’s why the same bar while the villa been painted Just so we can really get acquainted The love is real, there’s no way you can feel like it’s tainted But I can’t really explain it, yeah (chorus-repeats) Ohhhh, no no no no nooooo Ooooohhhh no no So many

"Scars"-Papa Roach I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut My weakness is that I care too much And my scars remind me that the past is real I tear my heart open just to feel Drunk and I'm feeling down And I just wanna be alone I'm pissed cause you came around Why don't you just go home Cause you channel all your pain And I can't help you fix yourself You're making me insane All I can say is [Chorus:] I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut My weakness is that I care too much And our scars remind us that the past is real I tear my heart open just to feel I tried to help you once Against my own advice I saw you going down But you never realized That you're drowning in the water So I offered you my hand Compassions in my nature Tonight is our last stand [Chorus-repeats] I'm drunk and I'm feeling down And I just wanna be alone You shouldn't ever come around Why don't you just go home? Cause you're drowning in the water And I tried to grab your hand And I left my heart open But you didn't understand But you didn't understand Go fix yourself I can't help you fix yourself But at least I can say I tried I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life I can't help you fix yourself But at least I can say I tried I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life [Chorus-repeats]

Rest in Peace grandpa. havent written here for a few days. oh well. been out of it. i still kinda am. but im getting better. slowly im getting better. im going to sears tomorrow to shop for a shirt and shoes for the funeral. but i dunno which sears. i was hoping the one at the mall so i can see amber if she is working that day. i havent seen anybody this summer except kathy and chrissy once. and thats it. and then i have to go to the funeral saturday. a part of me doesnt wanna go but i am going b/c i know im gonna regret. its the worse to regret not going to someone's funeral. trust i know. i guess wat they are doing w/ him is they are going to give some of his ashes to his kids (which are 5 daughters) one of them is my mom. then the rest to his wife my stepgrandmother. some ppl think its morbid. but i actually kinda like that idea. it got me thinking wat i want done w/ me when im dead. and i have no idea. my mom says hopefully i will have a long time to decide. but now a days thats just not true. and today we almost lost my dad. i guess he was working on a car and danny was working on the truck behind it and it started up already in gear and pushed the car and pretty much ran my dad over. but they stopped it in time. but if they were inside my dad would have been crushed in the wall and died. i guess one of my mom's friend died that way. but thats y u need to cherish wat you have and the people around you cuz they can be gone at any moment. and try to cherish and love the people around me. but i dunno if im doing good job of it. im gonna try harder. b/c i dont wanna lose anyone. and i dont want anyone i care bout leave the world thinking i dont care bout them. but im gonna go watch urban legends now. kathy chrissy jess and rest of my friends and all my family i love you and care for you and im always here for you and your always in my prayers and my dreams love ya foeva and fo always!!!! kay C.

LET ME HOLD YOU I been watching you for a minute Come through here so sweet scentedIn life girl you need me in it IM determined to win it I know what you need I know what's wrong I know how to make it tight Everything will be all right If ya LET ME HOLD YOU And Introduce you to my world And Introduce you to the better side of life that you aint been seeing girl Ima show you where its at And Ima show you how to get it All you got do is be wit it and LET ME HOLD YOU Down like a real mans supposed to I never would have approached you If I aint have intentions on doing good See dude you wit is so fooled To me girl your so cool And all Im asking you to do is LET ME HOLD YOU Down like a best friend, two homies in the game When you cry I wanna feel your pain No Secrets, No Games All Excitement, Nothing Plain Keep you happy That's my aim And all you gotta do girl is LET ME HOLD YOU [Chorus] In My arms In my mind all the time I wanna keep you right by my side till I die im gonna hold you down and make sure everything is right wit you You can never go wrong if you LET ME HOLD YOU Down like a real friends supposed to im trying to show you the life of somebody like you should be living OOOooHHhh Baby Baby You could never go wrong If you let me hold you Ima Keep you up on whats popping and shake you fresh to death When we hit the mall we can ball till theres no more left I know you aint used to it but you gon get used to it 'Cause that's the only way im a do you and just LET ME HOLD YOU All my hommies think Im tripping cause I got you a pad See they just mad cause they aint get you They aint get you TAURUS is your sign and girl your so fine And i would do whatever in no time LET ME HOLD YOU No Shine Its what your coming with but Ima change all that Rearrange that Put you in the range all black With the rims to match Phone attached TVs in the back How you gon say no to that? Huh LET ME HOLD YOU Niggas Look at me like now here you go Really bout to blow some doe But ain't nobody did it before so why is you so go hold it Cause I believe this was meant to be I just gotta work at it Like a crack addict up in rehab [Chorus-REPEAT] Down down around Atlanta Lanta Fah Found And everybody know now what Im tryna do I say Down down around Atlanta Lanta Fah Found Im just tryna get you to LET ME HOLD YOU Down down around Atlanta Lanta Fah Found And everybody know now what Im tryna do I say Down down around Atlanta Lanta Fah Found Im just tryna get you to LET ME HOLD YOU [Chorus-REPEAT] Let Me Love You (u know that song they wouldnt play at the skating rank dam jerks!!!) Mmmm ..... Mmmmm.... Yeah....Mmmmm....Yeah, Yeah, Yeah Mmmm...Yeah....Mmmm..... Yeah, Yeah Baby I just don't get it Do you enjoy being hurt? I know you smelled the perfume, the make-up on his shirt You don't believe his stories You know that they're all lies Bad as you are, you stick around and I just don't know why If I was ya man (baby you) Never worry bout (what I do) I'd be coming home (back to you) Every night, doin' you right You're the type of woman (deserves good thangs) Fistful of diamonds (hand full of rings) Baby you're a star (I just want to show you, you are) [Chorus:] You should let me love you Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need Baby good love and protection Make me your selection Show you the way love's supposed to be Baby you should let me love you, love you, love you Listen Your true beauty's description looks so good that it hurts You're a dime plus ninety-nine and it's a shame Don't even know what you're worth Everywhere you go they stop and stare Cause you're bad and it shows From your head to your toes, Out of control, baby you know If I was ya man (baby you) Never worry bout (what I do) I'd be coming home (back to you) Every night doin' you right You're the type of woman (deserves good thangs) Fistful of diamonds (hand full of rings) Baby you're a star (I just want to show you, you are) [Chorus:repeat] You deserve better girl (you know you deserve better) We should be together girl (baby) With me and you it's whatever girl, hey! So can we make this thing ours? [Chorus:repeat] wat do you think?? ttyl lata!! love ya foeva and fo always!!

hehehe no i have nothing else to say to you. hehehe

I can see that you've been crying. you cant hide with a lie. whats the use in you denying? that what you have is wrong. i heard him promise you forever. but forever come and gone. baby, he would say whatever. it takes to keep you blind. tho the truth between the lines. oh. chorus i will love you more then that. i wont say the words then take them back. dont give lonlieness a chance. baby listen to me when i say i will love you more then that. baby you deserve much better. whats the use in holding on? dont you see its now or never? cuz i just cant be friends. baby knowing in that.. chorus repeats theres not a day that passes by. i dont wonder why we havent tried. its not too late change your mind. so take my hand and dont say goodbye. chorus repeats love ya foeva and fo always....ya know who..

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this one is for kathy but i dunno if im ever going to use it. but if u can figure out wat the name stands fo let me know i would like to tell ya how wrong u are lol ttyl peace out homies!!