ALOT OF PPL ASK ME STUPID FUCKING QUESTIONS. ALOT OF PPL ASK ME IF WHAT I SAY ON RECORD IM GONNA DO, THAT IF I SAY I WANNA KILL SOMEBODY THAT I BELIEVE IT OR IM GONNA DO IN REAL LIFE. WELL BULL SHIT. IF U BELIEVE THAT. THAN I'LL KILL YOU. YOU KNOW WHY?? B/C IM A CRIMINAL!!! HAHA U GOT DAMN RIGHT. LOL I JUST FELT LIKE I SHOULD UPDATE. WELL NOT MUCH LATELY GOING ON. JUS ALOT ON MIND. BUT NOTHING NEEDING TO EXPLAIN TO THE WHOLE FUCKING WORLD. IF I CARE TO EXPLAIN IT TO YOU THEN YOU SHOULD ALREADY KNO AND IF I DONT THEN YOU WONT KNO. HAHA. WITH THAT SIMPLY PUT. COLTS ARE KICKING JAGS ASSES. AND IM GONNA GO THROW IT IN MY BROTHERS FACE. I DONT EVEN CARE THAT PATS ARE WINNING THE COLTS JAGS GAME IS FUCKING OFF THE HEEZY YO. WELL NOT MUCH MORE TO SAY. PEACE OUT KAY

I dont wanna hear that you care, I want to feel it. I dont wanna hear that you love me, I need to feel it. Just something some of you should think about others dont need to. okay there is my update. Well Jess wanted me to update. So I am. On Thanksgiving it was a blast. Me and my aunt Sandy stole Alan's remote and changed the channel on him. We went to Bambi's new apartment and tore everything apart. Omg so sorry Bambi. Lol. No but she told us not to mess anything up. Thanks for the trust. Hey we are the Clarks this is just how we roll. Lol. THen on Friday Kathy and Chrissy came up. So much fun. We went to Pizza hut. THen to a bunch of stores around Windham. IT was amazingly fun. Omg me and Chrissy just know how to embarass people. Lol. I love hanging out with them guys. Then the weekend came. On Saturday I forced dad to go to the Mall so I could get Christmas shopping done. I think Jess and kathy and chrissy are gonna love what they get. Especially Kathy. Jess already knows what she is getting. Not fair man!! Lol. Then Sunday I stayed home bored all frigin day. THen Monday was school again. I hate school. I was not in a good mood yesterday. Im still not really. If you wanna know Chrissy send me an email and I will tell you. Then now its Tuesday. I feel like major crappage. Is that a word?? Lol. Well Im starting to fell a little better. Well Peace out. Kaylatina

Alan got his first touchdown today. It was so awesome. He intercepted the ball and just ran for it. Omg and my mom got to see it to which made it so much better. She has only seen 3 games so far. ANd this was his last one. They tied though but it doesnt matter. THen the varsity has their championship game tomorrow against Windham. Hopefully they will let ALan play in that game too. Well we will see tomorrow. Peace Out Kay

Dont you love it when you have a best friend who you used to be so close too but then they get a new friend who they treat like god and dont do much with you anymore. You guys used to do everything together then a new year comes and they dont invite you to anything anymore and they dont involve you in much more anymore. but there is nothing you can say or do or they will get mad b/c or your afraid they wont understand and get mad. the only problem is that they still talk to you and they can throw that in ur face but the point your trying to get across is you dont feel very involved anymore like it used to be. but you cant do anything bout it b/c they dont seem to understand. Dont you just love that?????? Just a question I thought I'd ask.

well today is saturday. just got the internet back. we lost it on thursday night. well natalie still hates me. which is so dumb. b/c all i have to say is that if somebody did to her wat she did she would want somebody to tell her. hm..i smell hypocrite. oh well. what do i know im just an idiot anyways right?? and im nothing but a controling nasty bitch. and i hit my friends. and i guess im all the sudden a dike. wow i love these ppl who think they know everything bout me. NOT!!! well anyways. i get to drive all day. and im going for my license on monday. Halloween. way cool. but im not doing anything for halloween. which is depressing. I always go out with my friends. but this year no one. yay im just an idiot. just one of those things right chrissy. lol. i dont care i love the rath of chrissy. watever that is suppose to mean. i love you chrissy you are truly amazing. you are one of the strongest ppls i know and you been thru alot. Same with kathy. Im proud of the both of you you both are truly amazing and i need you guys here with me on earth. I wouldnt want it any other way. we will always have our downs and our fights but we are always there for each other and we get thru it. that is wat is truly amazing bout us. we rock the world. we are truly best friends. i love you both. anyways. well parents should be home soon. last night i watched the sixth sense. truly awesome movie. i love the hollow too. "whats the matter junior you look like u've seen a ghost. AGAIN." my favoriterest part. lol. well im gonna go. and im still not nervous. omg what is wrong with me. lol. anyways. ttyl pan-pizzle and clarkbar represent the east standish side. lol. peace out kay

Well last night i had my second birthyday party. My grandmother and grandfather (my dad's dad and stepmom)came around 6 b/c my grandmother was feeling sick. they got me a nice warm red old navy sweatshirt. very neat. and a water bottle with a key chain b/c im going for my license soon. then they left. then my grandmother (mom's stepmom) and my little 2 year old cousin Gabe came. Hes so cute. Omg me and him were playing with alan's cars and we were doing a day of destruction thing with them it was so fun. And she got me a card with connect the dots in it. haha. Then my other grandmother came(mom's mom)she got me a olympia sports gift certificate. Very cool. then my other cousin Bambi got lost. I had to run out and get her. That was a good laugh. LOL. she is so awesome. Im so glad she came. She is moving in her own place in 2 weeks. i cant wait. we are going to keep in touch with each other more now. at least i hope. I love her so much. i lost 7 years with her b/c of personal problems which she got help for. i think we get along like sisters so well b/c we almost just alike and we been thru similar things. ppl always think we are sisters or twins or something b/c we look and almost act alike. i love it. lol. and then my grandmother and grandfather came (dad's mom and stepdad) i havent seen them in almost over a year. bambi got me a flower and grammie got me a card with 20 dollahs. bambi stayed til like 10:30 last night. so cool. all together in my wallet is 154 dollahs. and all together that i made for my birthday is 170 dollahs. so awesome. now i cant actually get christmas gifts for ppl this year unlike last year. lol. anyways over all last night was a awesome night. better then ever before. my dad wasnt being an ass like he usually is and getting into fights. im so glad. im proud of him lol. well my cousin bambi works at the animal refugee league where we got and brought callie back too. and they put her down yesterday. bambi patted her 4 times and 4 hugs for the 4 of us and a slap on the ass for my dad. lol. and bambi held her til she went. that was cool of her. and she brought back callie's ball. and we are going to bury her with that. i think we are doing it wednesday. but it is better for callie b/c familys will just keep bringing back and she would just get angryier and angryier. and go after a kid or something. no matter how mad she made me i still miss her. but i know it was better for her to go instead to suffer the rest of her life. it wouldnt be fair for her. well anyways that is all for an update. i guess my birthday is officially over oh sorry i mean chrissys birthday is officially over lol. well ttyl. love ya peace out kay!!

Well my birthday was on Thursday. Crazy times. Chrissy made a cake which was awesomely amazing. Eric started singing happy birthday in 4th block. Totally insane. And then on Friday Jess came over on the bus. My mom got home early so we decided to go out to get the movies while we waited for Kathy and Chrissy. But they didnt have half the movies we wanted at viewers choice so we went over to Movie Gallery in Gorham to get those movies and then back to viewer's choice to get the other movies. Movie Gallery was sold out of the Fog. And neither place had helter skelter. I was so mad. but we got family guy both amitville horrors (the new one is so much better) beauty shop, robots, the fear, jack frost, vampire assasin, and that is all i think. then after that jess and i ran to hannaford b/c she had to go to the bathroom. then we ran through the store. i got candy corn. i almost knocked over the shelf. then we made my mom go to heathers lane. She is so awesome. i hope i get a job there i would love to work w/ her. then we went home. and kathy and chrissy were already there. lol. chrissy is like no one showed up to my birthday party good times good times. then we got pizza. then movies. then cake and present. the cake was deliciously good. but i couldnt eat it all b/c i was stocked up on candy corn. lol. Jess got me a purple moose. which is sooo cute. im ignoring the fact that its purple though. and gobstopper.yummy. my mom gave me 60 dollars. all together i got 96 dollars so far. but i spend some. now im back down to 65. and kathy and chrissy got me a celtics build a bear. he is soo coool. he even got sunglasses. omg. i love him. his name is charlie. lol. they will understand. and then yesterday we chilled. and played bull shit. but me and alan just gave up on it. kathy won. and she lost to alan in war. i beat her up and sat on her while i talked on the phone w/ my grandmother. which was great to hear from her. i never get to see her anymore. and then kathy and chrissy left w/ kelley and lyndsey. they left their pillows and gloves (michael jackson gloves) we watched longest yard and amitville horror while we waited for my mom to come home to go to the mall. then me jess alan went to the mall. crazy times. everyone we knew was there. desirae's dad was there. and i said ur lucky i dont have a knife in my hand or i would stab you. (kathy and chrissy would understand) and i think he heard me b/c he turned around and gave me and evil look and i go yeah you you asswipe. and we saw bre she works at disney store. and tons of other ppl. nobody really that important. but jill but she never saw us and we couldnt find her afterwards. we went into the disny store, olympia, lids and i got a celtics hat, sears, pacsun, and the halloween store totally lame. but i wanted that pimp hat but it was too much not worth it at all. and we went into macys and there were these see thru thongs with butterflys on it. and it was kathys size. im like if it was christmas i would get her those. lol. its the butterflies. she would understand. i think lol. then we met my mom and went to friendlys for ice cream. then we brought kathy her pillows. now i know where kelley lives. haha. and lyndsey doesnt remember me. which is sad. i should start hanging out there more often. maybe i can go over sometimes when chrissy baby sits. man it was a good weekend. i like having a few friends over instead of a huge party. i think thats wat im gonna do next year too. there was no cake fight this year. i stayed away from kathy when we were eating lol. now today i have alans game to go to never mind it was just canceled. i want to see the fog so bad. but i dont know how and when. i guess i will just wait til it comes out next year. well i wanted to thank everyone for the gifts. and thanks kathy chrissy and jess for comeing over my house sucks i know. and it was not easy sleeping in a small room i know. im sorry for that. i hoped you guys had fun at least. or you can be like the fat hippo. lol jk. see you guys tomorrow. i love you guys very much and i love the gifts very much. and i feel bad that kathy and chrissy spent that much on me. but i do love the gift and i love you guys foeva and fo always. and chrissy happy birthday. lol. and happy birthday to me last year. peace out kay

Luv u better - LL Cool J This is for my number one This is for my number one This is for my number one True baby I adore This is hard to say, I wanna make sure I go about this in the right way Cause lately I been busy alot And I know you don't feel appreciated and what not I use to tell you that your hair look fly Kiss you slow and stare in your eyes Now I talk real foul and slick Every other sentence is you make me sick Back in the days I was your number one pick Now your heart's half broken and that's hard to fix I had to dig deep inside myself Cause I can't see you bouncin with somebody else It's a long journey back to the place we was When I was too embarassed to admit I was in love And you was my good girl that wouldn't give it up I can't let us self destruct, uh uh Baby smile today, cause I've been imagining more ways I'm gonna luv u better And your friends will see it too Just when you think there's nothin else I can do I'm gonna luv u better When I think about the things we did And I think about you havin my kids And I think about us sharin a crib, losing all that God forbid You deserve flowers and candy the simple things In addition to the SL's, baguettes and rings Instead I walk around like I'm a king And havin you ain't nothin but a thing (Only A thing) I even to stop tellin you the lovin was good Too busy frontin in the hood Baby girl, hold me tight don't ever let go I'm a do it real gentle baby nice and slow One more chance baby and don't say no Cause I got another side to show Some say love is painful it helps you grow Well it's time for the pain to go you know Baby smile today, cause I've been imagining more ways I'm gonna luv u better And your friends will see it too Just when you think there's nothin else I can do I'm gonna luv you better Do you think I meant to hurt you? (No) Do you think I meant to hurt you? (No)So let's, laugh together cry together God willing we gon die together Do you think I meant to hurt you? (No) Do you think I meant to hurt you? (No) So let's, laugh together cry together God willing we gon die together It's brand new me, a brand new you A brand new day, sky so blue Hold my hand while I walk with you Sit on my lap let me talk to you No more games callin you foul names Actin like females is all the same I'm gon love you better my mentality changed From this day forward I'll never be the same I'm a rub your lower back, share my dreams I love you let me show you what I mean Give you the deepest love a girl ever seen Watch you sleep so peaceful and serene A toast to the queen your back in my life But this time I'm a do it right Trust me, from the bottom of my heart Nothin's gonna tear us apart I promise Baby smile today, cause I've been imagining more ways I'm gonna luv you better And your friends will see it too Just when you think there's nothin else I can do I'm gonna luv u better Baby smile today, cause I've been on this journey always I'm gonna luv u better And your friends will see it too Just when you think there's nothin else I can do I'm gonna luv u better Do you think I meant to hurt you? (No) Do you think I meant to hurt you? (No) So let's, laugh together cry together God willing we gon die together Do you think I meant to hurt you? (No) Do you think I meant to hurt you? (No) So let's, laugh together cry together God willing we gon die together Love ya foeva and fo always kay

10 FAVORITES Favorite Color: baby blue Favorite Food: cheeseburger Favorite rapper: 2pac Favorite Song: scars – papa roach Favorite Movie: horror Favorite Sport: basketball Favorite Season: summer/ fall Favorite Day Of the Week: Friday Favorite Ice Cream Flavor: cookies n cream Favorite Time of Day: evening 9 CURRENTS Current Mood: calm Current Taste: none Current Clothes: jeans and sweatshirt Current Time: 5:24 pm Current Surroundings: cat?? Current Thoughts: im really confused 8 FIRSTS First Best Friend: Megan from limington First Kiss: Justin Westberry First Screen Name: punk_azz1988 First Pet: probably some cat ?? First Piercing: ears First Crush: I have no idea First Music: classic rock n roll First Car: a 1988 mustang but I was to short for it so we had to sell it 7 LASTS Last Cigarette: like years ago maybe 7 Last Drink: bout a year ago ?? (my dad was there he let me) Last Car Ride: today from the football game Last Kiss: like april (Kathy) Last Time you said I love you and meant it: yesterday Last Phone Call: I called jess yesterday Last CD played: Backstreet boys 6 HAVE YOU EVER Have You Ever Dated One Of Your Best Guy/Girl Friends?: Yes (not good idea) Have You Ever Broken the Law: yes Have You Ever gone Sky diving: no Have You Ever gone Skinny Dipping: no Have You Ever Been on TV: i was on the news before Have You Ever Kissed Someone You Didn't Know: Yes 5 THINGS 1 Thing You're Wearing: pants 1 Thing You've Done Today: I drove 1 Thing You Can Hear Right Now: the hose dad is washing the car 1 Thing You Can't Live Without: my friends and some of my family 1 Thing You Do When You're Bored: man I don’t even know 4 PLACES YOU'VE BEEN TODAY 1. bathroom 2. my house 3.in a car 4. at the Gorham football field 3 PEOPLE THAT YOU LOVE 1. I love more than 3 people. 2. 3. 2 CHOICES 1. black or white: black 2. hot or cold: hot 1 THING YOU WANT TO DO 1. I want everyone to be happy and not hurt

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