This is alot of entry...alot to say, actually im just sayin that, itl prolly be done in like 9 lines, lol. Im thinkin I might get a new pickup in that guitar, prolly a Seymour Duncan, I will prolly use my buddies old pickup (which is awesome) till i can afford the Seymour Duncan, I want somethin with more kahunas with distortion. It is a beautiful guitar and it sounds awesome, I couldnt be happier. This friday Alisha is comin over on the bus with me, which is fuckin awesome :-). I havnt hung with her in like 2 weeks, and i cant this weekend, or the next I think, so she is comin over for a couple hours this friday :-). I couldnt be happier with her either, she is everything I need, and more <3. I love her. I hope everything works, with the way things are going, I dont see why they wouldnt, things are amazing, yet again, shit happens. IDK, ill just hope for the best. On another note, guitars again, brian came over yesterday with his beast and we jammed, wrote some new shit, was awesome, its a fairly decent lil thing too, I like it alot, we each change back and forth between melody and chord progressions, and we each made up our own melodies, then the other person made up the chord progression to follow the melody, flows very well.

So yeah, I got that guitar. It is awesome, amazing tone, the pickups hear everthing, the action is perfect, the frets are just the right size for my large fingers, the Floyd Rose tremolo system works flawlessly with effortless ease. It's a little muddy with distortion, but that can be fixed. Its awesome and couldnt be happier.

Alisha came over again yesterday. We had an AWESOME time, shes amazing. I dont needa get into detail, but damn, I didnt know she was like that...

The title is what I will prolly be getting. I played that purple guitar today, and it is nice, but the white one blew it outta the water. For a hundred dollars more you deff get your moneys worth, the pickups are soo much better, and the neck was deff faster, with larger frets, which is better for me cuz i have large hands. If my next report card is good, i will be gettin this baby...

So Alisha came over, we had an awesome time. Hehe, and we went to the music shop. I dont think im getting that purple guitar, cuz I was lookin at this white one online a while back, and it was there, and I played it, and it is AMAZING. Chances are, that purple one aint guna be any better. guna go test the purple one tomorrow, just to be sure.

Yo im sooo fucking tired. I just got back from weights. It hurts so good. Lol. I am geting alot stronger though which is good. Tomorrow is a half day and Alisha is coming over :-):-):-):-):-):-):-). We are guna hang out for a while and then go over to the music shop to test out a few guitars cuz i needa get one. Heres a pic of the guitar im prolly guna get . cant WAIT, especially to hang with Alisha.

I went to Gore Mountain today for skiing. HOLY SHIT, this place makes greek peak look like my backyard. And it was ALL fresh powder. I nailed the rail, twice, and did some nice jumps. did a few black diamonds, was lookin at a double diamond, till i saw a sign that says "Falls will result in uncontrollable slides", among other shit like that, kind of discouraging. for pic go to www.goremountian.com

So Alisha came over today. I showed her a few things on guitar, shes a good learner, shes gona be better than me. lol. We prolly guna be goin out sooon which just makes my week, and shes prolly comin over again either sunday or monday. Shes really cool, and fuckin wild :-P. Shes awesome.

So I hung wwith krystal after the dentist yesterday and we had a totally bitchin time. We watched Wedding Crashers and 40 Year Old Virgin, made popcorn and cuddled on the couch. Its nice havin a friend i can be that close with w/o any complications. And as a plus Alishas comin over tomorrow which is awesome. I cant wait.

I just about got the solo down for this damn song. Master of Puppets is a fuckin crazy awesome song, listen to it. I just about got this solo, I have just been listenin to it over and over again till I can get it by ear. Awesome song...awesome... "Taste me you will see more is all you need you're dedicated to how I'm killing you Come crawling faster obey your Master your life burns faster obey your Master Master Master of Puppets I'm pulling your strings twisting your mind and smashing your dreams Blinded by me, you can't see a thing Just call my name, `cause I'll hear you scream Master Master Just call my name, `cause I'll hear you scream Master Master" Bitchin song.

So I got my dance tonight, cant wait. Prolly guna chill with my boys chris ryan and bryan and a whole lotta others. I bought a new shirt yesterday. I think I might be goin with this girl jess, idk. lol, who evers there, i always get w/ someone. Anyway, prolly bac to bryans house after.

Well lets see, she started the shit again/ Not knowin what was gonna be happenin/ Blames the shit on me, as she loves/ The guy who made her start, but its cuz/ "When you love someone you do anything"/ Does that include gettin hurt and remembering/ Says I was an excuse to get started again/ An excuse to act fuckin retarded again/ She wonders how it would be if he was still here/ The same guy that made her start/ Its been a year/ I guess i really dont mean shit/ In order too I should prolly slit her wrists/ If he made you do it and hes the world/ Then if i did it myself/ She'd be forever my girl/ I suppose it all makes sense in the eye of the beholder/ So I gave you the cold shoulder/ Just to make me seem colder... Why I am bitchen i dont even know/ I could care less but this anger just fuckin grows/ I mean I got 4 girls who like me so why am i writin?/ Maybe to make this seem a bit more excitin?/ Maybe just to piss her off/ Or just so I dont seem soft?/ Hope you have a nice life and you find someone right/ Who shares the same fucked up views as u do in your blind sight.

Mommy, I am only 8 inches long, but I have all my organs. I love the sound of your voice. Every time I hear it, I wave my arms and legs. The sound of your heart beat is my favorite lullaby. Month Two Mommy, today I learned how to suck my thumb. If you could see me, you could definitely tell that I am a baby. I'm not big enough to survive outside my home though. It is so nice and warm in here. Month Three You know what Mommy, I'm a girl !! I hope that makes you happy. I always want you to be happy. I don't like it when you cry. You sound so sad. It makes me sad too, and I cry with you even though you can't hear me. Month Four Mommy, my hair is starting to grow. It is very short and fine, but I will have a lot of it. I spend a lot of my time exercising. I can turn my head and curl my fingers and toes, and stretch my arms and legs. I am becoming quite good at it too. Month Five You went to the doctor today. Mommy, he lied to you. He said that I'm not a baby. I am a baby Mommy, your baby. I think and feel. Mommy, what's abortion? Month Six I can hear that doctor again. I don't like him. He seems cold and heartless. Something is intruding my home. The doctor called it a needle. Mommy what is it? It burns! Please make him stop! I can't get away from it! Mommy!! HELP me!! No . . . . Month Seven Mommy, I am okay. I am in Jesus's arms. he is holding me. He told me about abortion. Why didn't you want me Mommy? Every Abortion Is Just . . . One more heart that was stopped. Two more eyes that will never see. Two more hands that will never touch. Two more legs that will never run. One more mouth that will never speak.

Kara woke me up at 6:45 to tell me she loves me. Best wake up call ever.

Yeah, so we did one run down an easier trail frist called Castor. We were goin for another called Karyotis Way. Me and Brian share a locker, and our friend whom we went up with doesnt use one, half way up the lift for Karyotis (I was by myself on the lift in front of em), I hear brian yell, "Terry, you did...lock the locker right, with all of our stuff and my iPod in it?" And I said, "ooh shit, no, sorry dude, when we get up here ill shoot down ahead of u, I wont wait and ill lock it!" (they board and I ski, so I gotta wait for them to strap in). Sean yells "Give the money to me, im faster!" I said ok, and Brian (jokeingly) says, "fuck it, im jumpin!" And sean goes, "no I got it!" And lifts the bar and jumps, all of his weight goes on one leg, which gave out at the knee, tried to use his hand to catch himself, didnt work, then his head bounced off the ice (yeah ice, warm during the day so it melted, then it froze to ice later). He broke his wrist, and the lift next to us, is COVERED with ski patroll, it was like a platoon of ski patrol. And at first me and brian were like "shit, is he ok?!?", and about 2 minutes later, i look at him we like, simultaniously broke out in laughter. So I got the bottom, went to the first aid center (i ran, and running in ski boots is no easy task), told the people what I know. He left to go home early, and me and brian had a fuckin AWESOME rest of the day.

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I just woke up and i am extremely tired. I need to go eat but there is nothing, and I got hardly any sleep last night, which really blows. I think I might skip spanish today so I can get in the band room and play some guitar...idk.

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It seems anytime everyone even tries to talk to me anymore all they end up doing is yelling at me and telling me all the things that are wrong with me. I swear im not emo, they need to be killed, but i hate the way people are sometimes. I always end up feeling like im not good enough and like theres some kind of a void in myself as i try to make ends meet for the ones that i love. I love talkin to people but I always end up gettin a little irritated which in turn maybe i said somethin and from there on out all i hear is someone yelling at me, i mean there is times when i feel i dont belong, when i feel i shouldnt even try. I love her, I really really do, but there is sometimes when I feel like I dont matter. I constantly feel that sinking feeling like im gunna cry but I know I CANT because I have to be strong and I cant fall or fold. But I constantly feel like letting go...

I know no one knows what im speaking of, but I wish she knew how truly sorry I am. I never meant to cause problems, I love you Kara. I know I can never meet your friends or anyone cuz they all hate me now, but I dont care, as long as you dont hate me. As long as you forgive me. imsosorry. :-(