*3 more days* !!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sooo the beach has gotten better, although I have semi-funny tan lines...at least clothes can cover them. Got Kristen's grad party this Sat. then the 24th goin to Maryland with my dad and that whole side of the family.... so yea... i miss my babe... n my boo boo ... n asha roo... n momma(ash) n *moo*

SOOOOOOOO I'm at the beach right now, and happy that I have wireless, cuz this shit sucks ass... I have pretty much no ass but since everyone else but me has one it is impossible for me to find a suit that covers it... idk how to totally explain it other than i could fuckin cry I'm so pissed nothign fits over the ass... like im not fat im fuckin 5'11" and 140... like cmon now... im athletic too.. so y can't I get an ass damnit.... arg... so instead of enjoying this *vacation* im pissed off because i can't go on the beach and enjoy looking good. christ n the day isn't even over.... At least I can look forward to seein Alex in 6 more.....

Sooo my last entry didn't appear... so kinda pissed about that... not much but I'm goin on vaca. this 10-17th then the 24th-2nd... so sweet... then alex is comign up the weekend of the 16th... : ) work..... arg... let's just say I gurss it could only be a tiny bit worse. Me n Alex are goin pretty damn good... bass playin still a lil slow... I hate bathing suit shopping....either I don't like anything or it's not in my size. bleh

I GOT MY BASS !!!!! It's sooo pretty and I love it...and I'm not too shabby either. Work has gotten better, and workin with Manda is cool. I need a fuckin paycheck like whoa. Next weekend I'm hoping to go to Syracuse to see Ash after her surgery.... sucks cuz she has it on monday and I can't get off until then. I might stop by Cuba and see Alex.... I miss him soooo much.

First work of day. It was good 2 be back since i like everyone there. Sucked cuz the new registers are absolutly retarded. YaY tomorrow I'm going to order my bass and going to see An American Hunting with Brock n C2.

Back to work tomorrow morning... arg... well 4 weeks til vacation....then the beach for 2 weeks : ) 106 days til back at school with my love. I hope he gets off at least one of those weeks or even a few days to go to the beach with me. Soooo mostly money for my b-day, which is completly fine by me, ppl never pick out the right clothes or gifts. Got a new cell.... it's sooo cute, and I saw my friends in the mall the other day so being back isn't so bad nemore.... just my mom's terrible cooking and nagging are still here.

Tests went grrreat !!!!! And today's my b-day !!!!! but it sucks cuz I'm leaving all my friends and alex : ( .... at least since I'm not transferring I can still see them in 75 days... pathetic how there is a countdown already. But I liked my gifts n cake and being home. It sucks cuz most of my friends from home are a year younger...so they're in h.s. still. and when they party it's stupid shit where their parents but a few drinks and are there...there are no clubs or bars or shit i can go to with them cuz they have no id's... and home sucks for that stuff too. Well at least work sounds exciting now... Getting my bass soon : ) .....

Last weekend at college before we all go home : ( .... I have a final monday and tiesday and an optional one on friday... which I obviously won't take. Last night alex and ash slept over and we watched the sound of music and the little mermaid. *classics* .... so me and alex are together at least... great right before summer, excpet he doesn't live too far away. the 15th I start work again... total shit. the 12th is my b-day !!!! YaY

FREDFEST DAY !!!!!!!! it was ok...bands weren't too good. sooo pissed though, ppl did bad at the track meet... but then again i have too, so maybe it's just the weather shit. rufus wainwright.... def. not impressed by him at all... so gettin ready to go out... best be a good night.

FREDFEST !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Total drunkness all effing weekend. People are being so ridiclously funny, haha and I will be later tonight. I hate it cuz my friend drove drunk last night... like way to be an asshole. and I hate how underage ppl get beer and stuff so easy.... but since I drink I can't really complain... so eff it

Decided to skip SUNYAC meet this Sat. I'll be hangin with the most gorgeous guy ever !A!L!E!X! It sucks I'm transfering... I hate the person who told him cuz now there can't be an us... which is kinda ok cuz we can still have a lil *fun*

Thing's are going pretty well, although I've been bombarded with h.w.. Still don't know if I'd rather go to mytrack SUNYAC meet or Fredfest. Fredfest would be alot more fun, but then coach will be prob.be mad and the team might be upset..... I dunno. It's not that bad b/c I won't be here next year anyway. But it would look good for the Plattsburgh coach, but if I do bad then I'll look like an idiot. I'm REALLY terrible about making decisions.

May 12th has now become my favorite day. Other than it being my birthday, it's my last day with tests.... then SUMMER !!!! Soooo I'm going to the beach for two weeks, and the rest of the time I'll be missing the glorious weather to be in the awesome eckerds....ohhh joy. So I got accapted to Plattsburgh. I dunno if I wanna transfer. They have my major and I can go right into their master's program. Here I have all my friends, and track buds, and even my track coach wants me to stay... I can't even do a pos. Neg. chart b/c all the positives of Plattsburgh I'm unsure if I will like, and here I know I like them.... so bleh.... massive amounts of h.w. this weekend and another track meet to suck at and get burnt. Suntan lotion does not work anymore. Everything is made so much cheaper now. I think I shall watch the sound of music. : )

So if you wanna say something stupid as a comment, then you should expect me to say something back. If you don't like what I write then eat me. Anyways....track meet the other day was a lil shitty, but idc cuz there's only 4 more weeks of school. Even though I had to stay up here for Easter break, hangin out with Alex was pretty chill, and my mom sent me up candy.

Yup that is about the greatest title ever. Very fitting because today my hall had a meeting randomly in the bathroom....I was at my track meet though. I guess the bathroom was all smelly and dirty n shit....so super to that. At the meet the girls bathroom smelled like boiling hot shit. It's like how the fuck can girls be so nasty. It's only lately that I've noticed it too. Cripe I wanna see if the guys are getting better or if they are sneakin into ours or something lol. So I'm embarassed as fuck to say this, but I didn't even place today.... alot of field people did shitty. Runners were okay but overall still a shitty mofo meet. My face is burnt as hell, my ice cream ate while I had my dinner....arggg.... Hopeing going out on Thursday with Alex isn't a total fuckin bust either. HaHa so I like the comments I got the other day.... i look at one sight and it's like anchorman things on it... totally fuckin love that movie... y myspace has lil mermaid on it now. That was def the best disney movie so go to hell if you don't agree : ) .... but the best looking was Jasmine.... I want more girl scout cookies... samoas are my true love. Peace out cub scout

Well this is depressing... no comments or friends. Oh well...not really here for friends... I hate most ppl anyways... and don't care how other's feel on my writings...although I do like them.... that's like a bi-polar answer or something. So it sucks... easter break is four days long but one day i have classes n then i'd be traveling all day back for the last one... So I'm stuck here on campus... everyone is going home...majorly shitty. Finally deciding to go to track practice tomorrow. Need practice for the meet on Sun. major needing of bio paper to be done.

Today has gone by pretty good so far. I really don't wanna read my chem. book, and do my chem lab. I hope I get into Plattsburg, I mean I'll miss my Fredonia ppl, but I can't be a bio major here...too many shitty classes I'd have to take. God I'm on like the 5 year plan. : ( I feel stupid now lol. So YaY the track meet is moved from Sat. to Sun. so when Dan comes to look at my college I can chill with him for a bit. w/e.... I feel college is such a damn waste....I really think they don't need all the money they got from our tuition. Rich ass pricks. Oh, well imagine; as I'm pacing the pews in a church corridor, and I can't help but to hear, no I can't help but to hear an exchanging of words: "What a beautiful wedding, what a beautiful wedding!" says a bridesmaid to a waiter. "Yes, but what a shame, what a shame, the poor groom's bride is a whore." I'd chime in with a "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!" No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality. I'd chime in "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!" No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of... Well in fact I'll look at it this way, I mean technically our marriage is saved! Well this calls for a toast, so pour the champagne! Oh! Well in fact I'll look at it this way, I mean technically our marriage is saved! Well this calls for a toast, so pour the champagne, pour the champagne! - part of I Write Sins not Tragedies, by Panic at the disco. It has a catchy beat. :^)

So basically I made this to rant about the shitty everyday events in my life. I had a xanga for the longest time but for some reason my jackass sister gave him the link, so I deleted it.....very upset about that too. But I'm also a myspace addict. www.myspace.com/mother_tucker ..... anyway... questions? ask em.