Yesterday after babysitting I went to my moms house and Dustin was already there (cause my mom picked him up) and then me went to go and get kali and brooke at my grandma's house and then we went to the beach. I had a lot of fun. I didn't want to get out of the water cause I didn't want to get sandy but you know what? I enjoyed it cause I sat there and the sun dryed me off. And Dustin and I just layed out in the sun and I enjoyed that. Nexted time I will get out earlier so I can lay out in the sun. I also can get a tan and tan my legs. COOL. lol So when I got to my moms house Dustin and I ate supper and then went in my room. So we had sex...without a condum...and now...well I really dont know now. All I can do is hope for the best. Ok so I wake up crying. I first thing that came to my mind was last night. I'm really scared Dustin. I want it to be nexted week so we know for sure. Last night was a lot of fun but I'm scared. Last night I couldn't sleep. It must have been a dream I had that made me cry but I wonder what the dream was, cause I can't remember. Whatever happens I will always love you Dustin!!! Don't forgete that baby. One thing that I feel a little better about is that Dustin was talking to his friend lastnight and then his friend said we sould be ok cause he let some go in his girlfriend 8 times last summer (i was like holy shit kid) but anyway it made me feel better cause she never got pregnet...he is lucky but she was on the pill and I'm on birth control too so...I don't know. I'm going to go now. I Love You so much baby!!! ~Cassandra