whats the point when someone says something that they dont even mean. and you know they dont mean it. and they know that you already know that they dont mean it. but they say it anyway. like that fucking means something. like their trying to give you hope. but you already know that their just going to drag you down again. i dont get it. i dont get a lot of things anymore. whats the fucking point to any of this? most of the people that i care about already hate me anyway. i cant keep doing this. theres only so much a person can take and go through before they just stop caring. i dont even know why i still try. its pointless. i will always disappoint everybody. always. how quickly, i forget. that this is meaningless.