Ello all! How's it goin..boy do I have an update..however I don't really feel like writing about it..therefore instead I'm going to write about my worries.. So apparently all of my friends are loosing their virginities.. Lynda lost it last year..right before she turned 17.. Jami lost it even before her..she was with her boyfriend for five months when she did.. edit:(she lost it when she was 17, she still is) Natalie lost it on Thursday..however I'm not suppose to know about her..She definitely wasn't ready for it.. edit:(she's 17, and she's only known her boyfriend for 5 months) Jami made me pinky swear not to say anything to anyone..so I'm writing here..it's hard not to..it's so shocking. I forget who else has.. anyways..each one I mentioned above said they were going to wait until they were married..Lynda then said she wasn't sure..and stopped saying she was going to wait..Jami continuously would say it, but the way she would talk about things, made me think she was..Natalie said she was waiting, cuz she was raised that way..to wait till she was married..But with all them I wanted to give them the benifit of the doubt..Jami and Lynda were definitely ready when they did it, and in "love" Natalie not so much..I don't think she's in love yet..her relationship with him..isn't mature..it's still very juevenile..they're like children, ya know? Natalie is a very sexual person as it is..so when she first told me she was waiting till marriage...I couldn't believe her..I was surprised..but she was determined.. anyways..for Natalie..I heard she seems like she regrets it..it was two hours of foreplay and five minutes of sex..lol..I laughed my ass off..so did Jared when Jami told him..I can't blame him..but Natalie said it didn't hurt it, in fact it felt good..Jami says it hurt the first four times, Lynda says it didn't hurt her..Lynda also went at it for about two hours or so with her boyfriend..Jami cried at the end, cuz her boyfriend told her he loved her.. now my worries.. See, my plans have always been to remain a virgin until marriage..however all of my friends are loosing theirs..I'm thinkin it's gonna be difficult lol..fortunately I have not been faced with temptation, and I pray that I don't have to deal with it..but it's bound to happen.. I'm very determined..and strong willed, which is why I know I can...I know I will be able to do it..it's just..I don't know..I'm scared.. I am gonna get through it though..I will remain a virgin until after marriage..actually I'm going to remain pure until after marriage..only kissing..tis all I will do.. Luckily I have not had to deal with the temptation at a young age..and I've had time to think about it..about certain situations..and such..how to avoid it ecetera.. I will be fine..