My third problem is the temptation of college. I am tempted to remove the idea I have had all my life that I will never have a girlfriend or wife, because I have always believe that they are a waste of money. I am not a homosexual, which I am not condoning either. I would like to clarify myself. When I say that they are too much money, I mean that the social customaries are not worth the outcome I get. I am seeing that friendship is more than just keeping your money. It is what the companion can get out of you. It may be different for you, but I think we al get some benefit when we are around someone else. Do the benefits of love and companionship out weigh the pain of inner reflection that I get when one get in love? Thank you.