Right in this moment I am completely happy and content with everything in my life. School is going good, Um not failing, my parents aren't to upset at the fact that I haven't been home for 4 days, my sister is happy in new york and-well, i havent had to much time for my friends, but they can understand, my boyfriend is my best friend and my match. Not tring to be arrogant, but I think that my life rocks!!! On the other hand theres nothing to really update because nothing really exciting has happened to me in the last couple weeks except for the fact that its the same old bullshit, just a different day. Peace.

Definatley not feeling the way that I should be feeling. I'm really not sure whats wrong, I woke up today and felt nervous and as the day went on I felt more and more nervous, I know about things that are going on in school, so nothing is a surprise there, this whole grounded thing sucks, after being asked by my parents to move out we now have a different relationship. School is starting to get stressfull and the whole boyfriend thing is great execpt for our occational fights. Mateo told me that it could just be my anxeity, but I'm not sure why I would have it though. I don't know, maybe the world is feeling like this, because it seems as though everyone is getting farther and farther away from their sanity. But on the other hand it could just be me going crazy.

Last night was such a freakin trip. Went to a rave with Mateo and a bunch of his friends, meet so many awesome people its hard to describe them all and to be honest with you I'm not gonna take the time. It was my first time doing e, it was amazing by the way, if you get the chance you should do it, only if you have someone responsible enough to take care of you, like I had, if not for Mateo I would probally be really sick right now. So props to Mateo. Now I definately understand why kids who are on e do the stuff that they do, because it is so euphoric and amazing and it was. It was like I had energy up the wazzuo and that music is awesome to dance to. Pretty sure I was dancing non-stop for like 4 hours, until I came down and started to be a bitch, but then it happened all over again for like hours. It was awesome. To Mateo's friends- thanks for putting up with me until I started rolling. After that it was all love. You all are fabolous(need I say more?). Needless to say, the night ended badly with the fucking police again, thinking Mateo was a dealer, morons, harassing bullshit.

Was coming home before curfew, get pulled over 10 mintues from home for the light on the back lisence plate being burnt out. Fucking police gave me a beathalizer test "just to make sure" I was ok to drive. He was fucking white and called himself the fucking po-po. I hate police and their arrigance.

Well, after the first week in college, i must say that i'm pretty tired of school already. I'm really excited for my communitions class to start on monday and well, I'm just starting to get used to the whole college thing and I must say that I'm really enjoying it ALOT. I guess I'll update later when I have time and not trying to do homework at the same time.

Not really sure why I write in this thing anymore, but I guess you could say that I'm bored out of my mind and my head hurts from last night. Its not a smart thing to go drinking with people you bearly know or only have meet through others, whatever, dose it all really matter right now, because to me it dosen't matter at all. I feel like my life is changing and turning around. Reconsidering things and decisions that I should have made a long time ago. But I can't do anything about it now because I just wish that I could get out of here and move somewhere else for good. I really have a feeling of not caring about anything anymore, exspecially about what my friends are doing and not doing because I don't see them as keeping in touch with me and vise versa, but thats all in good company so who cares, right? But not just to bash on them, I'm doing the exact same thing, not taking the time to call or hang out because I knew that this would happen but I did nothing to stop it. I figue that in life we are going to keep in touch with the people that we really want to, and if you don't want to what's the point? People grow up, they change, its not a bad thing, its just a change of atmosphere and surroundings. People move on and take away good times and some not so good times, but I can't say that they didn't affect me in anyway. If you only stay at one point in your life, your not letting yourself grow and experience life in the way that you would want.

Needless to say, I'm adored. Been out of the loop with my friends. Been working my ass off. Excited for school to start. My best friend is starting to scare me. My mind is going a mile a minute. Expenses are becoming to expensive. Make what you want of this because I don't care.

not sure what this entry is for, i decided that since i haven't written in a while i might want to update, but i have forgotten why i have one of these things because i don't ever go on the computer to write. On the other hand i don't have anything to update because i' being lazy this whole summer and haven't done anything.School starts in like i don't know, 2 weeks or something and to be honest the fact that i'm not in high school anymore hasn't hit me yet.

Hey just thought i'd say hi to everyone and anyone who wants to read this, have an awesome day and, peace I'm out.

Well hello to anyone back home that might not have known, I have been in kansas for the past two weeks and have been having a wonderful time. My friends just had a baby girl so i was helping her out with the new addition to the family. I have been playing and shopping and eating like crazy. Im coming home tomorrow afternoon and i must say that I'm excited because I miss you guys and my family. To caylin, sorry i missed your party I'm sure you had a -wonderful- time at the club and you know that you and me will def. go sometime!!!! My sister came home unexpectedly sunday which was a surprise to me because my family didn't tell me until yesterday night!!! Lets just say that she's fine to the best of my knowledge, but on the other hand my mom didn't tell me much over the phone. I'm meeting new people and visiting with old friends and family that I haven't seen in a long time, but to tell you the truth I'm ready to come home and DRIVE again!!!!I miss my car and everyone back home. Sees yall later, until tomorrow, I'm out. -Nikki

yeah well, let me just tell you that your supposed to be tan after a trip to cali? Well i'm just the opposite. I am beat red and i have the worse headache in the world. My face hurts like no other!! Now i have to heal before i'm off again to visit family in kansas and i guess just live in the moment. Thats all for now, until later, peace.

What Icons are for you? by ladyallieUsernameFavourite ColourSexMaleFemaleYES PLEASE!UndecidedBothNeitherYour Love icon is...Your Sad Icon is...Your Happy Icon is...Your Angry Icon is...Your Food Icon is...Your Animal Icon is...Your Random Icon is...Your Cartoon Icon is...Your Sexy Icon is...Quiz created with MemeGen!

You Know You're From Arizona When... You've signed so many petitions to recall governors you can't remember the name of the incumbent. You notice your car overheating before you drive it. You no longer associate bridges or rivers with water. You know a swamp cooler is not a happy hour drink. You can hear the weather forecast of 115 degrees without flinching. You can be in the snow, then drive for an hour...and it will be over 100 degrees. You discover, in July it only takes two fingers to drive your car, because your steering wheel is so hot. You can make sun tea instantly. You run your a/c in the middle of winter so you can use your fireplace. The best parking is determined by shade.....not distance. You realize that "Valley Fever" isn't a disco dance. Hotter water comes from the cold water tap than the hot one. It's noon in July, kids are on summer vacation and yet all the streets are totally empty of both cars and people. You actually burn your hand opening the car door. Sunscreen is sold year round, kept right at the checkout counter. You put on fresh sunscreen just to go check the mail box. Some fools will market mini-misters for joggers and some other fools will actually buy them. Worse.....some fools actually try to jog. You know hot air balloons can't rise because the air temperature is hotter than the air inside the balloon. No one would dream of putting vinyl inside a car. You see two trees fighting over a dog. You can say "Hohokam" and people don't think you're laughing funny You see more irrigation water on the street than there is in the Salt River You have to go to a fake beach for some fake waves You can pronounce"Saguaro", "Tempe", "San Xavier", "Canyon de Chelly", "Mogollon Rim", and "Cholla" You can understand the reason for a town named "Why" You can fry an egg on the hood of a car IN THE MORNING! You hear people say "but it's a DRY heat!" You buy salsa by the gallon. Your Christmas decorations include sand and l00 paper bags. You think a red light is merely a suggestion. All of your out-of-state friends start to visit after October but clear out come the end of April. You think someone driving wearing oven mitts is clever. Most of the restaurants in town have the first name "El" or "Los." You think 60 tons of crushed red rock makes a beautiful yard. Your house is made of stucco and has a red clay tile roof. Vehicles with open windows have the right-of-way in the summer. Most homes have more firearms than people. Kids will ask, "What's a mosquito?" People who have black cars or black upholstery in their car are automatically assumed to be from out of-state or nuts. You know better than to get into a car with leather seats if you're wearing shorts. If you haven't worked for Motorola at some time, you must be a newcomer. You can finish a Big Gulp in 10 minutes and go back for seconds. You actually get these jokes and pass them on to other friends from Arizona.

Well let me put it to you this way, my life was threatened last night and now I have a new perspetive. I find it hilarous to think that after a break up two people try to break each other apart, try to hurt each other and try to hurt themselfs in a pathic attempt to get the other back. But what can you do when you dont know that your sig. other is a Physco? Well just see how long it takes him to realize that I could care less if he kills himself or not. -nikki

97977754767676757755___ ________66868686849840327946___ _______________575654&_________ _______________7634566_________ _______________5643565_________ _______________7645487_________ _______________4863133_________ _______________4689461_________ _______________8745879_________ ________56556789567893789378___ ________46387354561816181318___ ________56867893758765987689___ _______________________________ _______________________________ _______________________________ ___1722545325981_______________ _2125445335332588______________ 741353322222221388_____________ 4523322222222211246_____________ 03233222222222221111222223499____ 6412222222222222233555555532508___ 29122222222222222222333332332188__ _83122222222222222222222222217288_ _6911222222222222222222222221__485 __831122222222222222222222227__388 __58212222222222222222222211___088 ___80172222222222222222227____888_ ____867222222222222221______0888__ ____18512222222211_______488886___ _____887777__________68888887___ ______88________508888888______ _______85488888888885_________ ________88888887______________ ______________________________ ______________________________ ______________________________ ___56546_____________78768____ ___67887_____________67678____ ___68699_____________89899____ ___68787_____________74486____ ___46786_____________87766____ ___78641_____________87545____ ___54584_____________48672____ ____7978_____________4664_____ ____7899_____________7456_____ _____789_____________890______ ______90_____________78_______ _______90___________90________ ________907_______799_________ __________809___899___________ ____________89004_____________

Well to make a long story short, I love my new puppy and she loves me back. And I have so much fun with her, but on the other hand I think shes a kleepto, anything she sees that could possibally be in her range she steals and runs into the living room and starts to tear it apart. Lets just say that I have lost my fav. pair of flip flops. I must say that last night me amber and jaz went out and needless to say we didn't have much luck. We tried to get into a club but Jaz lost her freakin id so, in a desperate attempt to get inside she almost had to show the bouncer a picture of us at graduation proving that she was 18, and one more funny part to the story, he said no because she could have been a dougie houser and like 12 years old!!! After that ordeal we drove around looking for something to do, we also failed at that to. And to make matters worse, I hate scottsdale becasue theres NOTHING to do, you have to drive all the way the freaking phx to have some fun, it sucks. BUt other than that summers cool, im starting to not like working and honestly i cant wait to go to college!! YAY!!!, ok peace out kiddos talk to you later!!! -nikki

Well i've been having a very interesting week to say the least, I could actually go through the days and osmething totally random has happened, and it I know that one thing the happened this week will be very shocking. So here we go: monday- randomly went to the movies with steve to hang out before he back up to Flag. tuesday- broke up with David.(Shocker?) wesenday- first day ack at work since getting home from cali. thrusday- went to the humane society to look for dogs. friday- went back to the humane society to pick upa dog we wanted, and totally got bitched out by one of the workers.(happy much?) today- took my sister to the airport so she could go home to ny. Almost had to go to the hosptial b/c my mom thought that a cyst might of rupsured in my,well,you know where. And i must say that I have my reasons for what happened on tuesday night, and my mom is a witness to how scared, annoyed, pissed and anything else that goes along with a breakup. But you know what I took alot of shit from him and I actually did something for myself for once, and with my new puppy i'm much happier and I haven't thought about it since and I honestly think that I'm better off. But i shall update later, and fill you in on what is going on. Byes!! -Nikki

well sorry guys I havent had time to update in the pst couple of weeks, and if you want to know what ive been up to, well, its been a lot! Im thankful that high school is over and that me and all of us have graduated and are done with that crap school! Congrats to all and to all a good night! Um, project grad was good, I sat next to some kid that Ive never met before on the bus there and he was pretty cool, we talked and had a very nice conversation with each other, and needless to say, I made a new friend who I won't see propbally ever again, but what ev. it was fun. After that adventure was over I got home Thursday at about 6am and crashed until about 9am and then I had to pack and leave for a family vaca in California and we got back sunburned and blonde on monday night and ever since then ive been hanging out at home and i think that my mom is planning a little graduation BBQ on sunday, so if ane1 wants to come, go for it, 6/5 @4 0r 4:30 @ my house. If u need more info just give me a call!Peace out yll I gtg!

SO today in humanities we got out research papers back and to my surprise, I got either a B+ or A- im not sure on the whole grading thing, but anyways im happy either way, im gonna pass and graduate, because that was the only class that I actually cared about passing, which by the way we graduate NEXT WEEK!!!!! Holy crap, were all gonna be out of high school and this whole drama will be over and we all can rejoice. Im freakin bored out of my mind because I just was sitting in the freakin auto service building for like 3 hours waiting for 4 stupid(but important) bolts to be screwed onto the tire so I could drive it home. I just watched 3 hours of COPS and COURT TV, I WANT TO SHOOT MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!! Thursday is mine and David's 6 month ann. and I was contemplating getting professional pictures done, cause he's been hinting at them for a long time, I just hope that he didn't think of it first. But whatev. Im gonna go and try to find out some more information and be a sniky little devil. BYe peace and love. -Nikki

Now is my one and only time to update you all on whats gonin on in my mind and school and all that other crap that your supposed to put in this thing. Let me start from the begining: May 7: Prom in the Arizona Club at the Bank One building in PHX. SO fun, me and David had a good time with each other and surprisingly enough, all of our pictures together turned out awesome, along with others at dinner/prom/after party/Denny's. So all in all it was really fun night.Awesome and congrats to Scotty for winning Prom KING, you looked hot in your crown!!!! May 10: We got our yearbooks and to be honest, that really made me feel like the year was over and all different memories from the past 3 years came back, and now I'm kinda rejoicing the fact that its almost over and I;m so excited, nervous, sad, happy, propbally every emotion that you can think of. May 12: Senior breakfeast, lots of fun, lots of memories, lots of tears(at least at my end), the only thing that bugged me was when they played the slideshow and it was like the same 6 or 7 people(I'm not to fond of them in teh least bit). Lots of suveniours and pictures and memories and well if you were there, you know of our table and our loudness, and the ironic thing was that we were sitting next to the principal and Michelle and teachers and that was a good time. After starbucks and some bonding with the girls and after starbucks home, sleep and then work. May 13: Friday the 13th!!!!!!! Yeah, fun movie with Caylin, Amber and Adam. We saw Monster-n-law, and let me tell you, it was freakin amazing, funny and a really good movie. After the movie we went to YC's and had some yummy Mongolian grill. We saw Kaylee and Adam and we talked, it was fun and exciting. I love our little adventures and our precious memories. All right I think I'm done for tonight, talk to you all later, see you at school and if you forget,GRADUATION IS ONLY 12 DAYS AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!! BYE, PEACE, Nikki