Not really sure why I write in this thing anymore, but I guess you could say that I'm bored out of my mind and my head hurts from last night. Its not a smart thing to go drinking with people you bearly know or only have meet through others, whatever, dose it all really matter right now, because to me it dosen't matter at all. I feel like my life is changing and turning around. Reconsidering things and decisions that I should have made a long time ago. But I can't do anything about it now because I just wish that I could get out of here and move somewhere else for good. I really have a feeling of not caring about anything anymore, exspecially about what my friends are doing and not doing because I don't see them as keeping in touch with me and vise versa, but thats all in good company so who cares, right? But not just to bash on them, I'm doing the exact same thing, not taking the time to call or hang out because I knew that this would happen but I did nothing to stop it. I figue that in life we are going to keep in touch with the people that we really want to, and if you don't want to what's the point? People grow up, they change, its not a bad thing, its just a change of atmosphere and surroundings. People move on and take away good times and some not so good times, but I can't say that they didn't affect me in anyway. If you only stay at one point in your life, your not letting yourself grow and experience life in the way that you would want.