new diary xxxlaurenxxx comment me on there if you want to be on my friends list. to the moon and back, Lauren

alright well i have to go to this family christams thing today and that should be fun cause me and lex always have the GREATEST times EVER. ehh yea so im kinda happy about that. but i get out of the shower this morning and cody and mike h. are in my dining room oLo, so we hung out for a while and played with star wars glowyy stick things tampons and snowballs yea it was fun. lex see you in a lil bit best friendy i love you corey.

ok well tonight and this morning were pretty fun i guess. i went to royce's and stayed there til two in the morning then i made my dad bring me home so now im here by myself. but it was pretty fun at royces. me chris joey mike cody christmas dustin dillan jesse and travis were all there and just hanging out and they were all attempting to play their instruments. oLo. but then joey and dustin left so we all went outside to play in the snow cept for royce jesse and dillon. and everyone there was bigger than me so they all (especially mike) kept putting me in the snow it was extremely cold. and mean. and then we went inside and travis left. then we basically just hung out more. it was quite fun. lex, what are the plans? oLo best friendy. mike Love you corey i love you more than you could EVER imagine

ok well last night cody and royce came over to work on royce's geogrpahy project (which we barely even started even though it was due two days ago). yea so we all just hung out all night so it was pretty fun. and cody got me this kickass necklace for christmas (aww how sweet of him =) )its so sexy. oLo. and today royce come over so i could help him with his english essay which is due tomorrow and damn... the kid has got a.d.d so that was just great... oLo so yea it was quite interesting. LexBestFriendy.LoveYou i Love You Corey

last night i went to alexis's band concert which was pretty fun. i saw a few people that i havent seen in a loooooooooooong time. and i got to see evan with his head shaved. oLo. anyways... today was ohkay. and tonight i might be going ot royce's but i dont know... i made a new diary xxxlaurenxxx its friends only though and ill still be using this one just not very much. and if youd like to be able to read the new one just ask and ill add. iLoveYouCorey

ok well most of this weekend sucked. but saturday night me chris courtney and cody went to my grandmothers house and they all got high. and cody is a really extremely big dummass when hes high. and then me chris and courtney went to courtneys house and stayed there and today was great... i dont know why but it was. iLoveYouCorey.

ok well tonight my "dad" dropped me and chris and jesse off at royce's and "dad" and royce's mom left. so me royce cody chris and kane hung out all night. it was ohkay but i was sick so that kinda sucked. it snowed a lot and then it rained or somehting so no school tomorrow. i love you corey Lauren ♥

well today was alright and tonight was.. gay. there was band practice again tonight and it was gay. corey was there.... but besides that it was gay. yea so basically it was all just gay. iLoveYouCorey.AndAlexis.AndKerstian. Lauren ♥

today was ohkay. and last night was pretty fun. i went to royce's and hung out with royce chris and cody. so yea... and i think im going out with corey. but i dont know oLo. im just cool like that Lauren

well friday we had no school so i spent the night at alexis's and ker's which was fun. but today was ohkay. and tonight sucked badly. my grandmother took us to see The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe and on the way there i started feeling very bad. then it just got worser. then we got home and now i am extremely sick and i have been throwing up since i got here. its completely horrible. Lauren

band concert was today. oh yay. it sucked .but alexis came and me lex and courtney sat during the chorus part laughing our asses off cause alexis was humming the words to this song she knew extremely loud. and then she ate handwipes. oLo well thats IT! Lauren ♥

well yesterday when i laughed for an hour over nothing and until today i didnt cry for three days straight i thought i was getting better and not feeling so bad all the time but today.. sucked a lot and i flipped out on a lot of people. i was fine when i went downtown to hang out with royce and cody but the second i came back and started talking to people they were all talking about how i should go out with mike cause hes so depressed. and it just pisses me off cause HE broke up with me and HE broke all the promises and HE fucked it up, but yea some of it was my fault. none of them get that i just dont want to! i dont even know why they care so much. its MY life they need to get one of their own cause it just makes mine worse. and i dont even feel anything anymore. no emotion for anyone. its like im numb. and it hurts a lot and its soo fucked up. and even when people are trying to help, which is usually only corey, i never talk to them about it and just do nothing about everything. i tried sleeping tonight. but i couldnt because i couldnt stop crying and thinking about all the stuff that makes me so... empty. and people are so annoying. i cant stand them anymore always asking me why i wont go out with mike or why im so upset, its terrible and i cant stand it! i need to get away from everyone. all they do is piss me off. AND ID BE HAPPY IF MOST OF THEM WOULD JUST LEAVE ME ALONE.

ok well me and alexis are BestFriends again which is a plus. corey asked me out, which is a plus. and i hate myself a lot because of mike (and i dont know why) which is not a plus. ok well i know i miss mike. but i just dont want to go back out with him and im not shure why. ive thought about it a lot but i just cant go out with him... its just... fucked up. and corey asked me out but we're going to wait a while first. and im terribly happy that me and alexis are good again i missed her and thats it i guess. Lauren

i can not fucking stand my "father" anymore! hes such a fucking Loser i dont think ive ever hated anyone more than i hate him and i havent seen my mom in weeks they both need to get lives, fucking alcoholics! ahh! i fucking HATE them i need to get away from this place before i go insane.

ok well i guess my weekend was okay... thanksgiving sucked cause i hate my parents. but then thursday night cody came and got me and chris then friday we went to the mall and that was fun and then saturday i dont remember what we did then i come home saturday night. sunday night i went ot the movies with my grandmother sister and brothers and it was boring as hell. then i came home monday. so yea it wasnt all that great. today was ohkay. cept for the fact that my parents are alcoholics and i hate them both. well curzon asked me out today... but i want to stay single for a while so i think im just going to tell him that. i Love you Courtney! Lauren

ok well i went to ker's on thursday and came back today. it was pretty fun Lauren

mike broke up with me and everything sucks i hate my life and i wish i was dead Lauren

well i guess its been a lil bit since the last time i wrote but im at my moms now so i guess thats a good thing well last weekend i went to see saw 2 with my grandma and then this weekend on friday i spent the night at smas and we went to seee saw 2. then lexi's mom picked me up from sams and we went to vestal for dinner and to see saw 2. oLo... so yea i hate that movie it sucks then on sunday kertsians boyfriend ricky came over and he peirced his own eyebrow! it was kinda gross but then he needed a ring for it so he used my belly button ring and i used one of kerstians belly button rings for me oLo. and then cody took me home and alexis came with us and mike was there and he was being really mean to alexis and she had somthing she wanted to talk to me about so we ditched everyone and went some place but i dont know i think mike is mad at me for "somehting" and tonight i was spose to go to practice with "the band" but i didnt go cause they told me to go to my moms and theyd pick me up there so i did and then they went to my dads to pick me up so yea,,, i spent most of the night at my grandmas and curzon called me there so we talked for like two hours oLo it was fun and thats it for now Lauren

tonight kicked ass. corey and royce came over after school when i was at my moms and they aksed me to come to their band practice so we went over to royces and then treg drove us over to chris's. well the band teacher person wasnt home so they couldnt practice so me, corey corey p., chris o., cody, royce, aron, and emily all hung out and did stupid stuff it was reallly fun and now im on the pyhone with cody and hes boring so im out mike ♥ Lauren

i went to ker's and lexi's this weekend for kerstians birthday party on friday we went to the football game and i hung out with alexis and some of my towanda people it was super then on saturday me courtney and alexis went to the skate park and zack came up and we skated for a lil bit then we went back because it was time for kers party. it was pretty boring so me and courtney walked down to the dandy and got these pretzel things and went back up to the house and threw them at cars =P then we walked down and a cop stopped us and asked if we were throwing them at cars and we're all just like no oLo it was good then we went back to the house and be bored then sunday me and alexis went up to the skate park and alexis wouldnt go down a ramp and got all mad about it and wouldnt skate anymore so i skated all by myself and then she left right before i skated the whole ramp and i was like ahh! so i skated for a lil bit and then i left cause it was boring by myself. then that night heather took us home and we had a great time in the car on the way home it was very funny and that was my weekend and tonight ill probably hang out downtown if anyones there. or at my moms apartment mike ♥ Lauren