Alot of things have ben on my mind right now, like well im not going to saY like what but everyone what do you do when your feeling down?

TOday, was I dunno Fustrating and overwellming.Things are changing, everyewhere, some for the better some for the worse. It's hard to figure out what I want, need and really really really want. I'm confused. Everyone seems to like me as a friend, but why? Why not before, was it because I'm more outgoing now? Do I look diffrent, Did people not see me the same as they do now? Tristen was flitring hard core with the guy i like RIGHT INFRONT OF ME. I was so sad, and mad. But I cant tell her that I like him, she wouldnt understand. Also shed try to like Do it purpously to make me mad, even though shes my frined thats just how she is. Also shed tell everyone So I'm like angry at her for that. Even though I wont act out on it because its not really her fault. And he knew I wasmad about it I could tell because he tryed to make her quit. But I dunno, I just dont know anymore, later that day he was all talking to me and crap. Trying to make me not mad I guess, he even kind of semmed to walk that way just so he could walk near me. Maybe he does still find me interesting. Who knows though. My group and I sat in are usual spot during break. ( the steps with the railing that we always slide down.) its far away from the rest of the school. ITs awesome you can see everyone from a distance I love it. We where listhening to photograph, such a good song. True to life. Well other things where going on too but thats all for now. xoxo your lovely friend, Dora V

Theres a Junior High football game today and Im going to go to watch my lil big brother palay. Sometime soon IM going to post some of my poems and you all have to let me know what you think. Dora V.

Right now all I can think about is this song picture by Nickleback. I'm not even that crazy about the song, but my friends have got it stuck, And its going to be there for a while. Witch is okay with me the songs not that bad at all. People, online and off have ben noticing the changes in me, and yesh I think it does have alot to do with the person I like. Krystal is gettinf Internet soon and then maybe she could meet some of my online friends that would be great. I'm making a piczo site and I think that it's comming out swell. I already have the home page and the about me page done. Im going to post the site when I'm remotly done with it. My Einglish teacher Ms. Simon told me that I was a very smart student but only I was lazy.. I was like um "k...." I duuno where she got the idea I was a good student because I'm not. I relized today.... that really I am everything I hate....mostly and Im trying to do everything I can to change that. This month I am going to die my hear again and get it cut. Also I'm going to get a camera ( a good one) and take some pictures. So maybe I can have all that up soon. love you guys your insane friend, Dora V.

Well, Theres not a whole lot going on right now in my world. Or at least anything I could explain with out taking up all your time. Not that anyone Is going to read this anyway. So I might as well Right? Okay the truth Is the only reason why I know about this site is because of roxy. Thank you roxy! (If you even read this). Well theres this guy at my school, that I really really like. Hes a huge videogamer( i really suck a video games)like seriously, he's tall, thin and really really cute. (in my opinion) I think so becase he kinda way diffrent than anyone I've ever met. Not that people around here vary, because truthfully the dont. Or at least not at my school. Well any way I think he might like me back a little bit. The main people I am hanging out with that actually live around me are krystal, Tristen, Melissa, Courtny, Alexis, Olivia, Brandy, Cayla, and a few others, those are just my main people. Out of all those names only three of them know everything, okay I take that back, four including Krista but now Sense she got kicked out of her childrens home, I only talk to her on the phone. She got kicked out for cutting herslef, and somehow sense me and here where really close some people even kiond of balme me for it, but i told her she shouldnt. I wanst even the only one who knew. But what ever I didnt even like them to begin with. There the only one I dont like anyway. Besides Chris Lissy, but only because hes such a big A- whole, and he thinks I like him or sumthin the guy just cant take a hint. Last years quote was " do it for Kurt" you know because me and krista where like crazy about Nirvana and all that great stuff, this year I'm not sure what its going to be but its going to be good. I came home only to discover a barnd new AC/DC jacket on my bed. Awesome. THe world is completely going to hell with our goverment falling apart, and that stupid fucking bird flu we must all pray to god that that whole story got made out bigger than it actually was. Just like all online groups my latest one is deterating again, only a close few always remain... i luv you guys. xoxo your loving friend, Dora V.