It's been so long, I really don't know why I'm bothering with this. Since the last time I updated this... I turned 18... I broke up with Robyn and started dating Josh... I love him. I don't know why I do. I almost wish I didn't. Isn't it wonderful how someone can lift you up so much but at the same time make you so fragile... ?? It makes me feel weak. It's been a while since I've felt weak. The last person who made me feel weak barely speaks to me anymore. But I never felt the same for him as he did for me... I mean yes, I loved him... But I was never in love with him. I still worry about him. Although, there's no reason for it. He's fine... He sticks to his faith and really does well within it. I'm glad life hasn't beaten him down. As for Joshua Nathaniel Cooper... I really do love him. It scares me so much. I don't like this weakness he brings to me.. But I couldn't imagine being without him. My friends don't find him very attractive... But I really don't care. He makes me happy and that's all that counts right? That's all that matters to me... But I feel like I'm making a mistake... Allowing for someone to get close to me again... I keep asking myself if this is really what I want... But... I want to be with him... Or I wouldn't be wasting my time.. And Robyn? Well, he just complicates things... I care about him a lot... and he wants to be with me when I'm done with school... But I don't think I can... I want to be able to still be friends with him, he's a great guy... But it has just complicated things so much I don't know what to do... Maybe, we just weren't meant to be friends? Hmm... I've been on break the past couple of weeks... I went home, saw all of my old friends. It was really neat! Jillian hates me. I've come to accept it. There's nothing I can do about it... I don't even know if I want to anymore. I'll always think highly of her... But this is a whole wasn't meant to be kind of thing. Everyone else seemed happy to see me. Karmen even came down from Eugene just to see me!! Last night... Roo threw a wicked party... I <3'd all of it! I ran into a wall... Got shitfaced... Got to play nurse... Got to dance with my girls... I had a ton of fun... I love them so much... So to end this, I'm really excited to be going back to school. I'm happy to get to see my boyfriend and my friends at school... But I'm sad to leave my family and friends all over again. I know when I get back to school I'll probably get homesick in the end though, what I'll accomplish at school is worth it... <33333 Roxy

So not much to add.. Well lots but the people who should know about it.. or the people I care about enough to update... Got an email from me... But just because you didn't get one doesn't mean I don't care.. It just means I'm scatter brained.. hooray.. anyway.. Just wanted to let you all know I still live.. Not that you care.. but whatever.. I love ya'll...

Anyway... Just checking in.. saying hello to those of you I can't get a hold of or those who can't get a hold of me!! My email is rmd.tp88@yahoo.com ... My jobbie email.. I hate being a frockin jobbie.. But I love it here.. Have a lot of fun.. I'm in Love... With.. lots of things.. lol But anyway.. There's a line and I feel bad for being on the computer while others have to wait.. Plus Robbin's probably just now getting out of balanced life class and looking for me.. So I'm gonna go.. Go find him.. Or find Sari.. Or someone worth chatting to.. Miss some of you a lot... A lot a lot.. Comment me or call me or something.. (no don't call.. Phones not working.. btw.. Going to visit home soon.. Hope to see a few people!!) Roxy

Josh - How It Started : So it occurs to me I probably never mentioned Joshua before.. We got together a little after a month after I started working at taco bell.. I think our first date we went and saw nacho libre.. Mainly cause Saraha said it was awesome.. And we couldn't think of anything else to do.. Afterwards we went to the lake for a bit.. and to dinner.. I didn't really eat.. Wasn't hungry.. I'd eaten at work before that.. But whatever.. Pointless details right? Josh was a really nice guy.. Whenever we'd go out he'd open the door for me.. Always wanted to hold my hand.. Constantly paying attention to me.. * Sometimes too much.. Okay.. Usually too much.. Especially when I was eating * But I still liked him a lot.. And what was more important? My friends liked him as well.. * A few too much.. (Lydia) * All and all it was a very interesting experience... I can't really say anything other then interesting.. Because there's just so much I have to say.. That I'd never be finished. Not in a million years at least.. How it Ended : So.. I'm moving to Astoria in a week from today..? Well a week and two days ago.. Josh and I met a bunch of my friends at vibes.. You know one of those last time things. And he left me there.. And didn't call me for three days.. And when he finally did.. He was breif.. And I knew what was coming before he got here. It still didn't keep me from being happy. We went to the store for some random reason.. And my Ne Ne.. * Cousin's God Mother * was there at work.. And I introduced them.. For some reason he really wanted to meet her.. Probably because I told him my Ne was here and I didn't want to go in and say hello.. Or deal with what she had to say.. I dunno.. That day it was totally unlike either of us.. When he first showed up I didn't give him a hug like I normally did.. And instead of sitting next to me he sat across from me.. And there was no hand holding.. The only thing normal was him opening the door for me. Anyway, back to what I was saying before that.. When he was driving me home.. He said something along the lines of.. "I don't think we can see eachother anymore.. One of my ex girlfriends asked me back out.. and I think I'm gonna go back out with her.. Plus I really don't think she'd like it if I told her I already have a girlfriend.. But we can be together in like.. a week." I was just like.. "That's cool.. I mean.. all really up to you.." I don't think I frowned or anything.. I mean.. I was really good about it. I didn't show any emotions.. Well.. Not any negative ones atleast.. It takes a long time to break down the walls.. But only an instant to put them back up. So we got to my house.. and he asked if I still wanted to hang out for a bit.. I said sure.. and we sat on my porch for a little bit.. Before he had to go.. And I walked him to his car.. Gave him a hug.. He told me to call if I ever needed anything.. and to call when I was back in town for good.. and when I walked away I did it with a smile on my face.. "Keep In Touch" That was the last thing I said to him... I saw him at work three days ago..? It was rather odd.. Hard for me to breathe at first.. I was really surprised to see him again.. But you know.. We're required to act happy and be nice and polite no matter what.. So I don't think anyone really knew I was upset. Except for Jill and Laura.. * co-workers and very good friends of mine * But only cause we had a little chat in our off time.. I cried over him once.. But that was it.. When I think about him now.. It's always with a smile.. We had fun while it lasted and that's what counted.. Leaving : I leave in 7 days.. I got a phone call this morning from a friend.. She whispered 7 days and hung up.. I couldn't help but laugh.. I started my day off at about 5:30.. I finally left for work at about 9:30.. Got there and still had 10 minutes or so to chat.. Relax a bit and catch up with my friends and co-workers.. Spent the day at work very busy.. Towards the end of the day Chase and I were on drive thru.. Switching back and forth between cashier and order taker as the situation called for.. I had a lot of fun in that last half hour.. But then again whenever I work with Chase I do.. I've had a little crush on him for ages.. And we always flirt back and forth.. Which makes work a little easier to deal with.. And everyone on night crew is sad to see me leave at the end of my shift.. Funny how I'm always ready.. Except when Chase is around... I procrastinate a bit about leaving... A few of my co-workers are upset with me because I'm leaving.. Hopefully it'll blow over and everything will be okay with us before I leave.. I mean it'd suck to go away with them hating me.. Well Hamza, Bernie, Nick and Blue can hate me.. I don't really care.. if they do.. They're all perverted assholes anyway. I mean.. I have to deal with Hamza commenting on how I look like a 15 year old.. and then five minutes later talking about my tits... Bernie teasing me because Blue has a thing for me.. And yes Bernie had a crush on me before Blue did.. He just gave up when I told him to fuck off.. Nick randomly asks me out all the time.. I think only cause he knows it makes me want to sock him.. and Blue.. is 35 years old.. and won't drop his little crush on me.. And doesn't realize that him being more then half my age absolutely disgusts me. I'm really gonna miss the ladies on the crew though.. I mean Laura's a sweetheart.. Though you'd never know it in passing.. Jillian.. I've known Jillian forever and I really enjoy working with her.. Most of the time.. Danelle brings a little sunshine into everyones day.. Even when she's in a bad mood.. Tammy is crazy.. Which makes her a constant source of entertainment.. Pleasie is a great person.. Really a family oriented kind of gal.. And she rocks.. Karol.. A very nice lady.. She was only hired a couple of weeks ago.. but I don't know how we ever worked without her.. Elno and Sihler.. Two of the funniest women you will ever meet.. And when they're cussing you out.. it's the cutest thing.. * They've never cussed me out.. But you know.. I've heard Hamza and Nick get it a bunch of times * There are just so many people I'm gonna miss it's horrible.. That's just co-workers.. So am I having second thoughts? No.. I just know I'm gonna miss them.. And I hope that all goes well with them.. I keep thinking over all of the days I've had with my friends, co-workers, family.. basically just all of the things I have so much fun doing.. That I probably won't have the opportunity to do so in Astoria.. So I guess I wait for Christmas Vacation, Summer Break, and my graduation.. But am I coming back to Medford for good? I don't think so.. To the Valley? Probably not.. I don't know if I'll ever trully belong here again or if I'll ever want to.. Okay.. Going to shut up now.. This is way way way long enough... Roxy

Well Hmmm.. Josh and I broke up.. That was kinda sad but whatever.. What can ya do? Nothin.. Uhm.. Still not friends with those people.. They say I'm spiteful and mean when I'm happy... But maybe it's not that I'm all that mean or spiteful.. Just that they don't like me being happy because they aren't? I dunno.. But that sounds mean.. and I shouldn't say it... But you know that I'm thinking it... Uhm... What else? Oi... I can't wait to leave.. But at the same time I don't want to leave at all... Cause I'm gonna miss my friends but whatever... Only thing I can do is take a chance.. and hopefully I'll make it through.. Without some major misshap... Roxy

Hmm.. I still work at taco bell.. I leave for job corps on July 25th.. I have a boyfriend.. His name is Josh.. He's a really really nice guy and I like him a lot.. I'm gonna hate leaving him.. But I'd be a fool to give up the opportunity to make something of myself.. I'm no longer friends with a lot of people though.. it seems like when I'm happy with myself.. Everyones unhappy with me? Oh... well I give up.. I don't exactly care anymore.. I'll just sit back and watch as my last month goes by.. N then I'll leave.. And see how things go.. I mean.. There isn't much else for me to do.. Just wait.. Ah.. This is gonna be interesting. -Roxy

Whatever it is.. I didn't do it.. It wasn't me.. I swear it. * whistles * * friday * Right.. So my first day I worked 5 hours.. Or pretty close to 5 hours.. It wasn't so bad.. I was on drive thru.. So regardless I had fun.. Angel (my cousin) came through and totally flipped.. Cause I've been MIA for a bit.. And then he comes to Taco Bell.. and here I am.. So that was easy I guess.. and a whole buncha people called me beautiful.. So I should feel special right..? Anyway my first night was good.. and Rob, Bernie, Blue and a couple other employees helped me out a lot that first night.. Which I am vair vair thankful for!! * saturday * On the second day.. Jill changed shifts so she could work with me.. She taught me how to use the cash register for the most part.. How to take down orders.. Stuff like that. We were on drive thru... and mainly goofed off the whole time.. Though we managed to keep our clock at an average of 2:15.. While singing whichever songs popped into our heads and chatting with the customers.. So I had a lotta fun on the second day... * sunday * Third day.. I got on at 11.. We were understaffed.. But everyone told me Sunday's were easy.. I agree.. Unless you hit night shift on Sunday.. Sunday mornings are boring.. Sunday afternoons... Boring.. Sunday evenings.. If they're all like that.. I'll never work another Sunday again.. So what happened? Uhm.. When I started we were understaffed... And no one was there to supervise me.. no one had time... So.. They put me on front register.. By myself.. and all in all.. I think I can say I did a pretty good job. Then 4 hit.. The time I was supposed to get off.. And Josh asked if I could stay later.. Since people kept calling into work.. I agreed.. Someone was supposed to be in at 5 to cover me so I could get outta there.. No one showed up.. Then at 8:15 someone was supposed to.. It didn't happen.. I finally got outta there at 9:30... After Blue and Kevin showed up.. And uhm.. Oh yeah.. The Taco Bell is computerised.. And our computers were being a pain in the ass.. Messing up.. They put us 15 minutes behind in drive.. And as a result all areas suffered.. Though I made several people laugh despite the fact that they were hungry.. I mean.. Hello duh!! Fast Food damn it! ... But I guess I can say it was okay.. My fingers are crossed my till hit even.. * Monday * Today I'm home.. Chillin.. Gonna go in in a bit and see if I can't get my schedule for Wednesday and Thursday changed.. Cause they screwed it up.. And have me scheduled to work at 5.. Which is when I'm supposed to be going to class. What else? Oh.. I dunno.. Maybe I'll go in.. and run into someone cool and worth hanging out with.. Or maybe someone cool will call me and give me something else to do today.. Otherwise if they need me to work I'll do it.. As long as I'm out in time to go to school at 5.. Hugs, Roxy

So.. Yeah.. Maybe you don't have to shut up.. I guess things aren't so bad.. I'm just annoyed with stupid people for being idiotically stupid at times.. and my arms itch.. Cause my kitty scratched them.. And I had to pour peroxide on them.. And now I look like I spent the day with a razor blade to my wrists. Hmm.. I got hired at taco bell.. Hooray for me.. But moneys money and I know the crew so it should be pretty easy.. I just don't like people.. So I suppose I must cope.. Step outside my comfort zone.. First time in a while... Uhm.. Nothing else I guess.. I hope someone has a great day out there.. Since I'm kind of striking out with that one. hehe Hugs

You know.. I hate to admit it.. But I'm lonely.. Normally I'm surrounded by a billion people all at once and I crave for a moments peace.. a bit of time to myself.. But I'm lonely.. I'm scared.. and I feel like a complete idiot. That's okay though.. I'll eventually get over it.. I'm so shutting up right now... I just think sometimes.. that I could slit my throat on your doorstep and you'd casually step over me.. The only comments you'd have were on the blood staining the welcome mat... I have this thought.. that you'd be more upset over the mat then my death.. yer.. shutting up.

lol Nice.. I'm feeling spirited and orriginal.. I suppose audacious just about covers it. There isn't much to update.. I'm waiting for my vatti to take me to school.. Which means I prolly oughta slip on my shoes... eh.. Screw it. I'll go with flip flops again. I feel all grungey.. Good thing I don't look it. Daniel didn't recognize me when he saw me today.. Said he's used to a sassy look... Mmm never listen to Dan. He doesn't pay attention to anything but your tits and your ass. What else? Oh.. I moved in with my vatti again. I think I said I'd never ever come back to his home once. But as long as we stay clear of eachother everythings good. Uhm.. Oh yeah.. Jessica is back in town. I get to say baby Trenton today!! Yay! I haven't seen him yet, except in pictures. He's supposed to be absolutely gorgeous. I'm sure he is. I mean, look at Jessica. She's deffinately gorgey. Allie's supposed to be bringing over my Skunk. I dunno when she's gonna get here but it better be soon.. Oi.. It's 4:20... Gotta go push at dad to take me to school. Hope all is well with whoever reads this thing.. Though for a few people I know it's not. Hugs <3's n crup, Roxy

So... Yeah.. I'm not really here.. But for those of you that don't already know I'm not going to be around much anymore.. I have a lot to do... and I might be joining job corps and going to Astoria... Cross your fingers for me? Love ya'll, Roxy

lol That's me ... an enigma... But not really.. I just heart the word.. Hmmm.. What to say... Oh yeah... I'm updating the list.. Matti Cody Vatti Dustin Adam Gramma Sharon Granama Jenny Jerry Lynna Dev Claude Skittlez Uncle Bichie Shawna Allie Nikki Jessa Jenna Jessie But other then that.. I'm okay... lol I have sinusitis to go with my viral thingie mabopper.. I like how they do that.. They diagnose me with a really big thing.. instead of just a sinus infection... I have sinusitis and I might have asthma woot. So it's way oh so cool.. n I bet if all of you had seen me when I was in my super contagious lets infect everybody mode you'd be sick now. Oi.. Oh yeah.. I nearly sound like me again! Also.. Message to the Aaron's... Stop being so down on yourselves.. You two rock!!! N I totally wouldn't have survived this sickness as well without the two of you...!! * Kinki and Winksy and Nathan and lots of other people too... But you already knew that!! *

That's me at the moment. Trapped within a cage. I have a cold or some other viral disease. My dad's friend is a nurse... With a big mouth. Something about an epidemic of the common cold or some crup like that. So I'm not allowed to leave the house. Not technically supposed to be on the computer, I'm sure when I get off of it they'll spray it with disinfectant. Like they did with my cell. Not like I could use that anyways. I can't talk. All I really want is to go out. Do something with my friends. So, I'm under strict orders from my vatti, "Stay in bed. Get some sleep. Get well cause I'll need your help when it's time to move." I'm like... ... ugh. Cause I really can't say anything. The last thing I said to him.. Before "ouch", was, "I didn't know you could read." Oh, the only reason I'm taking any of them seriously on this sick thing... is the list.. Matti Cody Vatti Dustin Adam Gramma Sharon Granama Jenny Jerry Lynna Dev Claude Skittlez Uncle Bichie That's the list of people who have come in contact with me since I've been sick... and have gotten sick themselves. I figure if I'm that contagious... Then maybe I should be locked away for a while. I don't know about the rest of the people... Because I haven't been able to get a hold of them. N even if I could would they still be able to hear me when I called??? So yeah. Right. So.... I think I'm done. Cause I feel as if I've been complaining for days... N I'm really tired again...

So yer.. I have to updat this a lot.. From yesterday.. But I think I'll wait a bit for I can put this in a comprehensible order. So yer.. Be looking for an update.

Actually... You better get on yahoo or .. I dunno I should cry.. Take pity on the sick person!! Now!! grr arg.. la! I'm sick.. Obviously.. lol I'm fainting n crup.. Anna thinks I should go to see my doctor. I'm not gonna do it.. Sorry.. Not unless they make me. Which I doubt they will unless I actually faint in front of them. Let's see... I'm really over the whole extremely happy for no reason... Or extremely sad despite smiling all day... It just doesn't make sense to me.. So I'm refusing to admit that I feel anything.. but ill.. Cause I really feel sick.. I have to say.. My life hasn't been all bad.. I just don't remember most of the good stuff.. Unless it was recent.. Like having all these neato friends.. Or dealing with the whole.. thing that I've previously not believed in.. This morning.. With the words "golfers tan" I laughed my ass off... Remembering when my mom used to tease the crup out of my vatti for getting a golfers tan and complaining.. For some reason I remembered that.. N it made me think of all the semi normal times when my parents weren't too high or spun to show a little affection. N that was a bit odd... I say semi normal.. because it's normal for most families.. but really not for mine.. I've been reminded why I took up writting in the first place.. Though I still have yet to show something that means anything to me... But I came across a notebook a little while ago.. It really upset me.. Reminded me of how bad it hurt when.. well when the first person I ever trully loved.. (aside from family) decided he hated me.. I think I'm going to post one of them.. For lack of something better to do.. Though this is just before he went back to being normal... Well written as he was becoming a nice person again. Like I said before.. I am a drama queen... Have been since I started writting.. Oh wow.. Thought I lost it for a moment.. K here goes... Sometimes I wonder why I even bother at all.. It's not as if anything I do makes any difference to you. I could slit my wrists on your doorstep and you wouldn't care. Your only comment would be on the blood staining your "welcome" mat, as you casually step over my lifeless body. However, your lack of well being is not what I wish to discuss. I've long since accepted your hatred for me. It's your sudden kindnes that interests me. I wonder by what miracle you have been forced into acting the part of someone sweet. Perhaps, this is no miracle at all, and nothing more then a curse. Whichever the case, I wish you'd return to being spiteful so my hatred for you can remain justified and I can continue in it without guilt. Anyhow.. I never finished that... I got caught up in something else... Writting a story I called "dragon's egg" or some crup like that. I don't even know what I did with that.. I'm surprised at my own stupidity.. Cause I never really hated him. I just couldn't deal with the fact that I still cared for him. So hatred was the only way I showed it. I kind of wonder what I would have written next. I know I never told him the truth... I wouldn't either.. Writting has always been my way of saying things I'd never say to a person because I don't like being hurt.. N I don't like hurting other people. I also wonder why I lied to myself in my own writting. I've never found another notebook with a single lie to myself... This is the second one I've ever seen... Funny how I only lied to myself over him. Well... Things are odd today.. I like them. I'm going back to normalcy.. Cause I don't really write here much... Or share any of my dramatics.. Not unless it's with my notebook.. Anyways.. Hugs n crup, Roxy

I don't know if being in love is really something to celebrate about.. But yeah.. Glad someone got a smile out of it... I've got nothing but confusion.. As for the whole obsessive thing.. I agree... I feel really bad and all... But how else am I going to get him to leave me alone if I don't tell him to fuck off? He doesn't listen to me any other way.. N as for being mad at you Nathan... It's hard to be mad at anyone... But no.. I'm not... I just don't get on msn very often anymore... Which means to say... GET ON YAHOO!! You know you want to. hehe Love ya'll Roxy

So.. Yeah not explaining the whole 3 questions thing.. That's really none of ya'lls business.. Ah.. So uh.. Lots of things to say... I have to ask.. Manny if you read this... Ever... Please stop calling me... It's getting old. We aren't together anymore... N I don't love you. I tried to explain that from the first time you told me you loved me... K, now that that's done with... Uhm. What's new? Schools going great. I have class with my Skittlez * wife number 4 *. It's perty nifty.. I'm doing really well and so is she. She works at the taco bell on Jackson. She's trying to convince me to go to work with her and half the kids in my class... Not happening. I'm looking at getting a job at the Squeeze in Sandwich shop. I had a job offer there last time.. But then I went with the 8.50 an hour thing.. So yeh.. But I think it'd be awesome to work down the road from school.. Lots easier to get from work to school and home again. Mmm anything else? Oh yeah.. So like... Though I'm not in love with Manny.. I am in love.. But shhh.. I'm not telling you.. Cause then everyone would know.. N I'm not thinking I'm ready for that!! I'll do more later.. I have no idea what else to say! Hugs, Roxy

I've decided.. I've been a bit of a drama queen... Okay... maybe I've really been a drama queen and couldn't admit it? I dunno. I'm over it. It's taken me a while to accept the fact that things don't always go my way and the world doesn't always revolve around me.. (when has it ever?!?) I've been busy recently.. Helping out with my friends house.. It's being remodled and I promised to help her out.. So I cook.. I clean.. I waste my time babysitting people my age.. and sometimes older... It gets really bad when you have to sit with someone two years older than you and talk with them till they fall asleep. Well.. no it just gets boring. Coping with the fact that I really have no intention of moving back in with either of my parents.. My dad pays rent for me.. I feel spoiled and all.. Even though I know it won't last much longer than a few more weeks... Oh well though. Nothing else I can really say.. I'm starting to have difficulties hiding the fact that I'm not doing any work at all right now from the four teachers wandering around this classroom... So.. I think I'll go.. I'll update again eventually. Hugs, Roxy

So... Like.. I don't know.. I wonder when I get to the point where I quit believing that some people actually tell the truth and that I'm not the only one in the entire universe? When I quit trying to rationalize why things happen and accept that they just do..? Probably never... I think it's stupid.. that I let things hurt me so easily.. that a word from someone I'm supposed to trust could bring me to tears.. But things like being thrown through a wall have ceased to hurt me. I'm pathetic.. To say the least.. N even the slightest thought has brought me to tears... Today, I remembered what happened after I was mollested... I'm sure I never forgot this, however... It haunts me still. I remember distinctly how my dad had screamed and yelled... and beat the shit out of me.. Because I let it happen... N my mom expressed her extreme hatred of me... But whatever.. It's nothing right.. Just a memory of the past.. A useless one at that.. And yet again I'm crying.. What the hell is my problem? Why can't I be normal...??? Fuck.. Okay.. I'll shut up now before I really do become a mess.. I've already taken off my make up once today.. I don't need to do it again.. I'll just go back to praying for hell to swallow me whole... It could only be better than this.. That is if it even exists and I'm not already living it. Roxy

So, I had plans today to go hang out with my best friend.. But her dad, being naziish, threw a hissy fit.. Apparently, I'm a bad influence... When he smokes weed with her and her friends... Not including me... But whatever, he can go fuck Larry for all I care. Larry's a nasty old pervert and I wish the dogs of hell upon him.. If hell even exists. Otherwise, I wish him a slow and painful death, where all the pain he's caused would return to him ten-fold. But that's just me. Tabby wants to burn his house down. So... I was supposed to have my money by 2:30... go turn on my phone and be in Seroba by 3... Unfortunately.. My money doesn't get in until 6:30... I could probably push it to be in by 4.. But we shall see.. I really don't want to anger anyone. But then... at 4 Lydia was supposed to take me to go pick up a pizza and then we were gonna go out to W.C. (cruppy ass place that I hate with a passion because it's a waste of space.... and you could wander for hours and still not get where you want to be... * walked 3 miles of W.C. and still didn't come to the end of it *) The plan is now to go into town.. pick up my money.. (hopefully at 4) Meet Lydia.. hang out for a bit and go to Krammits.. Spend the rest of the weekend in town.. There.. Feel priveledged.. Whoever reads this.. Are the only people to know exactly what I'm doing this weekend.. Everyone else just thinks I'm psycho and disapearing, as usual. hehe Hugs, Roxy