Well...I found out today that Kirsten is mad at me again..this time...I dont know what I did. No one has made me cry as much as she has in like the last 2 months. Now, Im thinking thats bad, but I dont know. Oh well. Im done,I just dont know what to do right anymore. I wish I was litte again, everything seemed so easy. Nothing was every this tough. Best friends didnt come and go, they stayed. Hmm, I guess that changes when you get to High School. People decide that they dont want to be around you anymore. Or the littlest thing you do pisses them off. Will someone just please tell me how to fix this? Between family, school, and friends, Im drained. Physically and emotionally. Kirsten is now like best friends with Chelsea. Mom and dad are fighting more than ususal these days. I guess the only good thing I have..well I guess theres two. My other friends, the ones that really care. And Matt. And I pray to god, that my and matt last a long time. I know that sounds gay, because everyone always says, "your only 14" well I dont care anymore. I care about him more than anything. My other friends, I dont know what I would do without you guys. Harmony especially. Babi gurl I love you. And not in a lesbian way. Im being serious. Ha..and Shadoe, and Chris. I love you guys too. Cant forget A.J. Love him too. And Jon. And everyone else I love you guys too. Wow...that makes me sound so depressed, when really Im just confused and upset. I thought me and Kirsten we close. But...I thought wrong. I dont know what to do these days. Everything seems more confusing than normal. Oh well...I'll get over it like I do every thing else. Alright. Peace out guys. xOxO Jess Matt// I love you baby...dont you ever forget that.