I don't think I have any true emotions right now. I haven't found any meaning to anything. It's almost as if I don't care. But the thing is, I do care. I care about my friends, family, the choices that I make...but I don't care about someone special. Someone worth the heartache, the tears. It's really hard to find anyone anymore. There are no true feelings existing within me. I'm almost numb. [[edit]] Betrayal. It's more than a word. It's a fucking knife in the back.