lust creeps up on you, ad it makes you obsessed. it makes you animalistic. if makes you mistake it for love. it makes you crave more. then reality sets in and you are left feeling empty. hallow.

i have seen him to often. it has become so intense, and i am in the wrong too. its been creeping up on me. like a dark sort of feeling. Guilt. Pain. An empty hollow feeling of wasted love.

i can never do this without getting feelings involved, and its just so unfair. on him, on me, on his gf.

i was with him thurs, friday. and sat.. their one year anniversary.

he's been with her for that long, so that must mean something. how i wish i had never gotten involved. how i know this feeling so well. the feeling you get when you know, the fun has been had. it's time to let go. to let go of the feelings you think you may feel for someon you have been intimate with. to know nothing good will come from it, and move the hell on. let him be.