my nails sparkle with the glitter from your bottle. so today was ok, i fucking hate school. i used to liek it, then i could tolerate it. now i cant stand it! save me save me. the only thing that really bugs me is feeling like i dont "fit in" anywhere---lame, i know. but tonight i sat at pams office for like fucking forever and then i went to alexis' and that was rather enjoyable. me and alexis like to feel left out together and sitting in the hot tub was too relaxing to even begin to explain. it made me forget all the things i was worrying about and wut not. so heres whats on my mind. 1) im fucking smad (mad and sad) that tom would say that. i just dont understand. wtf. i knew something like this was gunna happen. even tho he assured me that he didnt care wut his friends thought and blah blah blah. this is exactly why i wanted to keep him as Marcus Flutie. 2) Karl broke his phone which means i dont knwo when i'll get to talk to him next, which means tomorrow is gunna kill me from the inside out. guess who hates being so attatched? (..me...) but yeah, he makes me laugh and forget all this bullshit revolving around me right now. why is bad to like that? 3) tiffany was questioning wether to go on a vacation with marcy or stay in georgia so me, karl. and jeremy could go down there for my spring break. it killls me even more because she is the only one who fucking understands me and probably the closest thing to a "best friend" that ive got. why would she question that? 4) the immense feeeling of not being wanted by my "friends" tonight has me feeling like a total fucking social outcast. 5) megan f not calling today. megan l not answering her phone or returning my calls. fuck everyone. im going to bed.