i dreamt of radiant complementary colors and woke up with more well- made mistakes today wasn't bright. he spoke of blue. i screamed in red. no diamond in the world could've changed the frown inside. i hate when i lose control and i can't find a better version of me... the phone rings on, and i go another day feeling exhausted. but my pride wants no one to know... i need change. i constantly need change. i want someone to chaperone me to the next comfort zone, so i can shut my eyes, and live ignorance's bliss. the sirens are everywhere, and i know if i keep running, I'm going to steadily go nowhere... i don't want to lose him i don't want to lose myself i don't want to lose those who have always been there for me. i don't want to lose what i could have and what I feel I deserve