Today is April 10, 2009. I'm at Nana's with Brooks and Brandon. I work at Hookah Haze. That's where I met them and all of my friends. I've been there for almost 3 months. I dated Brooks but it ended and now it's a thing of some sort. I'm just glad he got a cell phone. By the way, I have work tonight. And I need sleep. My sleep schedule is of but it's my life. Court sucks. Yay end of spring break - hah. hah. Phoebe is living here, now. It's fun.. I may add more later. I love you. Amikar

Feeling: Non-Deep So I have a new challenge: I need to connect six front tucks in a row on the floor. It's against Big Johnson. I really really hope I get it. It's really hard though. Agh. I'm grounded for roughly ten days because I betrayed my father's trust. I can completely understand that and how he feels, but we really do need to talk. Now that I'm grounded, I'm supposed to clean things, so I have been. A lot. I'm kind of glad though cause I really like to clean. But usually I'm too lazy. Tomorrow I'm going to New York City so I'm excited. We're going to see Phantom. I've never seen Phantom of the Opera before, but I've heard good things about it. Wish me luck with my challenge. Amikra

Feeling: Astounded Galaxies, Black Holes, the Big Bang Theory, everything about cosmology and the universe is spectacular. I'm glad I'm looking at this stuff right now. Emotionally - Pretty well. Physically - Knee Problems and a Runny Nose So basically, I'm good. Amikra

Feeling: Frustrated Rudy is absolutely amazing and I love him. For him first, and then what he is capable of doing in all aspects of his life. Why can't I feel like this all the time??? Why do I always make him wait? I don't understand. I'm sorry. By the way, I chopped my hair off. =D Amikra

Feeling: Wavy In English, we're doing the poetry unit and I decided to do one of my poems on Eric because I found one pivitol point in his life that may have changed him forever. I wrote and wrote and it actually came out pretty good. I compared him to a Surfboard that turned into Waves. I like poetry. Amikra

Feeling: Hott Let's just say ... Chicken, Lube, Cucumber Spread, Vaginal Piercings. =D Yay A&P runs. Amikra

Feeling: Relieved I'm in East Carolina University! WWWWWWOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! Just thought I'd mention that. =) Amikra

Feeling: Good It's been a while since I've been on here and I almost forgot my own name. That scared me. But no, it is Amikra Metuo. =) I hope everyone's doing well. And for now, I have found my Dream Lover. Will it stick through college? We'll see. *sigh* Amikra

Feeling: sweaty So States was a couple weekends ago. I won floor with a 9.5!!! I landed my vault on my feet!!! And I didn't make it to Regionals, which made me HAPPY. I'm going to compete on Floor and Vault for Platinum and I'm done. I've been accepted into James Madison University. I've been academically accepted into Montclair State University. Wish me luck on my audition tomorrow! Amikra

Feeling: Good. Wow, it's been a long time and a long holiday break. Even after I made the last entry, I've found myself, two months later, back in my other house for good. Love life, and take what it gives you. Never give up. I landed my vault! Amikra

Feeling: Okay So, I'm moving back in this weekend. I'm getting two rooms so that my parents have a bedroom and an office and I have the same. It's nice - we painted my second room a bright blue, and the bedroom will be a bright-ish green. Wish me luck. Amikra

Feeling: like my heart is about to explode So my parents were all nice and dandy. Then of course my Dad just has to bring up that he might have a picture of his ex-girlfriend (they were looking at pictures). My Mom freaks and wants him to get rid of the picture. They argue. My Dad gets jittery. My Mom gets teary-eyed. My Dad shouldn't have to get rid of the picture - it's just ... I don't know ... cruel, I guess. The point? My heart starts to flutter and I get a head rush and I want to run away or yell at them for being stupid and to shut up like I used to do when we were all living together. Bottom line? I don't want to move back in. Anything to keep this from happening whenever I'm around. Amikra

Feeling: INSANE!!! AHHH!!!! Everyone should go listen to Paramore's Misery Business. It is awesome to a T. "But God does it feels so good!!!!!!!!!!!" Ah, I'm out of my mind ... I want to get out of this house cause I want to. I wanna run and scream/sing my heart out and then break into dance. *sigh* Now I'm just missing one thing. HAHA - I know what it is and you don't and you don't and you don't. WEEEE!!!!!!! I can give you a hint though ... DE. Oh, a hint a hint. Is that all that is? (psst - that phrase is awesome) Nope, never. It's an ANSWER. Birthday in two days ... turning 17 and I will get my goddamn licence no joke. Much love, babe, much love. Amikra Oh you just have no clue, babe, no clue.

Feeling: zero-cool I went to the band competition today. It was fun, but then it started to rain and Phoebe and I decided to go. We were hoping to see the band, but we figure we could go to a Home Game. It would be better, anyways. So, that's what we'll do. Earlier today, at gym, I fell on the beam. I did a roundoff and my legs split. I hit my inner thigh and kind of rolled off. I was in shock and I ended up laughing, but it was about time. I hadn't "split" the beam in at least a year. What else? I signed up for that sculpting class on fridays. It should be a lot of fun. Amikra

Feeling: awesome The gym was amazing today! =D On Floor - I was working really consistently and I did my Rudi to my feet! Eek!! Happy. On Beam - I finally did a full routine with a [sort of] front handspring pass. Finally! And I was sweating like a ... animal that sweats a lot. On Bars - It was decent. It wasn't bad, but it wasn't necessarily good either. We only took about 5 or 6 turns. It was weird. Yeah. School was cool - as it should be. I "ran" the mile in 9:42. It was the fastest I've ever done. I was decently happy. I can't wait till ... well, there's too many days to list. Amikra

Feeling: creeped out So I'm going through all the entries - I'm on 100 right now. I'm gonna get off soon, but it's quite interesting - I'm such an angsty teenage girl, haha. But, that's the way life is. Gym was decent today. Floor and Bars were good. School was decent. I know what happened but I feel like I didn't really do it. Hmmm - I hate it when that happens. Amikra

Feeling: hurt So right now I'm having shooting pains in the back of my head and it hurts like hell when it happens. It could be worse though. I hate being so tired I'm depressed. It really sucks cause I think about everything that sucks and then it just sucks. Grr. I want another Sunday, too. Good night and sleep well. Hmmm ... Some day soon, very soon - I'm going to go through all of these and delete them. Start anew. Soon, cause I'm too tired right now. Maybe tomorrow - maybe next weekend. Amikra

Feeling: Excited "Silence is Golden." I have come up with a plan to have a silent gym practice tomorrow [Thursday]. The whole team will NOT talk and the only exceptions are Coach to Gymnast or Gymnast to Coach ... about gymnastics. They're going to hate me. No doubt about it - they're going to hate me. "You're a Machine!" So tomorrow [Thursday], I would like to run a mile during P.E. I did 1.5 mile(s) today, so I think I could make a mile easily. I just need to concentrate. Ali said to just picture Rick standing next to you yelling "You are a Machine!!" Haha - it works. I'm gonna do it. Alrighty. That's the update. Good life. Amikra

Feeling: Stuffy ( So, This is the beginning of my recent diary. The other negative numbers were from previous diaries that I didn't want to delete. ) Ew. I have a stuffy nose. Ew! Haha - not really, but it's not fun, either. *shrugs* Let's see ... Megan and I did "I-Remember-When's" about the Old Gym. At the end we realized that when we move again, we'll have to remember things from both the Old Old Gym and the Old Gym, haha. Wow - Good Times. So, Mother's been in bad shape as of late. *shrugs* We'll deal. Oh yeah! I wore hot pink and black striped tights today. =D It was so much fun! Haha - I'll leave you with that. Amikra

Feeling: old www.furiae.com ©Linda Bergkvist I see things I hear things I sense false things Again and again My paranoia's back No one to protect No one to witness No one to find the lost Again and again My paranoia's back I dance to forget I dance to clear the mind I dance to stop my attempt at thinking the false is there Again and again My paranoia's back Back to haunt me Back to curse my slumber Back to torment once more though not the last Again and again My paranoia's back I back away from the false of which I think is true by: Amikra *altered slightly from original writing