hurting...much?

by blubaby12
...i love him... i love him...but it hurts.. i want to get over him...but i cant... i dont want to love him because the only thing its causing me is pain... ...and a little bit of happiness..in the 3 seconds he hugs me is the only happiness i find... yea sure.. i'll act like i'm happy when he's around but i just dont want him to know what's really wrong..i love him..i dont want him to know because...i'll lose him...as my best friend and more... you can call me crazy and a loser and stupid. but i am crazy..for him i am a loser..to love him i am stupid..to be in love. enough of that... my day was uh... ok i was a bit hyper too.. while we were playing basketball in uh 4th period because our teacher wasnt here for math.. so yea.. we played basketball and hung out and stuff,with sarah, angela, heather and jennifer..it was fun..i was rolling on the ground everytime we missed a shot and i knocked heather down.. fun stuff..wooh. other than that my day was.. ok. i'll update sooner i can promise you that. -x-<3-x-
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no its not stupid. you can't help who you love. you just can't, you can't help when it happens. yeah love is the most beautiful thing but then again it can be the most painful out of all things. but you're not stupid. you're going through what a normal person should. yeah okay i was stupid too for loving him as well...but hey. it happened. it can't do anything about it. you however, CAN. as much as you want to hold on, its better to let go.
b/c you'll hurt like fuckkk more than fuckkk dude. and i hate the fact that this is happening to you out of all ppl. b/c its not fair, it really isn't. like i said. as much as you want to hold onto him, you HAVE to let go. you won't feel shitty. you probably won't hate yourself. i guarantee you that :]