errr--- havent been on here in like 2 1/2 months...geez...not much to say other than im now on myspace and dont really remember to come here to update....if u want my myspace....ask me for it

TIRED and i just woke up..fixin to go do my hair and go to work..again..damnit lol....newho - im goin to be in north carolina this weekend...leaving friday the 5 til sunday the 7th...obviously lol...but ill be back! *muah

hmm..well today was interesting..and i loved it bc it was my day off! :)...first day off since uhhrrrh wednesday!..wednesday i went to tech to register for my fall classes..then i chilled out...and thursday-saturday i worked,....im damn exhausted....billyjoe poole was in town and so i hung out w/ him and his friend saturday night and we went to amandas on the lake and went swimmin in her pool..that was interesting...then today i woke up and went to take something back to the mall but the store spencers sucks at life so therefore i couldnt return it due to being on clearance..damn that!... soo neway - umm... me,bjp, and chris chilled out and went to finlay park and walked in the rain...it was all fun and shit til bjp pulled a dumbass move and slipped on this rock and fell off into the other pile of rocks...sureeee sounds funny but it wasnt if u saw it...i waslike damnnnnn that had to hurt...id usually laugh but that i know had to hurt..i can only imagine :-/ sooo neway then i went to amandas and we died our hair...yeh the top part is my original color and underneath its a dark dark brown...its cool if uve ever seen it b4... thenud know what i was talkin about..but neway - i dont write much on here nemore ..i got hooked on the myspace thing... :) soooo if uwanna link - u can find me on there....pictures and all *SMILE and have a wonderful day! xox!

yay! :) so today im leavin for north carolina w/ stormi, my mom, and a bunch of other ppl to go to concord mills to shop, then wednesday we are going to carowinds. :) yay im excited.. lol its only 9:30 and we leave at 12.... but im so ready to go now bc i wanna shopppp! :)...concord mills has some damn good stores compared to the sorry ass mall we have here..lol.. plus ive got bad memories in our mall here ;)....newho imma end this on up and finish packin my "essentials" :) holllaaa @ ya girl!

IM IN LOVEEE W/ THIS SONG :) .(also bein supportive of my mr. hotass whom i miss OH SO MUCH!) "Independence Day"-Carrie Underwood Well she seemed alright by dawn's early light Though she looked a little worried and weak She tried to pretend he wasn't drinkin' again But daddy left the proof on her cheek And I was only eight years old that summer And I always seemed to be in the way So I took myself down to the fair in town On Independence Day Well word gets around in a small, small town They said he was a dangerous man But mama was proud and she stood her ground She knew she was on the losin end Some folks whispered,some folks talked But everybody looked the other way And when time ran out there was no was about On Independence Day Let freedom ring Let the white dove sing Let the whole world know that today is a day of reckoning Let the weak be strong Let the right be wrong Roll the stone away Let the guilty pay On Independence Day Well she lit up the sky the 4th of July by the time that the fireman came They just put out the flames and took down some names And sent me to the county home Now I ain't sayin it's right or it's wrong But maybe it's the only way Talk about your revolution It's Indepenedence Day Let freedom ring Let the white dove sing Let the whole world know that today is a day of reckoning let the weak be strong Let the right be wrong Roll the stone away Let the guilty pay On Independence Day

well - its happened...my boy has finally left for texas ...for 6 weeks :(...due to basic training.....and it sucks so bad...dont get me wrong i support the military.....im selfish that i want him back wtih me :( .... but oh well ill hold out i suppose... hm.. ive gotta end this and finish watchin will and grace--its the only thing right now making me smile :(...bc a piece of me is gone... imissmybeautifulhotass *i cannot wait til you get home >ass< i miss you sooo incredibly much and i hate not being able to talk to you :(.. "good day and night my beautiful ass" :) u make me smileeeee

*its my birthday - and ill BITCH if i want to!* ahh god im happy as shit!! :) its my 18th birthday and i just had soo much fun last night w/ the best guy ever! :) hehe and tonight, me and him are goin to california dreamin w/ my mom, dad, sisters & their boyfriends for me and my oldest sister's birthday..(hers is the 10th) how strange i know... anyway - but this is my first day off since last friday...i worked friday to this friday..and now today and tomorrow are my lazy days! :) so imma go take a LONG ass bubble bath - just bc i can :)...damn i sound spoiled..but u only get this day once a year :)..and 365 days is a long time to wait..so im takin advantage of this :D...yall hvae a great and beautiful day , i know i will! :) <3 shan

ok well, i dont know if this song is old or not but i like it..so ill share it with ya ;) Artist: Ciara Song: Get on the Dance Floor [Lil Jon] Let's go Right about now We need all the ladies to report to the dance floor Now I only got one thing to say If you didn't come to party, then you can get the hell out of here [chorus] I'ma dirty dance for ya, I'ma shake my ass for ya I'ma drop my pants when you get up on da dance floor I'ma dirty dance on ya, when I get my hands on ya Shawdy, I can prance when you get up on da dance floor [Ciara] Oh, I turn you on showin' you my thong You can't believe all this ass is me Know what you savor, thirty-one flavors I'm gonna shake and turn out this party, oooooh Now we got ourselves a party, oooooh So come on now everybody We're dirty dancing, fuck that romancin' Come hit the dance floor, it's ready with me All my ladies, if you got a big butt go head throw yo hands up All my ladies, if you don't give a fuck and you're ready to cut And say [Ciara: chorus] I'ma dirty dance for ya, I'ma shake my ass for ya I'ma drop my pants when you get up on da dance floor I'ma dirty dance on ya, when I get my hands on ya Shawdy, I can prance when you get up on da dance floor [Ciara] I'm gonna turn you out, you come drop your mouth I'm sending this ass on a shakin' spree You wanna touch it, might let you rub it Like you can hang with a freak like me, oooooh Now it's time to light the candles, oooooh And the powers I enbrake up Everyone's sippin', nobody's trippin' Everyone's dirty dancin' with me [chorus] I'ma dirty dance for ya, I'ma shake my ass for ya I'ma drop my pants when you get up on da dance floor I'ma dirty dance on ya, when I get my hands on ya Shawdy, I can prance when you get up on da dance floor [Lil Jon] Yeah, okay ladies it's time to take this thing to another level I need for you to look around in the club, look for a thug We're gonna turn it out,a little something like this [chorus] All my single ladies, go head grab you a thug, show that nigga some love All my sexy ladies, if you horny right now, go head break that shit down And say [chorus] I'ma dirty dance for ya, I'ma shake my ass for ya I'ma drop my pants when you get up on da dance floor I'ma dirty dance on ya, when I get my hands on ya Shawdy, I can prance when you get up on da dance floor

:) yay my b-day is saturday and i cant wait :)... im takin one of my fineee ass guy friends w/ me with my family so that should be fun :)... i really wanted to get a new car, like thats all i asked for..i dont think im gunna ever get that...but i guess ican only wish, right?... well i dont have too much to write on here - i just got home from the dentist ..again yes....i gotta go back next week for more work...no my teeth arent jacked up, my dentist just cant work correctly...i so need a new one...ud think my mom would realize it now...but newho - yall have a good week, ill be workin :(.. cept for saturday - im soo excited... and i might go get me a tattoo :)..who knows?! holla @ me on the comments -shan

oooh i feel sorry for bam margeras mom....i know she has to get pissed with the shit he does...lately its been sooo great ! :D i LOVE being single..damn u just dont know...i can go do whatever i want and not have to worry about anything! i met a really sweet guy but theres one thing that sucks..cant tell you that thou lol...its a secret.. i say i wanna be single but this guy.....sexy! :D ... im so bad..anyway thou, not too much goin on here - just been working alot lately...makin the money...might be in raleigh for my job next week with one of the managers to help out since our job has a new park opening up in raleigh and they need help so ..here i am :) cant wait .....cuz i get paid to go and stay in a hotel and its all paid for and everything...niceeee.. :D... i wanna go shopppin too... but let me go i gotta go eat some dinner w/ mi madre...get at me on the comments - i need some madddd lovin! :) -shan

damn i gots a HUGE headache.. :(...i need to learn how to stop yelling so much making an ass of myself at work...lol but hey thats me and i love making ppl laugh. then i die with aheadache after i leave...or maybee its my sinus....either way- still debating on whether or not i wanna go out tonight..hmmm well imma end this bc not too much to talk about....im worn out from talking all day.... :) i might get at this thing later ...ta ta for now!

HEY READ HERE FIRST- i need some of yall to comment me w/ some new songs or any songs really..like rap pop r&b nething that u think sounds good...bc i need to make a new car mix and i cant think of any good songs!...so hit me up please! :) thx! GRR... i hate parents when they think they know what is right for their child....im almost 18 in july...and my mom is doing the same shit she made me do last year...go to the psychologist. and just bc she has problems - she thinks i have them...me and her both realized it was stupid last year but she does it again now?..wtf?...i open up to my friends and friends only...the ones that i know are there and wont judge me....i dont opento my family. I CANT open up to my family...thats impossible bc they run their mouths too much and in the end they all judge me.. but shouldnt it be the other way - like your family is there when ur friends arent?... i thought that...but i guess i was proven wrong... anyway thou . i gotta go to this psychologist shit today at 4...im not too happy about that...i think my mom thinks its hilarious bc i have no choice. hey, i really dont have to go ...and i wasnt until i was threatened to hvae my car taken away..which is my only escape from this place so i mean - i couldnt do that...so ill do this one day appearance and no m ore for me. then igotta go to dinner w/ my dad and i think both my sisters..not sure yet.. i shall see....then out w/ my boys.... i wish my 2 girls would come home from daytona im getting kind of lonely bein hte only girl around....which i hate most females...and yeah i am a girl but...i mean b4 u think im a bitch for saying that, how many girls out there really get along with other girls if your with ur guys and other sketch females are there..... u kno u gunna have tension between them... i can get along with few but idont chill w/ alot.. and thats just bc i get along with guys better lol... i have nothing against girls....i just cant get along with most girls.... im confusing my self now... anyway thou - i gotta go get up outta this house - wish me luck at this doctor place... hollas ;) YAY for irish people! ;) hehe -shan

so i figured out that my dentist fucked up....when he gave me the shot to numb my mouth to fix my tooth, he caused a "injection infection" meaning that my mouth is sore in the bottom and i get to be put on antibotics...how kind of him!...such a nice man..... so yeah - i went to ANOTHER dentist for them to tell me that...bc mine went on vacation ... so um....hopefully my mouth will be much better now.. :)... im fixin to go off w/ my boy...and chill out for the day....not sure yet what...i might go to the mall and go shopping?..hm ..anyway - not too much goin on really , i was suppose to go to georgia to see shani but something happened and i didnt go :(.... but imma go - and hit this shit up later.. ;) -shan

i just got back from waffle house..yum! :)....until i found out they didnt take credit cards and had to run up the street to an atm..JACKASS!...thats their fault...who fuckin doesnt take credit cards...damnit.....bullshit -anyway ... so um today was alright.... work sucked - from 5-midnight NONSTOP we were so busy...and the weather wanted to be gay and then we thought we were going to get rained out and well um...it didnt...so i did half this shit for nothing..anyway thou - im gettin pissed on how this thing will never save ne of my entries anymore...i dont know hopefully this will save.... BUT its 2:30 and igotta work in the am...so ill get at this thing later :) -shan

yippy! :) i met me someone new and extremely nice... i was so excited..! :) thanks michelle, i love you xoxoxox but ill leave it at that bc i gotta get ready for work - then out for the night!.. and then us 4 are going jetskiin on the lake... :) YAY!! hollarrrr ;) -shan

goddd i just got home from the dentist...it sucked!.... the stupid nurse - gr i just wanted to slap her with my hand... but i was enjoying the gas mask so i was out of it like a motherfucker lol.... i decided at hte beach i wanted to chip off a piece of my tooth in the back causing it to hurt really bad getting it fixed almost 2 weeks later lol..cept it just started hurting...but anyway - i gotta go BACK to another doctor today ... this day is already adventerous! ohhh shitty i got a new fav. song ...well i dont think its that new...but since i just heard it - its new to me! :) .. so ill leave yall at that! holla @ ya girl ;) "Grind With Me" [Hook 1] Baby grind with me Relax your mind take your time with me I love you deeper if you cry for me Now come and kiss me till yo body gets weak Just grind with me baby Grind with me Relax your mind take your time with me I love you deeper if you cry for me Now come and kiss me till yo body gets weak Just grind with me baby [Verse 1] When I grind I make'em say ahh Slow grind be my day job I grind in the back of my car Keep it movin like a seesaw I make'em laugh and giggle Cuddle a little Kiss on ya neck Like girl let me see that thing jiggle Girlfriend your body's so raw I could tell you a superstar B.l.u.e.s.t.a.r. I could tell around the block how sexy you are I drink red bull so I keep stamina What's my name What's my name What's my name Prettie rickie pretty boy Doing pretty good thangs Makng pretty good change Getting pretty good From these pretty pretty chicks Getting pretty damn rich Prettie rickie rickie rickie and the maverix [Hook 2] Baby grind with me Relax your mind take your time with me I love you deeper if you cry for me Now come and kiss me till yo body gets weak Just grind with me baby Grind with me Relax your mind take your time with me I love you deeper if you cry for me Now come and kiss me till yo body gets weak Just grind with me baby [Verse 2] Light this candle let me set the scene for you baby Out the shower so fresh so clean baby Staring in your eyes I could see the fire Got you hyptnotized Do you feel the vibe Hoooa Hoooa Hoooa Hoooa Staring in your eyes I could see the fire Got you hyptnotized Do you feel the vibe [Prehook] Step one You kissing on me Step two Girl you killin me softly Step three Now you see why you chose me Step four And ooh you vibing with me [Hook 3] Baby grind with me Relax your mind take your time with me I love you deeper if you cry for me Now come and kiss me till yo body gets weak Just grind with me baby Grind with me Relax your mind take your time with me I love you deeper if you cry for me Now come and kiss me till yo body gets weak Just grind with me baby [Verse 3] Slick got mo game than a lil' bit Baby girl five five brown eyes with the thick lips Thick thighs with the slim hips Sugar honey ice t Baby girls is so sweet and a bag of chips I like to catch when she coming home Lights out girl you know it's on Looking good like a sundae cone You got me open No sugar coatin Love john is strokin' No joking Girl I focus The bedroom smoking Get some air up in this room girl Ah ah ah ah If loving you is wrong Then I don't wanna be right So I'm a take my time and do it right Cause we got all night Cause we got all night Baby girl just [Hook 4] Baby grind with me Relax your mind take your time with me I love you deeper if you cry for me Now come and kiss me till yo body gets weak Just grind with me baby Grind with me Relax your mind take your time with me I love you deeper if you cry for me Now come and kiss me till yo body gets weak Just grind with me baby

i have the biggest headache..holy shit oh my god.....and i tried to put some beach pictures on here from 1st week..like a link to it...but i cant get my entry to save with the link in it..its being gay... hm i dont know...maybe ill try it on my user info..yeah - if you wanna see my beach pictures just go to my user info... and if it isnt there then it didnt work...ok so yeah anyway- i got a headache, gotta go to work at 5... went to bed this morning at 4 am ... god only knows why ... i hate worrrkin grrr....workin til 9 wasnt too bad..then workin til 10..sucked...now workin til 11 on the weeknights bc its summer- SUCKS... i hate it..grr. so anywho - i need to stop being lazy i guess... so here i am ramblin again bout nothin so imma end this and go lay down before work - comment me! :)

GOD i have a toothache :(... and if my dentist tomorrow tells me its bc of my tongue ring ill slap him silly...lol its something i ate i think- ... so i gotta get up at 9 am..ill already be pissed off bc ill be wakin up ass crack early...then off to another appt. at 2:30...then hopefully my tooth will stop hurting tomorrow bc iam in so much friggin pain..damnit billy....ok so i tried to get my pictures from picturetrail and it erased one of my entries...i fixed that thou..and then erased my name under my user info..wtf? ... and my age [0]. hm..well guess ill fix that later...but if uwant them - IM me on aim... butrflykissez5.... so imma go lay in bed while my tooth painfully takes over :(.... Have you met the FARM HAND!?? ::slap:: oh i love me some ashton "the farmhand" kutcher...he could slap me with his farm hand anyday HAhahaha right...hollas! -*shan

ahh i feel great! :) i just loveeee taking showers they make me feel so CLEAN...well -- im not dirty but u kno...that fresh feeling ya get? ...lol im weird im guessing...anywho - i got chinese downstairs waitin for me ..then im off for the day to see my boy ;)...and my PM and PB.... .... 3 of the very few ppl who i trust and like... so that makes me very happy today .... last night at monterrays, i got this small ass kids plate....well i THOUGHT it would of been small..but instead it waslike this huge ass taco plus another taco...hows a 10 yr old suppose to eat htat if an 18 yr old cant?....well i also took my medicine yesterday so that could be why lol...damn that stuff .... and everyone had this HUGE plate of food i felt like a little kid but to me my food was huge... oh well....i want me some more cheese dip...yum yum!... that shit is ggggreattt ....SO yeah anyway - im out...i got bored and decided to write about random shit! :) hit me up on the comments :) -i heart me some JML! ;) the ONE thing that makes me smile! *shan

hmm...im guessing its obvious to what is on tv by my entry title..lol.... work sucked today- i had new ppl on my drawer today and it came up short 148 bucks...how? i dont know....but no one is allowed to work my drawer now cept me...but anyway - so uhhh...got off work and i went to meet my PM lol...we went to kroger...then to get my car from the mall...and went over to (: jut's :) and prestons.... all watched napolean dynamite at their brothers house...left and went to monterrays----yay for monterrays!...boo for the feeling afterwards! lol. so yeh-- then me and justin watched tv for a bit and then took a nap ;)..ah so thats what you call it! lol. and i just got home ehhhhh bout 20 minutes ago..and im tired as fuck.. that special someone (: :) made my day!!! :) heh....and then what else is great is ill be in the big ATL next week monday-wednesday with my playboy crew..well 3 of them...and i get to see my SHANI LYNN! yippy :) but anyway - i got alot on my mind...ill leave u with this song....i LOVE this song! "Can You Stand The Game" (feat. Co-Ed) [Verse 1: Pastor Troy] Sometimes I feel like I am stuck between a bad dream Running this race thank the Lord for his amazing grace Yes I believe, blessed wit G's that's around me Forevermore a thug buddy you can't clown me, that's on the court Give me war, strength and power daily Lord bless my lady, don't let situations drive her crazy Baby I know, everyday it's like I gots to go, never no time Everything's gone be straight though, I'm on the grind Love is blind, I can see it now It's 20/20 from the 'Burban to the Benz now A fifth of Remi, it ain't many that can maintain But boo I love you cause I know that you can stand the game Stand the game [Chorus: Co-Ed] Sunny days, everybody loves them Tell me baby can you stand the game Storms will come, this we know for sure Tell me baby can you stand the game [Verse 2: Pastor Troy] Sometimes I wonder how did I become so lucky A million hoes, now I got a gurl that loves me It's kind of funny cause I never been the one for love All I was thinking bout was money or selling drugs, that's what it was Young rich nigga, hoes a dime a dozen The older that I grew, I knew a ho ain't nothing It's more than fucking that was high school shit I moved my gurl in, it's me her and the pits Six in the yard, I give thanks to God For making it easy though they say it would be hard And me and my gurl gone stack it up for a while And when I wake up, first thing I see is her smile And when she has my child I'll be the happiest on earth And I'm a be there every second of it's birth And it don't even matter, if it's a girl or it's a boy Cause the last name is gone be Troy Huh, the game [Chorus: Co-Ed] Sunny days, everybody loves them Tell me baby can you stand the game Storms will come, this we know for sure Tell me baby can you stand the game [Verse 3: Pastor Troy] Sometimes I wonder do you miss me how I miss you Can't wait to git back to the crib so I can kiss you It crack me up because you could have been done gave it up But you stay with me cause no matter what you give a fuck Therefore we stuck-together like paste and glue, hey baby its me and you Forever we made a vow, so we gots to do it now I know you believe in me, just say what you wanna be And we will have everything, if you can just stand the game [Chorus: Co-Ed] Sunny days, everybody loves them Tell me baby can you stand the game Storms will come, this we know for sure Tell me baby can you stand the game [Repeat]