Still You Push Me To See Something I Can Never Be

Lena wrote me this wonderful note in my yearbook. She's so awesome! But I don't think I'm going to have kids anytime soon. I feel so American and ignorant and inadequate. I wish I was from Zimbabwe, or Bhutan, or the Falkland Islands, and then I would feel better. I am so horribly fake, I don't know what to do. There are all these projects I have to do for school. I should stop procrastinating and do them, but it's Friday. Ah, excuses. Horse show on Sunday. Wooah. That will be so sweaty.
I must talk or else I'm weak Let no one know my shell's hollow False world created I just watch it come to life
~~~~~~~` A - AGE: 17 B - BAND LISTENING TO MOST RECENTLY: HIM, Iced Earth, Angel Dust, Sepultura C - CRUSH: Orange? D - DAD'S NAME: Andy E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: Lena F - FAVORITE BAND: All the good ones. G - GUMMY BEARS OR WORMS: The both have gelatin :O oh horrors! H - HOMETOWN: Vienna, Austria (sike) I - INSTRUMENT: Sometimes instrumentals may or may not be good. J - JUICE: Orange is nice. K - KIDS: Are jerks, I've decided. L - LONGEST CAR RIDE: 14 or 17 hours. My family drove to the Floriday gulf coast. M - MOM'S NAME: Sue N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: 1 (million!) Not really. O - ONE WISH: Get my Acts together. P - PHOBIAS?: Being lost, talking to strangers, slugs. Q - QUOTE: "It is not the critic who counts. Not the man who points out how the strong man stumbled or where the doer of deeds could have done better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly, who errs and comes short again and again; who knows the great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause. Who, at the best, knows in the end the triumph of high achievement and who at the worst, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those timid souls who know neither victory nor defeat." R - REASON TO SMILE: It shows off my (not) lovely braces gaah. S - SOMETHING YOU REGRET: Getting black hair dye on my carpet T - TIME YOU WAKE UP: 5:45 U - UNKNOWN FACT ABOUT ME: I have extrodinary delusions of grandeur. It's rather arrogant of me. I am arrogant. I hate it. V - VEGETABLE YOU HATE: ONIONS. (or death) W - WORST HABIT: I say things I have no intention of doing, I complain about silly things, and I mope aroud alot. X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD: Teeth, finger, probably other ones. Y - YUMMY FOOD: My sandwitches I make. Z - ZODIAC SIGN: Sagittarius, fools.
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I wish I was from Australia. Because then I would live there. I love Austraila. It is the best country ever, and I only saw the east coast. Or England. I like England, though I've never actually been there. All the good internet shops are based in England. Which means I can't afford to buy the clothes, because apparently, US money is worthless. :(
I wish it was $30. There is this one site, which is probably pricey by UK standards, but is INSANE by US dollars. One corset top was like...seven hundred US dollars. Crazy. Too bad too, because the clothes are amazing.
Guess who I met? The freakin' drummer from the 69 eyes. Ha. Hottt!
Hey, just wanted to say what's up.. And cool diary.. Hit up my diary if ya want :) MSN messanger: kittie_ryan@msn.com... laterz :) Kittie
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I think I might love you....
I am drunk and so..?=
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