a hidden world of hurt && lies,
it`s hard for her to even realize:
love isn`t all about butterflies... *SiGH* its the way he's making me fall in love everytime i talk to him, that is really forcing me to be scared. Hes becoming that of my best friend...falling for best friends doesn't work. Look where it has gotten me....i lost the last one. its the way i have slowly turned dependent on him...he holds my life in his hands. the feeling of depending on him, having him be my one and only savior.....scares me and hurts me. i [adore] that he has the power to make me extremely && truly happy. it helps so much...&& he willingly will...&& he actually cares about me as a person. it all feels like i am over looking something. something huge. life shattering. friends scare me. i dont want to lose them. especially him ♥