I hate my life. I am only writing cause I feel like venting. Why can't I have a relationship. Even when I find someone that has been through everything I have there can be nothing between us. I just thank myself for always keeping my cool and never getting involved. I hate seeing good women going for assholes. Do you women just love to be treated bad? How can any one expect a elationship to last without trust? I tried explaining that to her. She broke up with her b/f for that reason last night. She uses me for comfort and then takes him back again. She thinks I am trying to break them up so I could have a chance with her. I don't want to see her get hurt repeatedly. I don't want to be her b/f. besides I have already had her. Did she forget that she fucked me before him. I didn't care when she started seeing him cause I thought he would be good for her, better than I could be. She fucked my brains out last night and today she was back with him. She is just a horny little slut I guess. I don't care. I hope she has fun trying to run a relationship where her b/f trusts me more than her and doesn't really know me at all. I need a vacation with some friends before I go completely nuts. I started my workout routine again cause my soon to be brother in law found the weights. I also practiced my fighting styles some today. I had a lot of energy and wanted to cause something pain today. Then I found out about her and I feel sorry that she can't see it won't last. I have been doing wonderful for those of you that actually read this and occassionally talk to me. I have been working extremely hard lately and need an escape. Write me a line sometime. Goodnight