Christmas 2005 merry christmas x3mommy's cutest gift x3the love of my life x3 family x3

I don't wanna go another day So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind Seems like everybody is breaking up And throwing their love away But I know I got a good thing right here That's why I say Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u I don't wanna go another day So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind See the way we ride, in our private lives Ain't nobody gettin' in between I want you to know that, you're the only one for me And now, ain't nothing else I can need And now, I'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me I got you, we'll be making love endlessly I'm with you Baby you're with me So don't cha worry about People hanging around They ain't bringing us down I know you, and you know me And that's all that counts So don't cha worry about People hanging around They ain't bringing us down I know you, and you know me And that's, that's why I say Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u

so i wish everyone would quit leaving sitD... its really getting lonely on here..

aw i love my baby david. hes so precious x3 Date: November 17, 2005 Time: 1:26 am Weight: 8 lbs 8 oz Length: 21 in Place: Palm Springs, California i got home from the hospital last night (friday) at bout 7:30 and was exhausted. i still am. after being in there since 11 o'clock wednesday moring.. but thats how it goes.. it was definitly worth it.. the past 9 months were crazy and tiring and a bit painful at times but once i held my baby for the first time.. it was like wow nothing else in the world matters more to me than him. it was worth every bit of it. the only thing is.. is that there was way too many people at the hospial. i was so upset about it but at the ame time i was so out of it i didnt say anything.. looking back now i really wih i would have.. who goes to the hopital for the birth of a baby and in the process of waiting gets drunk? how rude and inconsiderate is that. and then once the babys born, they surround him and touch him and everyhing even before i get to.. that really hurt. i wish i could have changed that. it was really embarassing having them do that on the birthing floor. im pretty ashamed of that and needless to say, im not accepting them at visitors in my home until they apologize for that. it was very rude. other than all that it was the best time of my life. i received the most precious gift there is and i will love him and protect him for eternity. one love x3

Everywhere you go is everywhere I’ve been You finish all my sentences before they begin And I know that look in your eyes It's like I've seen you before about a million times In another life, in another life maybe In another life you must have been mine - ashlee simpson [in another life] ---------------------------------------------------------------------- soo its nov. 6 and still no baby :( its been a long time and im SO ready.. wish he would have come yesterday like everyone said he was going to.. had contractions the past two days but not true labor ones so im bummed about that.. but yea babys not due to come til friday the 11th so we'll see.. but anywho.. how is everyone else? doing well i hope.. jeeze i dont ever kow what to write about in here anymore. its like i have nothing to write about but theres so much going on... maybe thats what it is.. maybe its just too much to write.. i dont know.. hmm i guess ill go for now.. talk to me.. leave me some love.. im getting lonely on here.. x3 me

so wow i cant believe theres this many people at home and online on haloween night.. whats up with that? why am i? i have an excuse.. trust me if i was okay i would DEF. be out right now... but no.. instead im sitting here cramping like i have been since last night going through false labor.. its really exhausting and its getting painful.. i jus want to get through halloween without having him and then ill be fine.. until its over tho.. ill be on edge.. im gonna go try laying down and hope it goes away.. hope everyone has a good halloween. and eats lotsa candy.. i wish i were! x3 always, me

wow so i cant believe how its been almost 2 months since ive written a new entry in here.. where the hell did the time go? it flies by so fast! well yea ive been really busy like always and im so freaking exhausted right now. im like falling asleep typing this and is only 8:20 pm. lol how sad! anywho.. for some reason i dont even know what to write? seems like my life is so uninteresting but thats SO not the case.. i recently started selling AVON and meet mark. so my mind has been going 54769765 miles an hour on getting this business started. i love it though! its so much fun! you should definitly looking into buying their products. theyre way cool. or maybe even consider selling the yourself! you can go to my website at www.youravon.com/mhinks if you want to check out the products and/or sign up to become a representative. but yea enough of my trying to get more sales shpeels (spelling?) lol what has everyone else been up to? anything fun and/or interesting that you might for some odd reason feel like sharing? come on people i KNOW you cant be as boring as i am! talk to me! lol kay hit me up.. x3 always, me

ew im such a baby! its night time and im alone and i hate it! its so scary! i have the dog in here with me to protect me but its still scary! oye.. someone watch over me! hmm so today i had school and i hate school! shitty.. i have tons of hw.. i know i have a week b4 i have to go again and turn it in but i am going to be SO busy this week its not even funny.. i have to change my room and make rrom for the baby.. ive got 2 baby showers with tons of people coming so i have to make room for all that stuff too! crazy stuff.. so my mom is gone to LA taking care of my grandpa for who knows how long.. and zack is gone at his sisters doing some work.. and im sitting here.. lonely.. eating my biscuits and typing in here to help keep me awake.. im too afraid to fall asleep lol... anywho.. ima go do hw or something to keep me awake... comment me and keep me busy! keep me company online.. PLEASE! hah x3 me :)

wow so what do you do when you get a call from ur grandpa saying hes in the hospital with a broken hip? i seriously cried.. my grandpa will be 83 in december and hes actually VERY healthy.. and he doesnt act like hes in his 80s... he walks 2-4 miles every morning, rides motorcycles, and is in perfect health.. but yesterday morning he called saying he was at a stoplight on his motorcycle and he had one foot on the bike n one on the ground.. well i guess he didnt realize that the bike was leaning and when he finally did, he couldn put his foot down fast enough and he fell.. the bike pinned his leg down and he broke his hip... thank god he wasnt hit but wow.. it happened on tuesday and he just called yesterday.. they were supposed to transfer him to a different hospital at 6 last night but he had a fever so they wanted to keep him overnight for observation.. his nurse said hed call us in the morning to let us know how things are going and when they are going to transfer him... well its 12:30 and still no call.. i hope hes okay.. theyre going to be moving him to a rehabilitation facility where they said hell probably be for about a monthanand a half when he can walk again.. im so upset about this... why did it have to happen to him? im not wishing it upon anyone else but i just dont understand why this had to happen.. ------------------------------------------------------------------------- **updated** just thought id put up some memories of the good times ive been talking about.. kelly & i elena, ashlee, kelly, me, & tyna kelly & i again tyna, me, & shelli p.s. mitch.. who's this "foxxy" chick.. ditch her lol jk jk i kno im still ur #1! hahah luv you! x3

ew im SO sick right now its not even funny.. i feel miserable.. :( i havent been this sick in i dont know how long.. the million medicines the doctor gave me arent working and i just feel horrible... i dont even know how i got sick? it just came all of a sudden on wednesday night and hasnt gotten better since.. bleh. so yea... thats my life right now... not feeling well ::tears:: hopefully ill get better soon.. i had plans for this weekend! hopefully i can still fulfill them. newho.. im hungry so ima go make some soup.. maybe my throat will get better.. until next time..

so im feling better thanx to mitch :) shelli you made me feel better too.. i dont know what happened to us all.. we all went our separate ways as do most high school friends but we always said that would never happen to us.. now look where we are... what is going on? we def. need to get together! all of us.. even if its for the last time.. which i dont think it will be but.. thats the direction it looks like things are going.. who knows.. i love you tho! if we dont all end up keeping in touch, at least we know you and i will! thats all that matters, right? haha jk but yea i wanna see Just Like Heaven!!! {the new reese witherspoon) we should all go see it on friday? talk to the other girls and let me know! lots of love! x3

have u ever felt betrayed? im sure you have.. i know everyone feels betrayed at one time or another.. i guess today was my turn.. it really wasnt a big deal i guess but for some reason it really hurt.. ill probably be over it soon but that doesnt change the fact that what happened happened and i feel the way i do. i would never do anything to hurt a friend of mine.. i would make room.. i didnt do anything to deserve it.. but it got me thinking about other friends.. i really dont feel like anyone cares like they say they do. i could be wrong but thats the way it comes off.. kind of hurts when things like thhis happen.. if you are reading this and have felt betrayed im sorry.. no one deserves to feel this way i dont care how close or not you are to the person.. somebody please cheer me up :(

okay, so... where the hell is everyone... did everyone just decide to say screw sitD or what? erica, nellie, kelly, shelli, tyna if ur reading this... START USING UR DAMN DIARY AGAIN! its been like moenths since weve written in these things... myspace is like taking over everyone's lives... we need to get back to this.. i used to write in these things like 2 times a day... times have changed... hmm well i love you all and i hope you come back to me.. call me ladies, kay? mitch i miss you too.. ive been SO busy lately sorry i havent gotten back to ur email or anything... oh yea i got a new email so ill send u one letting u know it... hope all is well with you.. sorry ur move didnt work out... things will get better.. and if u n cindy arent working out then it just wasnt meant to be.. long distance is hard and it hardly ever works out... youll find someone i promise! if i can do it.. so can you! luv ya! x0x0x kim

okay mitch im here lol --------------------------------------------------- Put down the magazine and get off the phone Theres a place I wanna show u and it wont take long Take a ride Take a ride Its lookin like we’re getting there Over here, comin clear Place that has no rhymes, or times, or crimes Just good times Just good times Take me away To a place where the good times good times roll Don’t let me stay In a place where this hate can steal my soul... Got myself worked up over nothing today All the trash is in my head I gotta throw it away Its alright Its alright Its lookin like we’re getting there Over here, comin clear Place that has no rhymes, or times, or crimes Just good times Just good times Take me away To a place where the good times good times roll Don’t let me stay In a place where this hate can steal my soul This is it, I’m finally here And all the blurry lines are clear And everything that I cant see Seems to make more sense to me Why the hell cant I just let it go, let it go, yeah Take me away (away) where the good times good times roll (roll) Don’t let me stay (stay) where this hate can steal my soul Let the good times roll --------------------------------------------------- woo! LOVES that song! tommy rocks! hmm so where to begin? ive been so busy all summer long and now to top it all off school had to start... shitty. oh well at least i only go one day a week for like 20-30 mins.. that helps! well yea i really have nothing interesting to write about right now and my mac and cheese is getting cold so ima eat it and think of something a lil more meaningful... until then.. LOVES YOU! x3

so yea i am annoyed/excited.. ill explain why.. i just HAVE to get this off my chest.. its just SO typical for a girl to let the way she feels about a guy blind her from the truth about hows just like every other guy in the world... hes only thinking with the little boy in his pants and nothing more.. and girls let guys do that to them because they get so attached to the way they make them feel.. if someone were to say something to her she wouldnt listen.. she would be like "no hes not like that" blah blah.. but she really doesnt know that.. i know this because ive been through that SO many times just like everyone else.. but with every girl who goes through that.. they meet a new guy.. and they think "omg he's perfect.. he's so different than everyone else" but they forget that they said the EXACT same thing about the last guy, and the one before that, and the one before that,and so on.. i think its definitly time to WAKE UP! realize that all guys this age are the EXACT SAME.. no matter how much you dont want to believe it... its SO TRUE! and the ones that arent.. are the ones you've hurt.. every girl has pushed at least one guy away from them before, not realizing that they ARE the right person, but theyre just too damn BLIND to see it.. i was just like all those girls once.. and look where i ended up.. [for those of you who actually know me] TRUST ME i never thought it would end up this way.. but sometimes life is funny.. God has plans for you and even tho you may think you know what it is, he always throws in a surprise for you.. and there will be MANY more of them along the way.. please dont sell yourself short.. dont let yourself be fooled by anyone.. in the end.. you'll realize it wasnt worth it. [[[[[[[[[[enough of that]]]]]]]]]] kelly im excitd to go to laughlin in what? like 10 mins? WOOP! hurry up and get ur bitch ass over here so we can go GRUB! im HUUNGRY! well ill write when i get back on sunday.. i heart you all x3

hmm.. father's day.. too bad i dont have one

O-M-G! eww i HATE HATE HATE earthquakes! why the hell do i live on the other side of a major fault line! ew it was a 5.6! i mean ive been through a 7.5 or so and that was hella scary but that was like when i ws 5! omg i just got up andi was walking back to my bed and first i hear like a rumbling sound n then i feel the house shaking and things falling and i literally leaped into my moms lap cuz she was on my couch in my room lol omg i havent been this scared since the 7.4! whooooaaa i just heard that it damaged super wal mart.. lol ew they said people felt in all the way in LA which is how many miles away like 200?!?! crazy shtuff! ive gotta calm down i cant stop shaking! ahh!

soo kelly were FAT and thats all i have to say about that! lol hmm for some reason i am not writing inthis thing as much as i used to.. i always get on here and want to write so much yet i feel like i cant because i feel like i have so mucht ohide.. even tho i dont want to hide it anymore and im sort of starting not to.. i still feel like i need to.. maybe im just weird? i dont know.. we'll see what happens --------------------------------------------------- i dont want to fall to pieces i just wanna sit n stare at you. i dont wanna talk about it and i dont want a conversation.. ijust wanna cry in front of you. i dont wanna talk about it cuz im in love with you. --------------------------------------------------- you always hear about that one or two people at every highschool that go through something tough.. but u never think it would be you.. when the time comes and you relaize that ur that girl you always said you would never be.. its kind of heart breaking.. but then you hear something and realize that you should feel lucky that you have the oppportunity because there are so many other people who wont ever have it. thats how i feel right now.. but i alwaso have to face the opinions of others who dont even know how tough it is.. all they do i criticize and think of how much of a bad person you are.. i swear the worst things happen to the best people. its so sad that people have to deal with some things so unexpectedly and then have to deal with other people on top of it all. people can be so insensitive. all they do is gossip about something that isnt even any of there business but for some godforsaken reason they feel the need to make it theres. theres so many things i wanna say but so much that i dont at the same time.. im so conflicted with my inner self.. it gets hard a times.. i wish the world wasnt so judgmental.. --------------------------------------------------- you cant jump the tracks were like cars on a cable and lifes like an hourglass glued to the table no one can find the rewind button girls so cradle your head in your hands... and breathe... just breathe theres a light at each end of this tunnel you shout cuz your just as far in as youll ever be out and these mistakes youve made, youll just make them again if you only try turnin around --------------------------------------------------- just remember.. although it may seem like it at times.. god doesnt give you any more than you can handle

Another day has almost come and gone, Can't imagine what else could go wrong Sometimes I'd like to hide away, Somewhere and lock the door A single battle lost, but not the war 'Cause tomorrow's another day And I'm thirsty anyway So bring on the rain It's almost like the hard times circle round, A couple drops, and they all start comin down Yeah, I might feel defeated, And I might hang my head, I might be barely breathing, But I'm not dead 'Cause tomorrow's another day And I'm thirsty anyway So bring on the rain I'm not gonna let it get me down I'm not gonna cry And I'm not gonna lose any sleep tonight 'Cause tomorrow's another day And I am not afraid So bring on the rain

i dont know exactly what aloof means but it sounds about right so i decided to go with that... kelly and jessie i didnt forget about either one of you.. u kno i love you guys too! lol but umm yeaa.. my life isnt very interesting right now so i really dont know why im writing..actually its pretty interesting but not enough to where the whole world needs to know about it.. just me.. so i wont say anymore on that issue.. i know i told everyone i was going to go back to school next year but im not.. im eiher staying at horizon or leaving california.. ill miss you all very much but well still be able to talk online n stuff so no worries... its just something that i need to do. ill explain when the time comes.. well i g2g get ready to go out to the railroad tracks and stuff with kelly so ill talk to yall later.. i love you all... byee x0x0x *kisses*