this week hasn't been too bad, but overall... things still suck. i keep thinking of that movie, "the replacements" and how when the team is in the locker room, they're talking about their fears... and keanu reeves (i think his character was falco) said that he was afraid of "quicksand", & that's when one thing goes wrong, then another... then another... and eventually everything slips away. that's how i feel right now. i've worked so hard in school. i used to be such a perfectionist, i used to want to be valedictorian. what happened? one thing after another just keeps going wrong. i've stopped caring. i miss how i used to be. i miss having that drive. i miss being proud of myself. what happened? where am i going? i need this weekend.