im so not happy! im such a loser! all my relationships fail because of him! the only dumb fuck ive ever really loved!!! and he thinks im a freak...i dont blame him...most ppl do! lol im always rejected ppl in hopes that he'll change his mind! but i just hav to wake up and fucking realize that he'll never feel the way about me that i feel about him! its an awful feeling...but i should be used to it by now...oh well i need to stop bitching anyways! im feelin sorry for myself again! damnit! well today was the last day of school this year-2004. yayuh! im gona be so bored this week! lol but yea...im done happy holydays haha or stress days rather. tis the season to be stressed the fuck out! love ya all