Dear self: I find myself annoyed by all your petty desperations. I've noticed how pathetic you've gotten...Obsession doesnt seem to work for you. When you finally come to the realization that life is in fact not as easy as you want it to be...Everything will become a lot harder. There is nothing out there that can save you, no such thing as magic...Nothing is going to pop out of no where and change your life. You are not special in any way shape or form..so stop trying to convince yourself that someday...one day...something spectacular will happen. Something you have been waiting for your entire life. You over-active imagination has caused you more pain than you're willing to admit. Stop using it. YOU WILL NEVER BECOME ANYTHING IMPORTANT. You are just one more of us, doomed to a life of normality. No one feels sorry for you. No one else thinks you deserve more than you have. Open your eyes.