well i guess comming home was one big mistake. this house is discusting. no one will do anything but everyone complains. prime example, father is sitting around and yells at us to do the dishes so he can watch tv. why can't he do the dishes?? would it kill him? im also dissapointed in you. i know you can be great. but you are so stuborn and you dont' listen. i want to help you but you just treat me like shit. i ask for you help because i figure you out of all people could understand what its like to live here. but i am wrong and you join their rankings and just sit around. you piss me off when your only defense is fuck you. you can't even come up with something better than that. you piss me off so bad when you act like you are so great. you are the one person who sets off my temper the most. when i was at school i thought and worried about you the whole time. i come home and you could care less. i never yell at anyone the way i yell at you. i hate the way you make me feel. i hope someday you will stop being so stubborn and start respecting me. because you don't and IT KILLS ME. you don't even know how much you HURT ME. whatever. im done. im going to go back to not caring about my family. im going to go back to the destructive life i was living. perhaps i should just drop outta school. maybe ill go back to drinking. at least then the pain was numb. and to think i quit drinking because i wanted to be a good sister. haha what a joke. im a failure. fuck me. and fuck the world.