so im starting this thing over. give it a go. put i am annoyed cause i can't get it too look nice like i want it to. anyways things are alright. i really like living here. i don't really want to go home this summer. i kinda feel alone because i haven't made many friends here. like i dunno. its really wierd. i am starting this journal over because i want to forget all the other stuff i wrote about that stupid kid. just stupid high school stuff. today emily got free cold stone ice cream i was so jealous. but i was also really happy for her. her bf is always here and i kinda get annoyed. cause its like i dunno i just want to be alone sometimes and he seems to always be here. it might be just me though. im kinda crabby lately. her friend madison is giving her a massage. i wish i had friends to give me a massage. heres one thing i don't understand. what is everyone's obsession with dating?? i mean ive come to realize that i am so young. like there are so many things that i need to experience. dating is for people who want to get married. boys are dumb. this whole ian situation kinda sucks. also, everyone is so depressed. i just wish everyone would quite feeling sorry for themselves and just i don't get it. i mean yeah i get sad but not depressed ya know. its sorta, sad. i understand depression but sometimes its hard to tell the diverence between real depressed people and the fakers. all i feel like doing is writing but i have nothing to really say. JESSICA guess what. i bet you are skinnier than i am now. i have gotten fat. i miss my sister. im glad im at college because then i miss her and i like not fighting with her. she is an awesome girl. and she doesn't need no stinky boyfriend. boys only want sex and thats bad. sex=babies. my birthday was a lot of fun. i got a snow board. its so super cool i love it very much. emily and i are gonna go look at snow board boots at ski hut soon. maybe there will be some on sale and i might have to tap into some saved up money to get some. you CAN'T not have your own snowboard equipment if you live here. its like a law. friggin randy moss got traded today. what a dick. i am going to try to quit swearing. mergin. leave me some comments lovers!