Im home from school and Im still sick.. im not really even sure whats wrong with me, but my stomach feels like its gonna explode, but my moms coming home today so I think im probably going to the doctors. Umm.. last night luke came over an gave me my math homework, and he cleaned my room, haha.. which i feel sooo bad about because its crazy in there.. and then he gave me drinks and food, lol and he wus just being soo nice to mee, and i felt like crap, because i couldnt do anything back. He was just really sweet, and i liked it.. but then he made me go to sleep at 9, cus i never end up going to sleep until like 2:30 or 3:00.. but its okay, cus im not tired today, i just feel like crap. Its wierd, cus when im walking i have to like bend over, or else my stomach hurts soooo baddd.. but even when im lying down sometimes it feels like someones jabbing a knife into my stomach and twisting it aroundd. lol Enough about that thoughhh.. theres more important things. Umm, okay.. in every relationship, like friends and more then friends, n families.. your gonne get in arguments or disagree about things, or get in fights. Well, with almost of all of my friends, i never end up getting in fights with, or i resolve the problem before it even gets close enough to becoming a figghtt. But this timee, its happening badd. Its different though, because the person its happening to i barely see anymore, but i still love them.. and i care for them alot, and they care for me too.. but thats the problem right now. Because, i never get angry at people or anything like thatt, and i just let out lots of my feelings towards like 2 people.. and this one person cant take it anymore, because the majority of what ive been talking about lately is something she just dosent wanna hear. She thinks im envolved in something that s not good for me at all, and basically.. she said i have to pick what i want more. And thats the thing.. i cant, i love her, i always have and weve gone through lots.. and i know ive complained about things, but im happy.. and i havent been for a while, and i know nothing will ever be perfect, but sometimes its pretty darn close.. because she dosent see all the good things that do happen. Im not saying the way she feels is wrong, because i cant do thatt.. but even if she dosent want me to talk about that part of my life, or to not make her envolved in it, she still has to be hapy for me.. and she can tell me what she thinks, but if were gonna stay as good of friends that we aree.. i cant pick right now, and i dont know how thats gonna work out. And i feel bad, because i know shes gonna hate me for it but things change really quickly, and things get better.. and they did, so im not suree. God i hate this. I dont like fighting with people, and ive never ever fought with her, but now shes like threatening our friendship if i dont make a choice.. and i know she cares for me n all, and thats why shes doing it, but if anythings going to be done about anything, its gonna be done because of mee.. and i love her so much, i dont know what im gonna do.. Okayy.. and that means nothing to anyone, lol so im moving on. Umm, actually ive got nothing else to say, except how i think im a nerd because i hate missing school. But thats alrightt, i just hate getting homework and having to catch up.. but i think im gonna go watch another movie. Ohh.. one more thing, i watched the most pointless movie before i came on here, and it made me mad..it was called Finder's Fee lol. The whole movie was about some winning lottery ticket that this one guy found in someones wallet. And it was all about how he felt guilty cus he took it, because the man whose wallet it was had came to claim it.. and well, all this stuff happens, and allt here friends begin to go crazy because they all find out how much the ticket wus wortthh..and the one guys girlfriend leaves him, cus he couldnt tell her he loved her, long story lol. anyways.. And then at the end, you think the tickets gone, and everyone leavess.. except the man with the wallet, and the guy who found the wallet. And the guy who found the wallet gives the man his ticket, and hes all happy and cant stop laughing.. and then he leaves. Then the guy who found the wallet calls his girlfriend and tells her he loves her, so u think everythings gonna work out, and then this guy shows up at his door, and says hes looking for his wallet.. because the other guy wus his brother in law. So i wus mad, because everything that happened in the movie had no point, and it wus all a big liee.. and then it ends, and the wrong person got the ticket.. haha im donee xox