hi everyone do you like what i've done to my sitdiary? let me know what you don't like and i will change it.

hey rhiannon if you're out there.... hehe ...... steve freak....... laura............ i have to talk to you about the PROMISE..... that is if you read this entry..... well bye for now peoples....

hey rhiannon.... if you're out there.... i've got something to say....... actually i have four things to say. steve freak, kissed ipod, wedding, 12 children........ you can't beat me up now since i'm no where to be seen.... hehe...... to amber: i don't know what to say. to marie: hehe.... moose........ to candice: PURPLE FUCKING TOFU!!!!!!! to samantha: dancing ant. to laura: hehe.......... faded............. hehe.... to kayla: thank you for listening. to madeleine: to katie: WONDER TEA!!!!!! LAUGHING LLAMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!! to katrina: FEAR MY FIST!!!!! FEAR IT I SAY!!!!!!!!! to steve: i don't know what to say. to everyone else: i don't know what to say again. i'm going to sing now. *starts singing faded* here are the lyrics: Soul Decision Faded When I get you all alone I'm gonna move in nice and close Nobody gonna interrupt my game Ever since you've been hanging around I've been trying to figure What I can say to you to get some play Couldn't we do that thing we did last night again Baby you and I'd be better than friends Don't you think it's time we went a bit further Every night when we say goodbye How can I help looking in your eyes? Wondering why you and I haven't hit it Can we get it on? I'm kinda faded but I feel alright Thinkin' about making my move tonight I can't pretend that you're only my friend When you're holding my body tight Cause I like the way you're making it move I like the way you're making me wait At the end of the night when I make up your mind You'll be coming on home with me Yeah you know you got it And you know I want it I can't wait to take you home (You know you got it and I) I don't wanna be rude at all I just wanna be where you go Think what we could do alone Couldn't we do that thing we did last night again Baby you and I'd be better than friends Don't you think it's time we went a bit further Every night when we say goodbye How can I help looking in your eyes? Wondering why you and I haven't hit it Can we get it on? When we first met That deal was stated You stepped like my steez The way we conversated Just another day Around the way With me up close everything's ok Cuz I'm not like the rest Indecision with the best Thrust from a full court press Just because they hated How's it go Faded it's pereverted but it has a good beat....... well..... bye.......... for now.

today... i feel as if nobody would care if i died. would you care if i died? i just feel as if i'm not needed in this world and everyone could live a happy life if i wasn't there. i just don't think i'm of any importants anymore.

hi peoples. i wish i could go to school... but i'm sick..... i hate being sick........ well thats all i can say....... except for that my brother is being a total ass because he's sleeping in the living room where the tv is so i can't watch anything. i'm probablly going to get him sick *smiles evily*. the sickness i have is very contadous... sorry if i spelled that wrong. well i'll write again later. bye.

wow......... A LOT OF PEOPLE ARE GOING TO HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MUHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! just joking........... but please leave me comments.

i'm tired. i feel crapy. leave me comments. and if you don't leave a comment.... YOU CAN GO TO HELL! ME: HAVE FUN! MUHAHAHAHA! bye-bye... for now................

here is another poem i wrote: There A Good Reason To Live As I walk down the road, I’m shaking with fear, The anger in my heart, I’ll probably meet my fate. The last memory, The last thought, Was me crying in my room, Thinking about how screwed up my family is. The sun is setting, The sky is getting darker, I can’t walk back, I can’t face the pain. Why can’t you understand, I know you want to help, But no one can help me, I need to be alone. If I could cry, If I could talk, If I could write about it, I would do so. I was blamed, I was yelled at, I was slapped, I have a right to leave. If we were happy, If we could smile, If we could laugh, We would. Our families screwed, Our life’s are screwed, We can’t even talk to each other, Because they think me and my brother aren’t important. If I could, If I knew, If I tried, This never would of happened. This noise, It keeps getting louder, The pain, Is killing me. Why do we have to fight, Why do we have to yell, All this pain is destroying my soul, It’s destroying my life. I told you about my life, But you didn’t care, No one cares, That’s why I left. When I was 11, When my brother was more of an ass, He choked me, But did you care? I want to die, I want to kill myself, Besides no one would really care, Besides hell wouldn’t be as bad as this world. tell me what you think about it.

If i look better, If i seem happy, I'm not. How i act, Is not how i feel. Deep inside my heart, I'm crying, I'm wanting to die. What can help me, What can get me through the bad times, Nothing. My smilies are fake, My laughs are dull, Is that what my life is supposed to be? The pain, The lies, It makes me wanna die. How was that poem? please let me know.

If the sky was blue, If the water was clear, If the sun shined, What would that mean? If there were good people, If there was happiness, If it didn't rain all the time, What would life be like? If we humans could fly, If we could live a happy life, If people were nice, Would we really be happy? If we could live forever, If there wasn't any wars, If there weren't any killing, What would life be like? This is what i'm saying, So please follow along, Even if there is only happiness in the world, It would be hell.

yesturday i had to go to a dinner party. there were huge round tables everywhere. so me and my parents sat at table 11. we had to sit by 2 other families. each of the families had 1 son (at table 11). one of them was about 7 or 8 years old and he winked at me (same with the other one). then they both stared at me. then one of them stared at my chest (he stoped thank god) (me thinking: are they hitting on me?. later my parents went to get one beer, it took them 1 hour and 30 minutes. by then it was 11:30 at night. i told this story to my friend laura and she laughed.

i'm sad. i want to cry. my heart is filled with pain. what should i do now? die. but if i die the whole world will cry. or will they? as my tears rush down my cheek, as my heart keeps pounding, life is ending. *crying* don't wake me up, it will make me feel worse.

i'm so bored. please leave me more comments.

steve..... like samantha said you are being mean. you aren't even e-mailing me anymore. why? i hope you have fun when a soccor ball hits your face. heh. everyone might think that thats stupid.... but you remember what happened last year. +_0

today almost all of my friends were sad. Marie, Arron, Katie i think, Luara m. Katrina, I think Samantha, well you get the point. Anyway, i sat there..... i was...... happy. i don't know why but when ever i'm happy someone is sad and when i'm sad someone is happy (almost all of my friends were upset). Tomarrow is a new day. smile. enjoy the last day of school this week. ^_^ ^_^ ^_^ ps: stupid yahoo.

hi, hi. LEAVE ME A COMMENT DAMMIT! sorry i'm just tired. SO DON'T MAKE ME MAD! again i'm sorry. LEAVE ME A COMMENT!!!!!!!!!!!

people say i draw good pictures. if you know me and you see me almost everyday then please tell me if you like my drawings. leave a comment please.

do you like green day? if you do leave a comment here. dont wanna be an amercan idiot!

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Thanks Everyone! remember to smile tomarrow! everyone's smile makes me happy. and i will finish! (block one) I want to say thanks to Luara, Marie, Candice, Arron, Luara M., Madeleine, Brittany, Taylor, Kayla, Steve, Samantha, Amber, Tracy, Katie, Matt, Matthew, Katrina, Dan, Declan (for of course being a idiot), Andi, Neil, Marcus, another Taylor, Moly, Hayden (even if he didn't do anything oh well) i guess Keneth, Lila, Masterj2cool (it's a username), Tozuca (another one) Erica, Nia, Hanna, Ashly, Sophia, Jenna, etc.