Yeah, last 24 hours are the worst times of my life, lol. Yeah, I never mentioned the whole me might being pregnant thing. Thanks Logan. Then all of the sudden...I find out that Logan is hitting on one of my best friends. And yeah it kind of hurt when I need him right now. Sure, I may have mentioned this to my friends. But apparently, I'm not allowed to tell my friends what is going on in my life, because Logan texts me all like "I don't like what you're telling people." Oh well what?! Am I supposed to lie in front of my friends. Because it is all just the truth. How is it. :/ Bleh I feel like puking. Peace.

You know, its nice to get things off of my chest. Because a lot of shit is constantly happening, and it sucks to keep it all in. Even if I only have one reader (lol), its a big relief. ............ Today was a tad bit better than yesterday. Why? Because someone who shall remain nameless [who I used to date] decided to call me last night and be a douche. He thinks all of the activities I do are dumb. Well guess what; since when is he god? He literally said "What I do is cool." Now, I am not getting mad because he called one TV show dumb. I am getting mad because every band, tv show, game, etc I like, he talks shit about! Even the ones /he/ listens to as well. Everything is supposed to go his way. And well, he didn't call me today. Which was a little bit nice...I mean I love him and all but damn, I need space too! And well, when he did text me, it was to ask me if I got my period. He think's I am pregnant, and I am getting tired of being asked. So yeah. Today was nice ^.^ xo.

~Woke up at 5am. ~Drove to Raleigh and back. ~Got home at 8. ~Went to bed at 8:40am. ~Felt like shit. ~Fell back asleep. ~Dad knocks on door and hands me a plate of biscuits and hashbrowns. ~Eats biscuits half asleep. ~Starts to doze off. ~Wakes up an hour later. ~Realizes there is bacon on my plate, too. ~Eats breakfast. ~Lays in bed watching Food Network on accident. ~Wakes up and realizes its 2pm ~Responds to all missed texts ~Goes out on the pourch ~Watches dad play Computer Monopoly ~Gets on computer and plays Speed Racer ~Downloads Space Invaders for her Project 64 Emulator. ~Plays Chuzzle Deluxe for like 5 hours, eventually getting a high school of 500,000+ ~Makes a glass of Cherry Kool-Aid and grabs a bag of jelly beans ~Logs onto Facebook to see she has no replies ~Logs onto Gaia and replies to messages ~Gets on Sit Diary and replies to a comment ~Types out entire day on her sitdiary. ^_^ Day over yet? Nahh. It's only 7pm! There is still pot to smoke and movies to watch :) xo.

Man, do I love the summer so much. The warm breeze in the air. The late evening sunset. The sweet stench of ganja in the air. It is almost perfect. All I need is my best friends in the world, some chill tunes, and I got memories of a lifetime. Man, friends are all you really need to survive. Summer is the best...I never want it to end. I just want to lay out in the breeze and enjoy what Mother Earth has to offer <3 Life is amazing. Peace. Love. Hippie.

Alright, now this is my first post in a really long time. But not much has changed. Okay...that's a lie. A lot has changed. But I still love My Chem and I am still just me. The problem is, I can't figure out how to redo my page and change the background pic. *Shrugs* Oh well. I kinda missed my little SD. I used to post on here so much in Middle School. Oh well. I am a Junior in High School! Holy shit! Lol. Well that will be all for now. I PROMISE I will be back on soon :) xoxo.

My Chemical Romance really did save my life. They helped me to stop cutting myself. They helped me to stop my depression. They helped me to be myself and actually like myself. My Chemical Romance means so much to me. They are my life and I would do anything for them. So thank you so much My Chem. I love you guys SOOOO much! --Mikey-- PS: Congrats to the new Ms Alicia Way!

Life is argh right now. I don't know what to do. My whole family is fighting. Living here isn't so easy. If my mom and dad arent fighting, then it's my mom and my grandma over stupid bullshit like the mail (im not even kidding). And people call me emo. But HELLO!!! You don't even know what it's like to have sooo much pressure on your shoulders and be expected to come through like nothing is wrong. So shut the fuck up. And yeah, I may have been a cutter. But don't talk about it unless i talk to you about it. BECAUSE ITS NONE OF YOUR FUCKING BUSSINESS. Stop telling your friends about it. Because some of you mofos are a lot weirder than I am. Sure, i may hang out with the gothic/alternative artistic kids, but atleast we are smart! atleast we are trying to succeed. so shut the fuck up. thank you and fuck you. -Mikey PS- this doesnt apply to everyone (:

Hey guys its me! It's been so long. I just got bored as hell today and i remembered that i haven't been on my lovely SitDiary in 567865453 months. So how is everyone? I'm glad to be back.

hopefully my emotions will settle down. but i cant live with the fact that gerard hates me....surprisingly enough....i want things to be okay btw me and her....but i feel she never wants to see me again

Hey i am finally back!!!

Well, i guess i am feeling better now-- Gerard doesn't hate me like i think she does-- i feel better and my self esteem level went up by one point. -ps: so we are clear-- i am over the cutting thing

Gerard- the reason why i haven't gotten over all of this is because you hurt me. you would be pissed to if i called you a cutter. this whole experience broke my confidence, made me feel degraded and lonely and also made me feel like every one hated me

well...my day keeps getting better and better... Gerard, the infamous Gerard whom i love entirely, hates me now...we are fighting over the whole "cutting contraversey"...see entry "Mikey's Point of View" and its comments. This will explain all. Its just that, there is no way jokongly to call someone a cutter. Plus when she called me a cutter, she had the most serious look in her face like Gerard Way did in the opening of the video for "Im Not Okay (I Promise)". I still think she thinks I am a cutter.

One night, i decided to go to my school and walk around. I needed to think. My sister, Gerard, just got killed by rabid dogs on the same hill i was walking on (the hill next to our football field). Suddenly, a man with long black hair and hazel eyes walked up to me. He told me to follow him... he was going to show me a cool hide-out. We walked down the hill into a shack. He stood behind me and i heard two click- bang sort of noises. I fall to the ground. My head was hurting. I woke up and hour later to see that both of us had been shot. I shut my eyes and next thing i know...im in hell. Now, i am Satan's right hand man...Gerard being his left. Me and my sister were finally reunited. Now, eveyday we haunt that hill. At my funeral, they sung Helena. At that point, I was damn proud of myself. Since Gerard's rabid death happened only a day before mine, our wakes and funerals were on the same day. When i saw Gerard in hell, a sudden stroke of happiness occured. I knew finally, we would rest in peace...together...

I still cant believe Gerard called Mikey a cutter. Sometimes, Gerard makes Mikey feel super emo. Gerard almost made fun of Mikey's asthma again but Mikey called her on it. PS- Im talking about me...in 3rd person...duh

looking back at the whole experience of getting made fun of for liking mcr...i am now laughing...if you see what I am saying... at first it was really depressing..you know...steve calling gerard a homo...hayden saying mcr sucks ass...but you cant let other people control the way you feel...and besides...hayden thinking mcr sucks ass is just his oppinion (hes not that smart anyways)...the moral of the story...what kills you in the end makes you stronger

I am sorry for not talking to you at PE... I just didn't feel like saying much... I was not pissed at you...so why would you think I was? Sure, it made me feel depressed when you wouldn't talk to me... Im Sorry- Invisible Mikey The reason why i wouldn't talk is because I thought you hated me...and when Gerard, my sister, hates me, i become depressed... so i was speechless... Sorry again- Invisible Mikey Also...you were never unloved...i felt i was the unloved one Sorry once more- Invisible Mikey

Hey guess what? Do you wanna know something sad? My sister, my own flesh and blood, thinks I'm a cutter. She thinks this because I have a bunch of wounds all over me. Knowing my sister thinks I'm a cutter is depressing and hurtful. This whole ordeal is giving me emotional scars. The thing is-- I earned my name (emocorpse14). Anyways, this shows she doesn't trust me. My point is...i'm not a cutter...I just don't want my sister to find out my secret... Yay for emo- Mikey

Why don't you ask the kids at Tiananmen square? Was Fashion the reason why they were there? They disguise it, Hypnotize it Television made you buy it I'm just sitting in my car and waiting for my... She's scared that I will take her away from there Dreams that her country left with no one there Mezmerize the simple minded Propaganda leaves us blinded I'm just sitting in my car and waiting for my girl I'm just sitting in my car and waiting for my girl I'm just sitting in my car and waiting for my girl I'm just sitting in my car and waiting for my Girl

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